Welfare recipients eat bread of shame.
Adult children who don't pull their weight live on bread of shame
And I have had some opportunities for bread of shame...
Receiving bread of shame is often the perpetration in the perpetration-withhold dynamic.
You receive unearned benefits... and to compensate, you get angry and hate the giver. Nasty dynamic. Sinister.
A weird type of bread of shame, when two people exchange value, but both considers their contribution unappreciated, and then there is mutual hate. This is what happened between me and my previous chiropractor. There was an agreement that he treats me and I coach him, but he felt he gave more, I felt I gave more, neither of us felt appreciated: now we don't talk.
And then there are the very rare cases, when one is lavishly giving, and the other one has the capacity, a DNA capacity, a spiritual capacity, to reciprocate the gift with becoming successful, by using the gift as an opportunity.
It has happened to me twice.
It is a very high consciousness capacity.
I first experienced its power in 1964, when my father had to bail me out, so I don't get kicked out of the high school that didn't want me. It was going to be the second school within a year, and accurately he saw that it was going to destroy me.
So he went way beyond the call of duty, and curried favor for the school beyond what is ethical or legal.
I was allowed to stay. I felt I needed to make it worth his while. We never spoke about it, but I went from third to last, to second from the top in my elite class.
I grew wings, that was the only appropriate reciprocation of the gift he bestowed upon me.
My father has been dead 24 years, and I still get tears in my eyes, tears of gratitude and appreciation.
The second time it happened is over this past weekend: someone gave me the opportunity to continue my work.
Instead of asking me to be grateful, she asked me to increase my efforts to make a living.
Not as a condition... I would have resented it, but as a gift... a second gift. The gift of being a witness to my life, to me generating myself, to me returning to flying... instead of just surviving.
Life has been giving you all it has given, and you have never thought that life wants you to reciprocate. The the way to stop eating bread of shame is to make something of yourself, to become worth a damn.
People give lip service to gratitude and appreciation, but no one has thought of saying:
You live on bread of shame, your heart is full of anger and hate, because you never earned what you have received.
But, of course, you can't. Because the capacity, I guess, even to see how it works, is a high level capacity, and you don't have it activated.
But at least you see why your life is full of anger at life, and maybe even hate...
Two of my students would be able to keep the capacity open...
Comment below if you are one of them, or if you see why life has been typical of "bread of shame."
- Kabbalah teaching on Bread of Shame:
A deeper analysis of human nature, however, reveals that requiring work, toil and effort from man was an act of ultimate and perfect goodness by G?d. When a person invests effort, he earns his reward. Even when he has not exerted great effort, but has merely pleased another person, the other might be moved to give him a gift. But in a case when even this factor of pleasing another is absent, and he receives a totally gratuitous handout, purely as a donation -- this is "bread of shame" that does not satisfy, but distresses.
Make no mistake — nothing is free in this world. Nothing. We either pay now or we pay later with some form of chaos in our life. Nothing is free. Bread of Shame is a fundamental Kabbalistic concept and it is a fact and law of this universe. Bread of Shame means we receive nothing in this physical dimensions known as planet earth without earning it. Why? Because we, the souls of humanity, told the Creator we want to earn and become the very cause and creators of the fulfillment we receive. You see, there is something far more profound and infinitely greater than having endless paradise. What is that? It’s creating and becoming the cause of the paradise that we are experiencing — instead of having it handed to us for free.
... the Light loves us and gives to us unconditionally and it does create Bread of Shame, but that will never stop. The focus of the Light is not on itself, but to share. It is our responsibility to engage in restriction, sharing, and being loving so we can earn what is given to us continuously. Therefore, part of this process is to be “a Light-like being.”
The act of loving unconditionally is more important for us than the recipient. In acting like the Light we earn the connection with it. Many times, when you give or love unconditionally, it shines so brightly that it gives the other person the inspiration to become part of that as well. Generally, with spiritual work we should always focus on our own work and less on the work of another person.