The other day I didn't feel like working at all... so I watched two movies in a row.
Both were interesting, but the one... about choices, made a deep imprint on me, and made me look at this issue: choices.
The symbology of the movie, Mr. Nobody, is rails, showing the rails as they are splitting, and splitting and splitting... the choices followed would give you feedback of the myriad different lives you could have lived...
But some choices are clear. And you can agonize over those choices until you get to a point that the choice is gone: you can't choose any more.
But in that movie, a little boy, 8 years old, has to choose between staying with his father, or leaving with his mother... and the movie is about the results of either of those choices... in parallel.
It's fascinating, and it's sad... until the very last minute, where finally, Nemo, the little boy, is 116 years old, and finally he gets what was the right choice, the only choice that results in happiness... and all that 108 years of history disappears, and he goes and makes that choice.
I don't know about you, but I am so not used to happiness, even in a movie, that I was jolted out of my equilibrium, and started to think about happiness... Where you are loved for who you are, accepted, cherished, waited for, where you belong so totally that nothing can go wrong.
I wept a little... and then I realized that being with yourself, the real you, is a lot like what you have always wanted... because you can accept yourself, you can love yourself for who you are, you can cherish yourself, you can wait for yourself until you are ready, and you really and totally belong to yourself.
The only thing that is "missing" from this picture is "the other".
Because when it comes to another... hell begins. Because for them to be totally accepting you, you need to accept them totally... and that is not so easy. It is not even easy to accept yourself... but accepting another? Cherishing another? Totally belong with another?
That is beyond what most people are capable of... And of course, you can't... unless you go through what it takes to unite the two yous, to be One...
The later you begin, the longer it will take.
The Bug Free Mind book is a great way to start... but my articles are only second best.
But just know, that until you can be naked and feel no shame, you are not there... just remember that.