I have been looking at the state of your adrenals to decide and see, not so much into your experience... but your experience matters.
Are you running on empty? By the middle of the day, by Thursday you are ready for the bed or the weekend respectively.
The other day, while leading a workshop, one of the students said something, and I started to laugh uncontrollably. I laughed for minutes, it seemed, and could not stop for a long time. I wept more from laughing than most people cry from sadness, lol.
I have been observing myself the past week or so, and my joy of life, my satisfaction level, my experience of being alive has been going down steadily with every passing day. Yesterday I got close to the breaking point.
I was exhausted. So I thought that I needed rest. Or some food... But then I muscle tested myself and it said I was not tired. I was running on empty. I was depleted... I AM depleted.
If you are in business... or even if you are only selling your time/work at a job or freelancing, pricing your merchandise, friendship, advice, companionship, your time, your service is going to be something worth looking at.
A few decades ago I published a magazine. The magazine was free, the income came from advertising.
A girl whom I knew from before, who worked at the same architect's office I worked, called me and asked if she could trade cleaning my office for advertising. Turns out she was turning tricks...
She came to the office, worked for an hour and expected it to cover the price of a quarter page ad, $200 at the time.
I have updated this post... clarified some things, so read it again...
Humans, YOU, want to fix things...
Fixing is forceful, and narrow cone of vision.
Fixing is low consciousness...
Today's solution is tomorrow's bigger problem.
Your identity, the things you are known for, your typical behavior have all been fixes... solution to some perceived problem and now you are like a puppet on a string... powerless, inauthentic, and incapable of being happy, peaceful, joyful, and fulfilled.
Witnessing is noticing. Noticing is giving value. Giving value is appreciation... The word comes from precious: valuable.
So witnessing is giving value.
Why does something needs to be given value?
Because just like nothing is wrong in reality, nothing has value either. Value is always in the eyes of the beholder, value is given. Individually. You give value to something you got: you got something valuable.
Most people don't know this, and therefore never acknowledge the value they got... if they got any value.
From time to time I watch an animated feature movie on Netflix.
Those movies have the most clues for inner world patterns of all the movies... even though they are clearly designed to distribute memes... to train the next generation to become sheep.
But the artists that make the movies unwittingly, or defiantly, place some fundamental guidance and truth in those movies.
So it is with this little movie: Leap. (In other languages it is called the Ballerina)
It's about a little orphan girl who lives in an orphanage, but dreams about becoming a dancer... a ballet dancer. She escapes the orphanage and goes to Paris to enroll in the famed ballet institute... to fulfill on her dream.
Through unpredictable events, she does... and though she can't dance... a cleaning lady she finds turns out to be an ex famous dancer, until an accident made her an cripple. And she will become her mentor.
Quite a few of my students and clients are in this predicament, I even found myself feeling starved for "companionship"... for someone to hear what I have to say.
What is this about?
The answer, the elegant answer comes from a movie, Shall We Dance? where Susan Sarandon hires a private detective to find out what her husband does every Thursday night, and why he is acting so different.
The private detective asks why Susan Sarandon's character married this guy.
Suffering? Miserable? I have distinguished Three Causes You Have Control Over...
Motto: Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional
Most everybody gets miserable and suffering from time to time. Some more, some less.
I used to be miserable and suffering more than most... and I had no idea how to get out of it. It was like a deep hole, and the bright happy world was outside of the hole, and definitely outside of my reach.
OK, I am in the middle of writing an article, but this hit my inbox and enough of you have been asking for some advice on what to practice... so here it is: observe Keanu Reeves, and learn to be like him...
Can you? The answer is: probably not... but... by learning and internalizing what he is doing as humility, etc, you'll have more of reality and more ways to be than you are being now.
Don't be mistaken: humanity is arrogant. Haughty. Self-centered. Self-aggrandizing. The opposite of what Keanu Reeves is, and the opposite of what would make you life a life worth living.