It's Sunday, so I permit myself a little more time to find out what is other people's agenda... i.e. I read some emails in my inbox.
I do it randomly: I allow the spirit to move my hand that holds the mouse.
I think my conscious mind is completely disengaged: I am not looking for anything in particular: I have more on my plate than I can handle, thank you very much.
THE HAND opens a video. Brendon Burchard pitch video for High Performance Academy. Something about getting things done.
It auto-starts... I scramble for my headset. I catch the tail end of his introduction... I am drawn into the video... and then, suddenly, I need to go to the bathroom, blah blah blah.
Hm. I always pay attention when something is "suddenly".
No matter what he is going to say, it is going to upset the apple cart. No matter how long it's taken me to arrange the apples on the cart, what he is going to say will force me to re-arrange the whole darn thing: is it worth it?
Not only that, if I want to be listening, I will need to listen from nothing, which means I need to declare myself incompetent... and I am the most productive person I know... but still.
And not only that, in what he is teaching, I will be a beginner. And I will need to bring all the changes to all the areas of my life, including my teaching: is it worth it?
Familiar lurches of fear, anxiety, anguish, fear of failure perform their light show in my stomach and chest... I am still on the potty, taking my time. Going back to the computer means decision time, and I am not ready...
Maybe everyone is like me: maybe I should allow my students to run to the bathroom and in the peace of the smallest room of an apartment, allow them to choose to be trained, choose them to allow me to upset the apple cart, again and again and again.
I come back and watch the video. Of course it upset the apple cart.
I don't know what I am learning, but I definitely retained one thing: people don't only want you to care about them: they want you to care about whether they will learn what you are teaching or not. Wow, I never thought about that. Do I care? Do they know I care?
I really hope so.
I have been teaching (coaching is teaching!) for about 25 years, and only just recently have I been able to experience being effective. I think I care that they learn more than they care! And yet... Maybe I wasn't caring about them enough?
Whatever the case, something changed and I, we are experiencing real learning, us, the handful of students that set out to be pathfinders for the new humanity.
We are a diverse bunch, on all different levels with all different issues. And we are moving.
I take a mental note to share this with the group: don't forget to care. Don't forget to be present with people. Don't think you can get anywhere with people feeling left behind.
It's probably not a coincidence that this week I had to perform six psychic surgeries.
Don't ask me what it means, I can only share the experience: I have someone on the call. They are blocking an activator download, or even the Heaven on Earth download. I check and it's one person, and the blockage is in a specific area of their body.
I ask if it is a Dark Side attack, if it is limited to them, if it is aimed at us.
I reach in, I grab the intruder, I start to pull, and pull and pull, until all of it is outside of the body of the effected. Many are 30-40 yards long, much like a long long worm or snake. I clap my hands, and continue doing the session. I have a fleeting moment of fear that the "thing" may get into me, but I brush it off, and I am fine.
Six of these in a week.
I have identified that all of these were from their haughty behavior, being condescending, acting as superior.
I completely identify with the anger and vengefulness of those let down by my students. I h-a-t-e being put down myself! Don't you?
You are not superior, you need to see the best and the divine in people. We are all in all different places, and none of us are better.
Work on doing YOUR work, and work on appreciating others. Life will be much better, and I won't have to do psychic surgeries, instead of teaching you.
Allow me to upset the apple cart... you don't know how to put people at ease just yet.