I had a unique glimpse behind the curtain today. I was painted a behind the scenes picture of someone I thought I knew.
On the front, in public, the person is quiet, collected, decent.
Her son reports that
she tells everyone in the family who to befriend and who to avoid
she tells everyone in the family what they are allowed to talk about and what they should be mum about.
she takes tranquilizers and washes them off with alcoholic drinks.
Wow. I never expected to see the ugly side of this person. Of course as an empath I felt her “heart” full of hate, full of pretense, but that is not a fact… and the above are facts.
Disorienting. Disturbing. And probably frequent.
I just made a discovery while I was pulling the attachments from a woman who had it really bad. (Her starting vibration was 70, and her ending vibration was 170. That is amazing. Just pulling attachments and cords).
Some of these attachments or cords are not the making of others, sometimes they are cords to fragments of our soul, fragments of our self that we have denied because it was too painful to face ourselves. Or we attached it to a “loved one”…
People ask my why I discontinued the Playground.
After all I loved that program… so why not continue indefinitely.
Two reasons: 1. There were only four participants. But that is not enough reason. 2. The Playground is a knowing yourself program, but knowing yourself needs to be done by you, not by me. People kept coming, but they didn’t continue the work of getting to know themselves at home, in their own time… So all that “self-knowledge” work I did with them was wasted.
Why? Because stronger forces won… You’ll see in this amazing talk, 40 years ago by Osho.
What’s wrong with my Wife?
29 August 1974 am in Buddha Hall THE NINTH SAYING
JESUS SAID: THE MOTE THAT IS IN THY BROTHER’S EYE THOU SEEST, BUT THE BEAM THAT IS IN THINE EYE THOU SEEST NOT. WHEN THOU CASTEST THE BEAM OUT OF THINE EYE, THEN THOU WILT SEE CLEARLY TO CAST THE MOTE OUT OF THY BROTHER’S EYE.
Self-knowledge is the most difficult thing – not because it is difficult, but because you are scared to know about yourself.
Read the rest of this amazing talk on my Osho page
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Yesterday, in the Playground session, we spoke about the fear of death.
“They” say all fear is fear of death. I am not afraid of death. I have faced death several times. Some of the times it was because I was ill. Many of the times I did it to meet death, to make friends with death. And even more often I faced death to get beyond it. To get where only through death you can get.
Update: When we are on a lower level of consciousness, we think it is all about us. What we do, what other people say, our results… everything. So our “self” is always in danger of falling off its pedestal, and we feel that with it we die.
The reason: we can’t tell, we don’t even think, that we and our actions are not the same. We can’t see that we do something, and the results of those actions don’t change who we are… there is no real connection. The results are the results, you are you, no connection.
As I said in my last article, life is drab, drudgery, boring, and meaningless… unless you blow magic dust over it.
Here are a few examples that illustrate the principle of magic:
I am using pictures with a well-known story to illustrate the point…
A few years ago I asked my little brother to look at some pictures I was putting on a gallery. His feedback to me was… “What?! just pictures!?!?!?”
That really made me think. An ordinary person, like my brother, without a context, without a story only sees the drab, the mundane, the boring, the ordinary.
I am moving this article to the front… because it goes so well with the bugfree series…
This article may be a bit upsetting… but hey, I am known for rocking the boat… Being a trouble-maker. Have always been…
Can you identify with this scenario?
Something bothers you. Something hits you the wrong way.
You sit and you say: “I know I shouldn’t be upset about this. I know it is not cool. I even know that it is my issue, but I am still bothered.”
And you are bothered, and you are bothered.
To answer the question in the title: I am not sure. I am guided…
In addition, a site where you can find all the “mind bugs” as Andy Shaw calls them, can be really useful.
My Playground program is the program where most of these “mind bugs” get driven up, but unless I write, in an organized fashion, our findings, it will be lost for humanity… and given the direction humanity is heading, that is really bad news.
By the way, I have been offering my special bonus for people who buy the Bug Free program through my link: a free month in my Playground program. It is a $40 program, and you can take it any time, just send me your receipt from Andy, and tell me when you want your month.
My experience has been, that removing even just one bug makes a huge difference, but removing 3-5 starts creating some elbow room for real change.
The original post was written BEFORE I got my copy of The Bug Free Mind book from Andy Shaw. This is the actual review:
I knew it was worth reading, (muscle tested it, of course) but I had no idea why. The truth value sounds like not enough, but compared to others’ truth value, it is at least twice, and what may be even more important: it talks about things, it makes you think about things that no one else does… except me.
I am most famous for my ability to distinguish. Distinguishing is a rare capacity, the ability to tell the forest from the tree. It is solidly based on the ability to peel off layers so one can get to the root… and often below the level that used to be considered the root. Layer below layer below layer.
This past week I had the good fortune to go deeper yet again.