We'll look at the Three R's, resignation, resentment, regret. We are going to create a turning point in our lives.
Most people wait for something to turn them and their lives around. We are going to take an active approach... we are going to create this turning point by doing the exercises fully.
You will need your integrity checklist for this... You don't want to make this an event, you want to make it a gentle process, where you bring light to where there is none, breath, freedom.
As long as you are wrecked by the three R's, beingness is not available to you, only pretense.
This is how the blockages are born:
The ego/mind makes far fetching, sweeping assumptions, it closes the door on possibility, intimacy, love, because of things you did, you didn't do, or were done to you.
We'll start with the first R: resentment. 1
In resentment something happened, something happened to you, that you judges as unjust, unloving, and unfair, and hurtful.
You have many resentments.
Your first job is to make a list of all the people, groups, or organizations that you hold a grudge against.
Take at least 10 minutes to make your list.
Start with the 3rd person on the list.
We'll bring forgiveness to those people, true forgiveness. And we'll keep going back and forgiving them, until all the charge disappears, and there won't be any feelings when you recall the incident.
I will do the work with Landmark Education. My complaint is that they treated me in a way that made it clear to me that they will never recognize my greatness, my contribution.
Don't forget, I have forgiven rapists, and thieves, and abusers already, so I am down to my last forgiveness...
If you pay attention, my complaint is in sync with my soul correction: they didn't acknowledge me as superior.
You'll detect a common theme in your forgiveness list: and your list will be in sync with your soul correction.
This knowledge will be very useful: it will guide you in this process.
OK, here is how it goes:
- Step 1:Recall the incident. Be there. Where was it, what did you do, what did they do. Who else was there? What was the temperature like? Were there any noises? Smells? Sensations?Now tell it like a movie script: they did and you did etc.
What did you feel? Feel it now.
Now, still in movie script style, look at the incident from their point of view... how it was for them. Use intuition.
For example, in my case, they felt superior (my perpetrators) and they felt threatened by this little nobody (me) who came out of nowhere saying things that threatened their superiority.
Then, again, switch the story, and retell, like a movie script, from the onlookers' point of view. Even if there was no actual onlooker, the camera could be there, rolling.
In my story, it was simple: this "god," Forum Leader, was approached by a participant and tried to explain something to the "god." The "god" made a dismissive move and left the conversation. The participant stood there for a long time, puzzled and hurt facial expression, looking in the direction of the closing door of the Forum Leader room.
- Step 2: What did that happening, what did that incident teach you about yourself, about the world? How did it benefit you?You may have never looked at it this way: you will now.
How this benefited me is this: I realized that I am on my own. That I am a leader not a follower. It opened up the world of creating my own "school" instead of giving Landmark my time, my heart... Without that incident it would not have happened. I am actually seeing it unstuck me.
This may take you the longest time, but if you don't actually see, don't actually feel gratitude, do not move to the next step.
Even being raped, being abused, being abandoned, being put to prison have their benefits if you are willing to look.
- Step 3: Put yourself into the other person's shoes and become them. Same age, same gender, same urges, same upbringing, religion, education, cultural influences.Feel what it was like for them. See what they did from their point of view. What they felt then, what they felt after.
When I was about three and a half, I was raped by a drunk man.
I could not shake it off until I did this part of the mental exercise.
In this part I could feel the regret, remorse, the shame, the horror this person felt when he sobered up.
I could see that he suffered more than I did.
I released him from his bondage when I forgave him, and I could feel his gratitude.
People are people, even murderers feel shame, sadness, remorse, shame.
When you can feel compassion, sadness for them, then you are ready to forgive them.
Don't just rush to be done: it won't do anything for you.
You really need to feel sad for them, warm for them, grieve for them.
Then tell them...
Warning: this is a mental exercise. Don't you DARE talking to the person! It won't go well. It is your process, and it has nothing to do with them.
You are not doing it for them, you are doing it for YOU.
No one told me this, and I made the blunder to write to my mother and write to my father. It put me in even deeper bondage.
If you are having a difficult time doing it without a partner, pick someone who you trust to be a stand-in for the other person.
For a time I worked with incest victims. I did the most good, maybe the only good, when I allowed them to tell me everything that was there to say, as if I were the perpetrator.
Then forgive them. Say: I forgive you. Feel the burden fall away, the tension disappear. If you don't... go back and do it again, with the same person.
- Step 4: do this with every person on your list.
If you need help, write to me... email is OK in this case.
This article is getting too long: I will put the exercises for regret and resignation in another article. Stay tuned.
r??zentm?nt/ resentment; plural noun: resentments. Meaning:
bitter indignation at having been treated unfairly.
"his resentment at being demoted"
synonyms: bitterness, indignation, irritation, pique, dissatisfaction, disgruntlement, discontentment, discontent, resentfulness, bad feelings, hard feelings, ill will, acrimony, rancor, animosity, jaundice;