The full title of the Playground course is: Playground: it's never too late to have a happy childhood.
Why is that significant? And what the heck does even mean?
The past is the past, and you cannot change it, they say, but if you look in history books, you'll see that it does... depending on the point of view of the historian... 1
In the Playground we re-write your history. Not in a fancy, inventive, "you create your life" kind of way... we actually go back to the root incidents, and look at them through different filters, through learning about different invisible dynamics. Continue reading "How do you change the past?"
This morning something pulled me back to bed after I got up.
I considered it guidance, and I got back to bed.
What came next was amazing: trips down memory lane, all centering around mental illness, mental stability, your TLB, and what was in common among the many people I remember so clearly, people I spent time with in mental institutions.
As an empath, other people's feelings, emotions tend to tug at me. today 99% of what I feel is not mine... But before I became conscious, before I started to climb the consciousness tree, 30% of the feelings I felt were mine. I also had a lot more noise in my head... all talking at the same time.
The only reason I know, with 20/20 hindsight, that I was hospitalized not for what I felt, is that none of the medication worked... I wasn't the person who was crazy, I just felt the craziness of others.
My theory of mental illness has always been that it is an escape... a hiding place.
Whoever thought that the well-meaning positive thinking will become a prison and a sentence to a 'no joy life' for most who become a "practitioner" of it, about 80% of humanity at this time.
Whether you know it or not, your powers of comprehension depend on your powers of distinguishing.
In the old est training, the trainers came to the room on the first day blasting: "for you Everything is the same as everything else ... except not always" and they were as accurate as accurate they would be today: you can't tell your ass from your elbow.
This is true for everybody, including yours truly... the difference is only in degrees. No one is exempt from it.
The capacity to see differences clearly is called astuteness. The capacity to tell apart similar things, to name them and claim them.
There are really two types of people when it comes to making more money: one group will chase the mirage, the lottery approach, winning, betting on schemes... and the other, the tiny group that sees that making more money is a natural fallout of becoming worth a damn. 1
I am interested in talking to the second group, the tiny group.
You see, knowing that you should become worth a damn is nice and dandy... but knowing with pinpoint accuracy where you aren't... what it is that you need to do next to increase your worth a damn factor is crucial.
We look at life through the space we locate ourselves in.
When you go home for the holidays, you have a space inside which you interact with your mother. You have a space inside which you interact with your father, another space with your siblings.
Some people live their whole life out of one favorite space.
When you know what space you think you are in, and the other person makes no sense, that is because they relate to you inside a different space.
For example, Nancy lives inside Mother-child space. She is either the mother, or she is the child. When she is the child, I am either the mother (she loves that) or Not mother... she hates that. When she is the mother and I refuse to be the child, she throws a tantrum.