What’s poisoning your life? What’s poisoning your mind?

One of my favorite readers wrote: When I read this: “but there is no book or course available anywhere that asks you to look at what is poisoning your mind and being, what keeps you out of the present moment, what is sucking you dry anywhere…..”, I thought of the book you wanted to write. I thought that maybe you could have a book that addresses this subject, but in your style.


Judgment: What is judgment? what is it really? The whole picture…


Update: When we are on a lower level of consciousness, we think it is all about us. What we do, what other people say, our results… everything. So our “self” is always in danger of falling off its pedestal, and we feel that with it we die.

The reason: we can’t tell, we don’t even think, that we and our actions are not the same. We can’t see that we do something, and the results of those actions don’t change who we are… there is no real connection. The results are the results, you are you, no connection.

You Suck. And it sucks. But unless you are willing to…

I wrote this email 12 years ago… It is a great reminder for me, and it is quite apropos for you. Even though you may not be in marketing, you may not have a sales letter… but you have me, and I could be your Big Kahuna… So here is the email:
You Suck
Some people get lucky.

Most people I know want to avoid a situation where they can look bad. I know I do.

These are the ones that stagnate.

Then some of those people get lucky and get a mentor who pushes them… pushes them to be more, do more, have more…

Sounds good, right? Let me tell you, it sucks. It sucks big time.


Indigestion. Weight gain. Joint pain. Arthritis. Same cause?

Indigestion… Hunger… Weight gain… pain in joints… arthritis…

About four weeks ago I decided that I’d do what I can to make my life more enjoyable.

During the pandemic I packed on about twenty pounds. I stopped walking, and started moaning.

I started to restrict my food intake… signed up to noom. It looked absolutely hopeless.

With as little food intake as 1000 calories a day I was still not shedding an ounce of weight.

‘OK, I’ll be a fat corps’… I said to myself, ‘but while I am still alive, I want to be able to move about without much moaning.’

A year or two ago I bough myself an exercise equipment I had coveted for twenty years. A professional Precor stretchtrainer. I fell in love with it in the gym, but never was willing to swing the thousand bucks it cost.

But it being the pandemic and all… it was an emergency.

And then I used it for a coat rack… lol. For two years.

So when all my calorie restricting efforts failed, I decided to start exercising, gently, again… and hung up the clothes that were on the machine… and… nothing.

So I turned to what worked for me 20 years ago. I decided that I can’t have my morning tea until I do my stretching for the day.

That was about a month ago.
Here are my results: I have dropped five pounds. I am now eating normally, or maybe even better.
Source has decided to switch up my diet… and now I can’t eat meat or any kind. Vegetarian. Plant based foods, except some fish, some milk products, and an occasional egg.

So this morning I had a heart to heart conversation with Source: why I am dropping weight effortlessly, while I am eating more. And I am eating carbs like nobody’s business too.

Here is what I found out:
All disease is caused by some blockage. When you manage to remove the blockage, the disease can go away.
OK, but what causes blockages?
That is a really good question.

Life causes blockages. All the emotions cause blockages. Everything you do cause blockages. Somewhere in the body.

So when the energy cannot flow normally, without encountering the resistance or the blockage, you get sick…

In this regard overweight is a sign of disease. Disturb or blocked flow.

Because I am so aware, because I am an empath, I can feel when the lymph starts to move. And I can also tell you: before I started to do the stretching daily, the lymph wasn’t moving.

What is the lymph?

It is a circulation in the body, much like blood. But its job is to take away toxins and other byproducts of life from internal organs. When the lymph is slow or doesn’t move, your organs cannot work normally: the byproducts are piling up and prevent the organ to do what it is supposed to do.
So causing the lymph to flow again…
…is like draining the lake in which you are drowning… so you can walk to the shore and be ok.

And as in my case, drop the extra weight, sleep well, have much better mood. If you have brain fog… start stretching. If your

Lower self to higher self, crawling to soaring

Knowing, being, causing, or being the victim of things.
In the Bible the verb “know” meant: knowing intimately. In bed, as a matter of fact. Or in hay… lol.

Today knowing means, for most people, is that their mind has heard about it. We are growing backwards.

Knowledge is power, information is poison. Why it’s poison? Because it fills you up, and you are never hungry for real anything… the poison, the make believe, the fake fills you up.

What the heck am I talking about?


What it takes to get ahead in life, what it takes to raise your vibration from where you are now

We must admit there are people who do LIFE better than we do, they get ahead, they live well, seem happy.

How do successful people do it? They have good judgment. But where do you get such good judgement from? Good judgment comes from bad experience. And the bad experience comes from pain. What you do with it will make all the difference, what is your attitude towards it, will make you win in life, or stuck in life.

Here is a famous story, an illustration:


The secret method to instantly change life

Context is like meaning… it is not part of what it is referring to, it is added to it, by a human. And if it is added, then you have a lot of freedom about it: if you can see, that is.

Most people can’t see the forest for the trees… so if you are like that, you won’t see context, until you look deeper. Beyond the obvious. Beyond your automatic. Beyond your machine-like, conditioned, pre-determined ways.
Why context is decisive, and what it decides if it is so decisive
I have been repeating and repeating this idea, that context is decisive. Finally, yesterday, I managed to get it through, or so it seemed, on the Playground.

Context is the hidden part of everything, the hidden agenda. Everyone has hidden agendas, some more than others, some time more than other times.


What is consciousness, really? Where is it?

I am here, waiting for the cable man to fix my internet. It’s been down since yesterday afternoon.

It is hard to remember what we did with our lives before the internet… for me it’s been 18 years. It is hard to figure out what I can do that does not involve the internet… Finally I settle on writing, editing, and such.

It’s 11:30 am. The repairman was scheduled to be here at 11. I am sitting here, uncharacteristically anxious, contemplating that the man won’t even show up, that he will lie, that I will have to be another day without the ability to work.

It’s excruciatingly painful. I am diligently making room for the bad feelings, including them, breathing normally. Then I have a suspicion: is this mine? I normally don’t get anxious: I take life as it comes.

Turns out I tuned into the repairman: it’s his anxiety. Hm.


The biggest leap to happiness, health, wealth, love…

If you wanted to make the biggest leap up… happiness, health, wealth, love…

What do you think you’d grow?

Some measures are easier to grow than others.

Some measures, like everywhere in life, will grow easily, but  overall their effect will be small.
While others create an avalanche-like result when you grow them even just a little bit..


My first ever webinar in 2009 on getting unstuck

Life is like a spiral staircase… Every problem, every issue will come back to be addressed on a hopefully higher level… Issue like getting unstuck.
I once read a story about Gandhi. A woman came to him with his child. He asked Gandhi to tell the child that eating sugar is bad for him.
Gandhi listened, and then said: please come back in two weeks.
The woman and the child left… and supposedly traveled for days to get home, and then come back again.
They came in, and Gandhi simply said to the child: Don’t eat sugar. It’s bad for you.
The woman piped up: why couldn’t you say that a week ago?
Gandhi answered: Two weeks ago I myself was eating sugar…
This is the story that came up for me this morning.

I am in the middle of a two-day course I am taking (the recordings, of course). A course that teaches people about sales, and why people buy and why people don’t buy. Fascinating, insightful. Fantastic insights already…

I suddenly understand why I bought a course to learn how to put up virtual summits, and yet decided that I am not going to do it. It was an expensive course. Oy.

What I’ve gleaned I had been unfamiliar with.
The belief that I can’t do it, that if I tried to do it it would be a disaster.
There have been things before, things I bought but didn’t even try, but never before had I the clarity that a belief tells me that I can or can’t do.

Why did it come up now? Aren’t you curious?

For 70 odd years it didn’t come up, and suddenly it is there in all its ‘glory’… Why now?

And suddenly I saw: it came up like Gandhi’s sugar… Until I go through myself, it is inauthentic for me to teach it.

A few weeks ago I taught that if you look at life and everything in it as a process, you can get anywhere with enough desire to get there.
I said that as you go through a carefully crafted process, you reshape yourself and your beliefs…
One of my students who has never done anything in his life and that is how he knows himself promptly signed up to a program where I promise to teach that process…

He was really excited. Then. Then proceeded never to do the process. I think he didn’t hear it… I think maybe he already forgot that there is such a process.

If you want something, but you don’t do anything towards it, of course you won’t have it.
Do all courses, or most courses take you through a process to change who you are for yourself?
I don’t think so. And most people whose beliefs say they can’t do something, end up living their entire lives that way.

Now, back to Gandhi.

Gandhi didn’t feel right to tell a child to do something that he himself didn’t do. So he took two weeks to stop eating sweets and then he asked someone to do something that he had done himself: stop eating sugar.

I think my inner guidance threw up this belief, made it visible, so I can first have compassion for my student, and second go through the process of overcoming it, if I have big enough desire for what it would give