Some days the DS energies are stronger than others. Today is one of those days.
The energies can effect the emotions (just like the ones in the Heaven on Earth! just the opposite way: make them stronger instead of weakening them), other days the energies are like physical pain... if you imagine someone using a voodoo doll to torture you, by proxy.
I have an appointment at 3 and I need to decide if I should cancel it.
I connect to Source, and I muscle test: "Am I going to be well at 3?" The answer is yes. I know that the question was "illegal", I am not allowed to divinate, ask questions about the future. Hm... I ask another question: "Am I OK now?" and the answer is yes.
I got a brochure in the mail that had pictures of Budapest in it. I left Hungary, and Budapest, the capital I was born and lived for 34 years 32 years ago.
Every time I considered grieving, a song welled up in my head, a song about home and home sickness. It's about longing, and it's about regret. And I refused to regret anything. Like Edith Piaf, Je ne regrette rien. No regrets. 1
It is undeniable that there is more to reality than what you can see with your eyes. The below the water level stuff... or behind the curtain type of stuff... mostly about the invisible dynamics, the invisible motive powers of people, and maybe even stuff.
I grew up atheist, a Marxist, and a seriously anti-religious child. Most of that wasn't from my parents, I don't ever remember them talking about any of that among themselves: they almost never talked to me about anything.
I never thought there were monsters under the bed, or that the Easter Bunny filled the boots in the windows (we are talking about Hungarian customs, don't get confused!) or any other superstition. I was free to observe... unimpeded, unhindered, unguided by others' imagination and fantasies, like religion.
During a recent coaching session, the student was giving the mind1 all the credit for her issues: fear of making a mistake, fear of doing anything new, fear of trusting anyone or anything, etc.
I was listening, and the more she said the clearer it became to me, that she is actually talking about the Ego that uses the Mind as its spokesperson.
My brother is dealing with health problems and he is guided by medicine people, aka doctors. He is getting worse and he is getting more and more sure what he is supposed to do, how he is supposed to eat, how it is... He has the best teachers: doctors.
Medical doctors, organized religion, and Ego have a lot in common.
The human brain may be vast, the human consciousness may be vast, but neither of them compares to the vastness of reality.
So no matter how much human consciousness grows, it will never be able to grasp all of reality.
It's OK... it is just what is so.
Human consciousness, in its ambition, in its desire to comprehend reality, to reduce the risk that life is, to make life predictable and manageable, has been using models of reality: a model is a tool to simplify something complicated, and to make it comprehensible through generalization, imagination. Continue reading "Models of reality: which one is true?"
Every Tuesday my driver picks me up and takes me shopping, to the chiropractor, and other errands.
It makes me look like an old lady, but that doesn't make me an old lady... yet it took me quite a while to warm up to the idea of having no wheels of my own.
I pay her $30 cash, and I didn't have any cash yesterday. So I paid with my debit card and asked for $40 cash back. I normally use the self-checkout line, faster for me.
I was putting away my groceries and I noticed that people were waiting, so I hurried up, and got out of the way. 20 minutes later I noticed that I didn't take my $40, so I went back to ask if the employee overseeing the four self-service checkout machines held the money for me. Continue reading "Pick your battles"
Summery: Money, sex, food, position... the ultimate distractions... And, judging from readers emails: anything that can take our minds off life, reality... entertainment, drugs, will get our attention, our power, our money... our lives.
Kabbalah says that we all have an aspect that can be called The Opponent. It is like the Devil in you... the opposite of The Spirit, The Soul, or whatever you want to call it. It is the aspect of you that wants to fail you, and it works 24/7.
I woke up to a beautiful day this morning. It was barely day yet, but the sky was a beautiful shade of parisian blue, the snow covered huge tree in front of the house glistened a golden brown. What a beautiful day, how nice warm the bed is, how beautiful life is... I snuggled in deeper and fell asleep again.