Category: Consciousness: the how dimension

Your homepage… The emotion you return to in the most inconvenient moments

remove someone from your heartWe all have it.

Mine is devastation. It pops up when it's most unexpected. Devastation is between grief and terror... squeezes a tiny drop of tear in my eye, no matter where I am, who I am with, when it hits.

It comes up often when I compliment someone.

The other day I sent out an email. I ended with a sentence: "I love working with you."

Most people just ignored it as social grease.

Two people cried.

One person was pierced by it... dumbfounded why.
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Life is a lot like plate spinning… Are you dropping your plates?

Today I learned a new word.

Injecting energy into something... as a way to delay or avoid entropy. Entropy is the universal tendency of everything to move towards dissolution...

This is the nth time I heard this step in the 67 steps, but this time I heard the expression "injecting energy" for the first time.

If I missed it even though I heard it many times, how many things do you miss?

Read again: Is your inability to say what happened a type of mental illness?

This morning something pulled me back to bed after I got up.

I considered it guidance, and I got back to bed.

What came next was amazing: trips down memory lane, all centering around mental illness, mental stability, your TLB, and what was in common among the many people I remember so clearly, people I spent time with in mental institutions.

As an empath, other people's feelings, emotions tend to tug at me. today 99% of what I feel is not mine... But before I became conscious, before I started to climb the consciousness tree, 30% of the feelings I felt were mine. I also had a lot more noise in my head... all talking at the same time.

The only reason I know, with 20/20 hindsight, that I was hospitalized not for what I felt, is that none of the medication worked... I wasn't the person who was crazy, I just felt the craziness of others.

My theory of mental illness has always been that it is an escape... a hiding place.

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Are you a nice person? Let’s take a look at that

Is it fear? Or is it unwillingness?

The human DNA isn't a DNA for kindness, caring, or any of the "nice" stuff we are supposed to be.

In fact, it will take changing the DNA to go to the next level, to the level of human being, to be able to be kind, caring. For altruism...

Our "soul correction" is the path.

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Selfish? let’s look at that, shall we?

Life is best lived where what you want for yourself is a side effect.

I know, for half of humanity that sounds like liberal nonsense... but this is how life becomes the most enjoyable, and maybe the most "life-earning" as well, in spite of it being counter intuitive.

And this is true in every area of life...

I can't write a better article on this than Zat Rana here.

What I can write best is the wretchedness of going straight for what you want, and quitting when anyone else benefits... And I can share how this... getting what i need as a side effect, consciously, has been one of the secrets of my inner peace, fulfillment, and happiness.

Some 15 years ago I started studying Kabbalah, an ancient body of thought. The truth value of Kabbalah is about 30%, while most other "ancient" teachings are less than 10% truth value, so if you have a large body of knowledge yourself, have read hundreds or thousands of books, have degrees, etc. You are somewhat safe in studying Kabbalah. Continue reading "Selfish? let’s look at that, shall we?"

Intuitive, counter-intuitive… how we use “intuition” to make everything worse

What we call intuition isn't... but WHAT do we call intuition?

The state of the current humanity is chaos. Everyone has an opinion, just like everyone has an a-hole.

So far so good, Sophie... you groan. But from this, honoring one's opinion as important, comes the mischief: everyone insists that their version of reality... aka their opinion, is the real reality.

Same way about what words mean... words like intuition. Continue reading "Intuitive, counter-intuitive… how we use “intuition” to make everything worse"

Why you are not, in fact cannot be curious? Are you screwed now?

I have decided to re-read the Feelings book, and this time make it a study, memorize the names of the different needs, take a more earnest approach to learning the "language" of the machine that is need-based.

I am feeling a mix of fear and excitement. where? in my stomach, expanding to my chest.

My plan is to read/study the book is to study it at the beginning of my evening reading session for about 10 minutes, and then switch to my "other" book... whatever book I am reading in the evening at the time... currently it is "Curious" by Ian Leslie.

I am reading Curious for the second time, and this time it is, given the chance, going to change something in me and consequently in how I teach, how i guide, and what I expect YOU to do.

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You got stuck in the behavior of a 3-4-year old and it is biting you in the ass today

I am writing nowadays a lot about your mental slothfulness, about your lack of knowledge, lack of understanding, and poor absorption of what you are seeing.

In a coaching call yesterday my student started to bring some clarity for me.

He calls it "nodding" when he has no idea what he just heard, or what he just read.

That is the visible part of this huge iceberg... but what is in the immersed part? Continue reading "You got stuck in the behavior of a 3-4-year old and it is biting you in the ass today"

Been there done that! the fixed mindset and how it prevents you from changing yourself and your life…

How the notes you take, the stories you tell, put blinders on you and prevent you from growing... Continue reading "Been there done that! the fixed mindset and how it prevents you from changing yourself and your life…"

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Being judged

We are judged all the time. Justly, unjustly, the feeling of being judged is familiar to all of us... and some of us is bothered and paralyzed by it more than others.

What's painful in being judged is that the judgment contains a kernel of truth (or more) and the other part is the judging themselves: in judging they place themselves above us... simply unbearable to the sensitive Precious "I".

This story is about my very recent "bout" with being judged... and shows what is on the other side of judgment... how to free yourself from it so it doesn't sting quite that much... maybe not even at all.

OK, here we go:

If you've known me for a while, you know that I don't do housework, or really shamefully little. Continue reading "Being judged"