"The only thing worth writing about is the human heart in conflict with itself" said William Faulkner. I agree, even though the language, the vocabulary is imprecise.
The "heart" is one self, and the other self is the precious "I", the delusional "I", the lower self.
The conflict, the struggle to make those two selves align, as William Faulkner says, is worth writing about... because it is like a hero's journey.
I call it "soul correction" because I am firmly rooted in Kabbalah's view of life. But it is the same thing: bringing the two selves in harmony so they cause synergy that allows living a life worth writing about.
This morning, while I was measuring someone's starting point measurements, I wondered if there was another word for the desire measure. And it is... drumroll: entitlement. The person feels entitled to get from nature, from the universe, from the world those things that are desired without having to earn it, work for it, barter for it, compete for it... just because they are themselves. Knowledge, love, respect, compliments, stuff, money... It is almost always the same number as the lack of humility number, how much you think of yourself as the center of the universe, as it's about you, take things personally.
The higher those two numbers are the less satisfying life becomes, because you always feel cheated.
Every young child thinks that the world, other people, their emotional state and response is centered around them.
We are judged all the time. Justly, unjustly, the feeling of being judged is familiar to all of us... and some of us is bothered and paralyzed by it more than others.
What's painful in being judged is that the judgment contains a kernel of truth (or more) and the other part is the judging themselves: in judging they place themselves above us... simply unbearable to the sensitive Precious "I".
This story is about my very recent "bout" with being judged... and shows what is on the other side of judgment... how to free yourself from it so it doesn't sting quite that much... maybe not even at all.
Why all techniques of increasing Emotional Intelligence are b.s. and not effecting the level of happiness, the level of well-being of people who practice it.
Same is true about the Emotional Guidance System of Abraham/ Hicks... b.s. and ineffective. Why? Because they are trying to change the fruits instead of the roots... Putting makeup on syphilitic lesions. 1 Or pimples, if you are squeamish...
Feelings are clean. They do four simple things. Make you go for it, make you stop, direct you towards pleasure and away from pain... They are the seed level. The foundation. 2Feelings are what guides you as an organism to feed yourself, to procreate, to stay safe, or to fight. To have a community to belong to, and to have enough information so you know what to do[/note.]