A few years ago, OK, I just looked it up: exactly 10 years ago I bought a bunch of books written by L. Ron Hubbard of Dianetics and Scientology fame.
I ended up reading only one of them halfway, watching a video, and leafing through another book.
I don’t like to be influenced much, and I especially don’t like to speak ‘Tree of Knowledge’ stuff… repeating what others said.
As a young woman, still a student, I lived with a philosophy student whose father was a famous philosopher. They had ‘classes’ every Sunday… he, his two brothers, and his father. My friend, Bundi wasn’t a thinker. His middle brother was. The brother has a Wikipedia entry, my friend is long forgotten.
I’ve had a student who also went to university to study philosophy. Also not a thinker. He never wrote his thesis… He was too cowardly to have an opinion, to do his own thinking.
I am willing to be wrong, therefore I often end up seeing stuff that others haven’t seen. And so it was with this Ron Hubbard dude. I saw what he didn’t see.
I read what I read from Ron Hubbard because I was writing a review about him and his stuff. At that time I just wrote vibrational reviews about people.
I also interviewed two people I’d known who went through his audition… a day long conversation to dig stuff up to the tune of 5-10K. Dollars. Nowadays it is a set $800 an hour, according to the internet.
Both of my acquaintances remained unchanged.
But that doesn’t change the fact that what he said in his book, Dianetics, about the original incident isn’t incredibly valuable… it is. What anyone did with it, unfortunately, isn’t.
In the original incident our main character: you, make a few mistakes. In essence, you are the perpetrator. Perpetrate, the verb, doesn’t mean what English made it mean: you can perpetrate good and you can perpetrate bad… in fact, living like a perpetrator is what makes you a human being, living like an effect is what leaves you a homo sapiens.
It is an attitude, it is a mindset, it is a relationship to life… It says: ‘I am cause’.
And whether you know it or not, you always cause… the question is: do you own it?
Do you own ALWAYS?
That original incident is the key to everything: as long as it remains a drama, as long as you remain a victim, as long as it hasn’t been looked at from every possible angle, your life is repeating the same incident, trying to force you to learn the lesson.
Or to be exact: lessons.
This is why after 35 years of intense work on myself some lessons are still showing themselves to be learned.
Oh, that wasn’t very good English, I hope you can forgive me.
One of the lesson in that incident I learned yesterday. I didn’t mean to learn it… I must have gotten just ready.
I was listening to the recording of the Enlightened Warrior Camp and the leader was reading from the book The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz. I read that book back in 2005. I remember nodding… When you nod, it is a sign that you are not learning.
He says: Don’t Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.
In my imagination I went back to my originating incident and contemplated that my mother said what she said about herself.
It was horrifying first, I had to struggle to not vomit. I cried.
Is that all she could see? See herself as that? Horrible.
But when you look and consider that what she said ‘about me’ was not about me, it wasn’t a ‘sentence’ as in a lifelong judgment of me… it was a judgment of her.
A condemnation of herself.
Still not pretty, but a new scenario. Am I willing to learn that I can be innocent, beautiful, valuable, wanted AGAIN? After 70 years of both fighting what she said and making it happen?
I am still not quite on the other side of this chasm, but I am close.
You are lucky, you are not as old as I am… I don’t have much life left.
You can start understanding what the lesson is, and start learning it. Judging from my students’ reactions, it is not only me who never even contemplated what the lesson was…
Even though I could have seen it earlier… But you are only ready when you are.
Judging from my inner upheaval, it is not easy. Emotionally. Existentially.
Should you read The Four Agreements? Yeah. You probably should. But you’ll only get what you are ready to get from it.
One of the common characteristic of my students is that they don’t speak clearly. They don’t say what they mean. They don’t ask for what they want.
Some students: that is the only lesson they need to learn… and likely will remain till they die.
Be Impeccable With Your Word
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.
That is one of the agreements the book teaches.
In Sunday’s Freedom class we had a 40 minute part where we looked what was the lesson ‘hidden’ in the first incident. If you want to hear the conversation, I recorded it. It is, in fact, christened the 55th invisible.
In fact, it is still the most invisible of all the invisibles. And judging from the involuntary wiggling of my insides… the toughest.
I want you to have it.
It is on my mobile app… You need to get my mobile app at the right place, install it on your smartphone… And follow the instructions. If I can do it you can do it too. When MY teacher first started a mobile app, I upgraded my phone… the app doesn’t work on older phones. It was worth every penny.
I have tons of free stuff on my app, stuff that you’ll have access to once you register. After you register you will be taken to the exact audio of the 55th invisible.
And if you missed the 54th… here is the link again.
PS: The internet is full of articles that talk about the lessons you need to learn, lessons, 30, 45, 137 lessons…
Yeah, maybe they are good lessons. But that is not what this article is about. This article is specifically about neutralizing that first incident, the seed level of your whole life.
Unless you do that, unless you learn the lesson or lessons in that one incident, all your learnings are worthless. Guaranteed.
Don’t live like that, don’t die like that.
All the money in the world will not balance that loss that can be balanced out by learning that lesson.
In the course I plan to create when I have a little breathing room, Build your house on rock… that is all we are going to do. Identify and learn the lesson. No other course in the world offers that. 🙁
I have had many coaches, and teachers in my life. No one knew what to say so that I could realize, learn, that my mom was talking about herself, not me.
So, as you see, the 55th invisible is so invisible, only 3 people can see it… who the other two are: I have no idea. Muscle test says they are in Africa of all places… So I am the one for you… if and when you are ready.