I woke up from a recurring nightmare around 4 am today.
I was employed as an architect but I was
too foggy and weak, and unmotivated to work, I was just wandering all day, not able to do any good work.
Still in the nightmare: I was coming back from the lunch break having one
desire only: climb under the drafting board and sleep. Or dream of a company that has siesta rooms…Hide.
Then the boss calls for me and says: Sophie, we need to talk.
I need to explain my non-performance, but
Brain fog is not an accepted excuse for work not done…
This is when I woke up with a start, at 4 am… and started to muscle test different questions.
Continue reading “Narcolepsy, tiredness, adrenal fatigue, brain fog, panic attacks…”
Yesterday I found a quote that shook me to my core… So I want to start with that. You could say: that quote accurately expresses my attitude about life… and I am moved by that
It is 60%
truth value, not because 40% of it is not true, but because it doesn’t quite distinguish the path, doesn’t look at the invisible dynamics of life it a way, that people can catch themselves as they make themselves miserable…
It is never circumstances, nor other people that make you miserable, it is your inability: lack of distinctions, to see exactly what creates your attitude and behavior.
You can’t catch what you can’t see! And lack of
distinction is the cause of it. Distinction is the ability to tell two things apart, even if and when they are very similar.
Until you can… and to the degree that you can’t… everything is the same for you as everything else… you are a bumbling idiot when it comes to life.
Continue reading “I am starting to change my mind about Jordan Peterson. Here is a 60% truth value video”
As I said it before, I have a strong affinity to the dramatic… in every area of life. This may be part of my bipolar personality… taking things to the extreme.
I do that with food… I call them experiments, but largely these are experiments taken to the just too much…
And, or course, I pay the price. With my health, mainly.
But… as in everything, there is a silver lining, a benefit, that I would be amiss not to appreciate.
I have discovered almost everything in the area of health this way. Or in the area of training, self or others… or in anything else.
So my latest “fad” thing has been sorghum. I cooked up a huge vat of sorghum seeds with sauteed (fried?) onions and butter… delicious.
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If you feel like you want to transcribe this audio and let me have it, please do so. I’ll appreciate it and you’ll learn ton from it.
Miko transcribed this audio: thank you very much, Miko!
This post is going to be about something really important. If I look at all the people that contact me, all the people that I teach, all the people that I know, they have no idea about it, and even I am just starting to scratch the surface. I mean, maybe I am years ahead of you, but even that is just scratching the surface.
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The only effective method to make something work is to remove, little by little, all the things that make it not work, or not work as well as it could.
This is true in every area of life.
So what can be removed?
Continue reading “Remove just one attitude… and your happiness will grow 60%”
Do you ever wonder why in spite of all your good qualities, nice acts, maybe even achievements, your vibration is low, maybe even very low?
Everyone hopes that their good acts redeem bad acts, but when we look at vibration: this is not what we find.
You cannot and should not ignore how reality works… so let’s look.
Your vibration is almost always lower than you think.
I have started to watch TV shows on the computer recently again, after months of just reading.
Continue reading “Give up liberties so you can have true freedom… or how fighting the strings on your puppet self create a life of unhappiness”
Human history has gone from problems to bigger problems throughout most of its 200 thousand years.
What is fixing?
Fixing needs something to be wrong. Wrong is a systemic judgment, cultural and personal. It is never true in reality… one could say: there is never anything wrong in reality.
Dying is not wrong, dying is dying. Being sick is not wrong, it is being sick. Being slow, ugly, lazy is not wrong, it is just being slow, ugly, or lazy.
This means that any and all fixing is working on something that doesn’t need fixing… so the fixing adds a new wrinkle to things that isn’t supposed to be there… the new wrinkle is not natural. It takes you further away from your natural state: joy, productivity, intelligence, wellness.
Continue reading “When you are fixing something, the solution becomes the next, bigger problem”