I have a Landmark Education friend. In Landmark you invent a new possibility for yourself and your life as often as daily... Possibility used to fix your wretched life... in spite of the fact that possibility does none of that.
I may talk about this in another article, but in this one, I'd like to share my educated take on LOVE... and some other topics...
This friend has been calling me all week. He invented loving people. Suddenly he is calling me. And gushing... about love, loving me, blah blah blah.
I get curious. Then the truth comes out: He hates me, or at the least dislikes me, and the experience of EVEN loving ME, is exhilarating.
He comes over. I share something, and I feel as his insides turn. I watch his face as it distorts. And then he tells me the truth: "I was like I hate this woman... I hate her guts... and then I returned to MY possibility... and now I love you... Yaay!
Flipping the switch. Hm... really? Or is that a thin veneer on hate?
Love is only available for people who are so full of their Self, so loving their lives and their Selves, that it is overflowing. That is the only authentic love, the rest of it is pretend love.
When available for love, you firmly stand in your vertical self, and the distance or gap between the two selves, the self (the worldly self) and the Self is small or at least bridged often. The job of the Unconditional Love Activator is to make this surgical removal of distance easier. I am at 68%... which means to you that it's
- not easy
- not instant
- not achieved without work
The actual work we do in the Playground. In that innocent little program, that just like many small levers, moves big boulders. I have gone from 50% loving and accepting my self to 68% in the past two months or so. I feel the difference, and I think this is at the core of me being more loving and less judgmental in my life, and on the calls. For me this is a fantastic result.
On my site, still to this day, people buy the Unconditional Love activator in the highest numbers. Why? Because they want love. Why would you want love? Because you don't have it.
These are also the same people who pretend to love others, pretend to love everybody, preach altruism, and complain about the ego.
There is a total misuse of the words ego, soul, self, and spirit... they are not interchangeable, and they all have a role to play in evolving you into a human being. By the way, it is convenient means for so-called spiritual teachers to use confusion: a confused mind believes everything.
A confused mind will come back for more. Will come back because it can't make heads and tails out of their lives.
A person who was told that it's all about love, that they are supposed to love, but they can't... because they don't love themselves, is going to feel guilty, and will be driven to desperate pretending.
To them it looks that others are able to master love, judging from the number of times they say love like this "luv". So he/she wants to be as good as others, and they join the chorus of pretenders.
But pretending makes you wretched, pretending takes you out of your Self, and the more you pretend the less you know who you are, the less you are able to fill yourself up, and have an overflow of you to give... because that's what real love is.
I personally have never met a person who was like that. Overflowing. I have never met anyone who loved themselves. I have never met a person who wasn't living for the appearances of being loving, or successful, or competent, etc.
This is why I am still single.
All the men that wanted to be with me, wanted the overflow of my selves to nurture them, but they had nothing to give. Only to take. Exhausting.
And the most terrifying thing is, that when you have lived like that, for a while, all directed toward outside recognition, when you look inside, you see nothing. There is no you, no self, no nothing. So when a "normal" person meditates, they don't really look inward: they will not dare go there.
So let's look at meditation: in practice.
I know "meditators" that, while they were sitting closed eyed and cross legged for years, chanted, repeated mantras, smiled, or what have you, have never taken even a tiny little step inward.
To go from no self to self, i.e. stay on the periphery of your being, meditation will not be useful. The self will not arise from that emptiness.
So what is there to do is doing what Cinderella's bird friends did: separate the Self from the no-self.
Can you do it by yourself? I doubt it. I need partners to do it with, and I think you'll need too.
Yesterday I had a painful recognition of the fact that I still have to do more of that work. I have the tools, I have the energies, I have the connection to Source, but none of them do the work for me: I have to do the work. They, the energies only help.
The wonderful thing I find about the activators that they never take you to a place where you cannot deal with it.
Don't be mistaken, the road to happiness, to joy, to fulfillment is not a walk in the park, it is a skinning yourself alive process. But just like you can use a loofah to shed the top layers of your skin, daily, and you won't really hurt too much, you could go to a surgeon to cut away your skin... and that would be horrible. Or get into a fire, and need skin-replacement.
I know my examples are horrible, but it is true: if you wait for Life to do it for you, it will be like the surgeon's knife or the house-fire.
Instead, I recommend the gentle approach, the activators and peeling away the layers in conversations, preferably someone who doesn't have an agenda...
Activators (aka Avatar State Audios)
Each activator has a focus, but each activator starts with what you have, and attempt to remove that, or more precisely, show you, make you feel, that you are not that.
The activators work like a separator machine, a centrifuge. Separate the butter from the whey... for example. At some point the butter can see: "Oh, I see, I am butter, and that is whey. I am not that."
If you thought that the abundance generator will bring you money, then you were mistaken. The abundance generator will focus on the false self that prevents you from wanting to work, from wanting to generate value that can be sold, that wants you to be a fraud, a second-hander, 1 a moocher or a looter. Or a victim, a hapless effect.
It will work if you understand what it is trying to do, because you will allow yourself to have the insight... or the upsight, and start acting differently.
All activators are a 50-50 deal. If you don't generate your being and actions, the activator won't either.
Making the activator louder won't do you any good, what's missing is your work to help the activator peel off the unproductive layers of your persona.
What is the work? Your work is recognizing what's unproductive, bringing awareness to it. Do not try to change: it will just drive the nasty stuff underground. Don't suppress it. Just bring awareness to it, a kind of watchfulness, that says: "oh yeah. There you are."