Are you disconnected from All-of-it and beg for knowledge from others?

inner-lightOne of the horrible costs of living in your mind, trusting your mind, going for Tree of Knowledge, is that you cut yourself off from your inner knower… and hand your life and destiny over to people who are not your friends, who are not on your side, who have their own agenda in saying anything.

I am observing the few high capacity producers in my circle, and this is one of the big difference between you and them: they may take hints… but then they do their own thinking, their own process.

The missing capacity, self-trust, or as Dan Millman calls it Faith, of course needs to be based on other capacities: cannot stand alone. And you also need to build some reality to it, some solid foundation. That is why you don’t have it: you life has been, and likely will be a life of turning to other people for all your thinking.

This is Dan Millman’s “article” from the book “The Life You Were Born To Live”. He knows a lot, sees, a lot, and doesn’t know and doesn’t see a lot more. But the article may awaken the desire in you to be your own person…

The Law of Faith

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No flying for you… Got it.

do-not-try-to-teach-a-pig-to-singDecember 10, 2015… the saddest day in my life.

I see, finally, what is happening.

I see that the time for my work hasn’t come.

I see that what is important to you is to integrate into society, into your family, into your relationship, make money the way you are supposed to… no rocking the boat.

I see that your main problem, coming here, was that you didn’t quite fit in.

I don’t know why I didn’t get it earlier. I don’t know why I didn’t think that you just want to get rid of what was unhappy about you, so you can be part of this big stinky cesspool called humanity.

No calling of the spirit… none of that. Flying? who am I kidding.
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The spirit wants only that there be flying

wild-turkey-flyingYou can’t win the bets you don’t make. You can’t win the arguments you don’t engage in. You can’t win without taking risks.

If you look at me, and can see, you’ll see a person with severe dyslexia, serious holes in her brain from two episodes of brain damage.

What does this mean? This means that I make a lot of mistakes, mistakes most people would not make…
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In search of the linchpin DNA capacity that is…

do-you-see-that-i-am-brokenIn search of the linchpin DNA capacity that is blocking your evolution

In this article I will talk about DNA capacities activation.

Let’s talk about the failures, people where in spite of my effort, the capacities did not activate…

Let me start with the accusations a commenter threw at me/us: that the positive results may be due to time spent with me, instead of DNA capacities getting active in you.

I would ask the same question, and have.

Some results are definitely placebo.

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If it sounds true, it is probably false. If it sounds not true: it is possibly how it is…

divide-and-conquer-how-to-control-a-nationI watched something yesterday that allowed me to have a new insight about the Irish. Note: this is not about the Irish, and not about the Italian, and not about the Chinese… This article is to allow you a glimpse into the dynamic of war, vengeance, the eye for an eye…

The more temperamental a group is, the easier it is to dominate them, to play them, to incite them to kill, go to war.

The Irish is a temperamental bunch, and the killing, terrorism, has been going on for many centuries.

Yesterday I asked myself: would the Irish self-destruct, stop their human evolution, remain a bunch of wildmen, without an outside interference. The answer was: probably not.

One of the tools of war, one of the tools of self-defense, is the divide and conquer principle. 1

Incite discord between two groups, and let them kill each other instead of you.
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More on being locked out… I am handing you the key

thumbSome 10 years ago I did a year long course, called Partnership Explorations. It was intense, incomprehensible, and difficult.

Yet, it had an aspect that caused me to have an insight that was directly responsible for the breakthrough that you live with me, now.

The course was some talk, and a lot of collages.

A collage is an artwork… normally. But in the Partnership Explorations course it was a tool to get a new insight about life, about ourselves.

In one collage I wanted to show that I was locked out. I was locked out of the kind of life I saw people enjoy: parties, kissing, love.
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Locked in? locked out? limited?

we feel locked out from most nice things in lifeIn Hungary, in some high schools, you can choose, at age 15-ish to pursue “real” or “humanities”.

Real is sciences, reasoning, math, physics, geometry, chemistry heavy.

Humanities… lots of words, I think. I chose “real” for myself.

I was bad at everything that talks ABOUT stuff, and great, sometimes exceptional in the non-verbal subjects.

Architects don’t talk either. Don’t listen either. So, in that regard it was a good match, and yet, I wasn’t happy.

I guess I wanted to think with words too. In every project I was chosen to write the written stuff… I was good with words.

Why am I sharing this? Because pursuing one thing limits us to the capacities that are needed to do that one thing.

Limited. One of the least favorite of words in the dictionary.

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Taking things personally

dont-take-it-personally2The hardest thing to navigate, at least for me, is to take myself out of the center… Maybe because of my soul correction “Forget Thyself” but it comes back to make me miserable periodically.

I have been testy lately.

I have always wanted to be significant. Do significant things. Be admired… blah blah blah.

What I didn’t realize that like everything ego desire based, desire to receive for the self alone, it has a shadow side.

When you are significant, and someone doesn’t give you what you think they are supposed to… you are angry and miserable.

So this is what has been going on…

Please listen with compassion… or not… it’s really up to you. But if you can listen with compassion, you may learn something that can make a difference for you… If you listen with judgment, your misery will deepen… I will be fine either way.
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More on the return of investment in light… and capacities

Ag_F1I got this email today. It’s seductive, it’s hypnotic, but the conclusion is totally wrong, misleading: the kind that makes you buy stuff and then never amount to anything.

I wonder why people, sellers, are afraid to tell the truth… That it takes work to get from A to B in anything, and to get from A to Z, where mastery is, you need a lot of work…

People buy my stuff… Even though I honestly tell the uncomfortable truth: without you doing your part, none of my stuff works… except maybe the Heaven on Earth… aka HOE.

But then again, they either don’t hear me or don’t believe me…

Anyway, read the story here, and notice that what they sell is impossible… Can you see it?

He was a rather shy and reserved man who loved flying. Since the age of 16, when his neighbor taught him how to fly a cropduster, Chesley “Sully” Sullenberger had developed a fascination with airplanes.

He would attend the Air Force Academy and graduate in 1973. While in the Air Force, he flew F-4 fighter planes.

US Airways hired him. He flew commercial airliners for the company for 30 years. On the side, Sully became an airline safety expert who consulted for NASA and other major players.

No one had any idea this training would save his life and the lives of 155 people.

US Airways Flight 1549 jettisoned into the sky at 3:26 p.m. EST on January 15, 2009. It was supposed to be a routine flight from New York’s La Guardia Airport to Charlotte, N.C.

Within minutes of taking off, the plane hit a large flock of birds. Both engines were disabled.
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