I Can’t Be Happy Unless… How to get out of your own way?

prayer for messiah, the saviorHere is another example  for the unless (or-ness)… the distinction I’ve been trying to teach you, so far quite unsuccessfully. Why? Because it is really simple, but is really hard… and I am not quite able to express myself clearly yet… I am getting there, I promise.

Here is the article from 2011.

I caught myself, red handed, up to my chin in misery, wallowing… yuck.

I had been depressed for two straight days. It wasn’t someone else’s feeling, it was mine. It sucked. I mean, literally, it sucked me dry, took away my aliveness…

Yesterday I regretted that last week when I had a chance to get off the planet I didn’t go. Today I started to contemplate jumping off from some high place…

unlessAt five I was repeating in my head: right behind this darkness is the light, waiting for me to call the bluff… “What bluff? My life is over, no one wants what I have to offer, and therefore my life is wasted.” Said my mind, and it all sounded noble.

Noble and miserable. I felt personally offended. Hm. This is familiar! I used to chuckle at that phrase… Just can’t remember what was so funny about it!

Hey, there is another sentence right behind it:

Grumpy-Cat-Addicted-to-Fitness-MemeI can’t be happy unless… Unless I can have it all, unless, unless unless….

This will be the next activator, good catch. I can feel the misery starting to lift. It’s time to drive this baby home! I am starting to feel clearer, maybe even excited!

“But what was I up to? Why did I start all this journey in the first place?” I ask.

“Oh, to find a way to effectively alter people’s thinking so they can get out of their misery and start making money, stop procrastinating, having fun…” I answer my own question.

Oh, that? That’s what I have been up to? I have accomplished that months ago! so what’s the problem?

Hah, I got sucked into being the Messiah, I think! I don’t even believe in a Messiah!

Let me get back to the original goal and start mining it.

World Transformation is not a good goal if it makes me miserable. Maybe the people feel that I self-selected for this Messianic role… and they don’t like it.

“Hey, that makes us two! I don’t like it either!”

“We are at the end of the summer, and I haven’t done anything summer-y!”

“It is not too late.” I’ll start with looking out of the window of my tree-house-like an apartment. Beautiful. The birds love to share it. The sky is blue behind the leaves. The church bells say 6 o’clock.

  • I am going to enjoy life as long as it lasts.
  • Play with the people who want to play with me.
  • The more the merrier.

The above was an example of self-coaching. In the What’s the Truth About You workshop I’ll coach you… I’ll coach you… and depending on where you are at, you’ll be able to… or not, to take the coaching. I’ll do my darned best to coach you on the level where you are.

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Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

True empath, award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar

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