The Harmony of the Universe... and human race that blocks the flow
The Universe, as we call it, (all existence, all-of-it, are other possible names for it) is an incredible harmonious flow, from the tiniest part to the largest part, all flowing, all moving, ever changing.
Originally this included the species we call humans. Until something went wrong, and instead of consciousness, humans started demonstrating self-consciousness.
My story is, my interpretation of the biblical story of the Original Sin, sounds slightly different from the current Christian, or even Jewish interpretation.
The question that no one debated until now, I think, is:
What did the serpent say to Eve?
Was it really about some apple, some tree?
I say, No. I say, the serpent said: Aren't you embarrassed to be seen naked? Aren't you embarrassed to show your privates uncovered? 1
Those two questions were the dividing line between humans being in the flow of the Universe and being a disruption to the flow of the Universe.
Those two questions created self-consciousness, and started to kill self-awareness, and even consciousness.
Before that event life was wonderful, life was to live, life was to rejoice, to create, to move with the flow.
From that point on life was about rules. Life was about fitting in, being well thought of, being smarter than another, competition, killing, stealing, dominating, tormenting, owning, gaining power over, who has the biggest "you know what".
This is the reality we live in.
My life in and out of the flow
Let me show you, through my own life, how this may play out in the life of an individual:
I was born prematurely. I was born with the body weight of two pounds. There were no incubators in 1947, or not in the hospital where I was born. I wasn't supposed to make it, but I did. I hung in there. I was fed formula, and cow's milk, and I became a colicky, sickly little girl, who threw up, had diarrhea, and continuous belly ache, migraines, dyslexia, and other nice stuff.
I ate what I wanted, not what was served, so I got beaten every day. I was skinny as rail, but nothing bothered me. I was an explorer, climbed trees, distance peed with the boys, stole toys from kindergarten, sucked on lemons, ate lots of unripe fruits. The tarter the better.
I was infamous, a rebel, a rule-breaker. I didn't fit in and it was mighty fine with me.
I was top of the class, even though I could not see the blackboard: I was very near-sighted, but because they "knew" I was stupid, they didn't check my eyes until I was nine.
I continued to be like this for a long time. Beaten, despised, and top of my class. I competed in swimming, ping-pong, the uneven bars. In the mornings I ran to the swimming pool at 5:30, down the cobblestone street knowing that a false step would surely break my neck. I never took a false step, and I never slowed down.
After I graduated, a new wave of "not-fitting-in" came: I even weathered that.
I was an architect, displaced, but unbroken. Until I did a few-year stint with structural engineering. That broke me.
Before that stint I "knew" the correct size of every beam and column, I guessed the number of steps on a long mountain climb, I guessed the number of jelly beans in a jar, I wasn't off even with one.
I was in the flow, I got the knowledge from someplace other than my head. My head was empty, and I loved it.
But then trouble began to put a foot in my life's door: I was hired to be the structural engineer of a very special museum extension: the architect specifically asked for me, and they hired me away from my previous firm. He asked for me because I was really and architect with an intuitive knowledge of structures.
I had a team of 10 people and I worked 14 hours a day. The firm had to maintain a team of three to check on my measurements: I didn't bother to do any calculations.
Although the measurements were OK, I was hated. They were harassing me. I was an oddity, I made them look bad. What took me a glance took them a computer and a few hours of calculations to prepare the data.
I started to get self-conscious. They threatened to fire me if I didn't shape up. I started to do calculations... and I destroyed my connection to my right-brain, my creativity, my life force.
I started to be lost, aimless, depressed, unmotivated, and greedy.
When I stopped being a problem to others I started to be a problem to the universe.
Psychiatric ward after psychiatric ward I finally left Hungary hoping that in another country I could be myself.
Not until I started to follow my calling again, socially unacceptable as it was, that I started to return to my connection and to my sanity.
How to restore the flow
And now, after a lifetime (almost) of being off the beaten path, I am attempting to assist people to re-connect to their harmonious-with-the-Universe nature, to step out of the mind and step into their inner sanctum, into their CORE, to use the tools human beings came with, the attention, the will, the soul, and the ego... instead of just the eyes and the mind.
An uphill struggle, if you ask me, but not impossible.
Some of my students connect for a moment or two, get glimpses to their hidden aspects, and those moments, those glimpses will grow into controllable, long stretches of harmony, and flow at will. Brilliance at will, if you really want to know the truth.
Others, the engineering type, mostly men, haven't been able to get out of the mind, just yet.
They live in the past, locked into that, and locked out of the bliss, joy, exhilaration of the moment, and brilliance that comes from the beyond when you are in the flow.
What's next? I am not giving up. I am an innovator, and I trust that the jail-break is imminent and I'll be given the tools.
After all, the Universe is always trying to restore the flow. The tighter we resist the more the Universe is shaking our cage.
Maybe the extreme weather, the diseases, the widespread misery are simply the symptoms of being out of sync, out of the flow... what do you think?
- And this marked the beginning of humans making up their own book of good and evil, and disconnected from all-of-it, from the flow, from the harmony of the universe. This marks the beginning of humans starting to live with an external guidance system instead of internal, the part that is connected to all of it. This marks the beginning of humans looking in their memory to decide, to understand, to live. And this also marks the falling from grace, becoming slaves and masters, oppressors and oppressed, haves and have-nots, ultimately what is the state of humanity today. No fun, no grace, no guidance, mayhem and havoc.