Then, unexpectedly, I said to myself: I love you, little one. And then the “fun” began… The emotional dings, the doubt, the questioning, the grief.
Hoho… I said, what’s going on?
The little voice said: why would you love me?
Because I do… I said.
Do you love me, even though the house looks like a mess?
I don’t love your house, I love you. house, no house, mess, no mess… I love you.
oh. But do you love me even though I am getting old?
Continue reading “A great little exercise to cause self-love…”
Her soul correction is Fear/Fearless. In the conversation it was becoming obvious that she had read “Feelings” the book I have been so excited about. So the conversation was on a more even footing that most of my conversations: she has been paying attention and recognizing at least some of the dynamics the feelings have, and has been managing her fear quite well.
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You have always wanted to get out of your head. You tried meditation, drugs, to no avail. Because the way out of the head is through the feelings… the body, where you feel the feelings. Your control center. Overriding the mind nearly 100% of the time.
Transformation is like picking a lock. You need tools, you need patience, you need immense awareness, and the results need to be valuable, or you’ll quit before you are done. Partial transformation gives you bragging rights, but no results.
This is going to be an article that, I predict, will grow as we discover or invent (with Source) new tools to bring about the 1,000 Years of Peace, the restoration of the Original Design.
I will not give details of the tools in this article. The details you can find in other articles, or in the glossary. I will link the tools to where you can read more about them as time allows.
Patience, my friend, patience is a virtue. I’ll get to it when I can. Start at the beginning… do you know how to connect, yet? I don’t mean know about it. I don’t mean “I think so” I mean, have I said that you are connected? If not, then please come to a connection call or stop feeding your mind. All this information is worthless there.
I will list the tools in the order I received them, not in the order of importance. This is where the good guys finish first, even if they started last…
It feels like deflated, the life force that was there before disappeared.
Tiredness that doesn’t ease up with rest, a good night’s sleep, isn’t tiredness. It is probably lethargy, depression, or purposelessness.
Why meaning disappears… when the future to live for disappears. Continue reading “Why do I feel lethargic?”
How to pick an activator, aka a spiritual practice for the fastest raising of your vibration?
This is an important question, that I have not answered publicly yet, so here you are…
What raises your vibration is the spiritual practice that you are being nudged to do by the activator, and not the activator itself.
Each activator works on a certain level of your consciousness.
I will use, again, the analogy of a highrise building to demonstrate how this works:
Most people, when they come to me, live, fully, in the basement of their being. Nowadays I have received requests from people that are, at least partially, on the ground floor.
Continue reading “How to pick an activator, aka a spiritual practice for the fastest raising of your vibration?”
Here I am this cool Saturday morning, weeping.
I observe. What is there? Pain, definitely. Sense of loss, yes. Sadness, no. Regret, no. Resentment, no.
I have had a hard life. The hardest part is the last 30 years. Maybe 33… Since I left Hungary.
In Hungary I had friends. I had people who would want me around, who would walk with me, who would vouch for me.
Continue reading “Weeping looking back at the path — republished”
Your own design is like a filter you look through. You can’t see the filter, just like you don’t see the window unless you touch it…
A filter is like a pair of glasses…
A filter is also like a pair of glasses… They can be dark tinted, they can be yellow, green… and the world occurs differently with each pair of glasses. You can’t see that it’s the glasses that make the world look the way the world looks to you… unless you can take it off…
You can see only the ripples. The indication that there is something there…
It’s the ripples that we don’t like… we don’t like the things we do, the things we think, the things we feel. We want to change the ripples. But the ripples are the surface of the iceberg… hidden, invisible…
But you can’t change something that you don’t know. You can’t change something that you don’t see.
We all want to reinvent ourselves, our world. Because what we have now is not working too well, not serving us too well. We can’t have what we want, and we suffer.
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Continue reading “Time to reinvent yourself as someone you can love”
If you found out in which quadrant you chose to live in, beauty, truth, goodness or power… and now try to argue, or you are worried, or you are resigned… consider that you are just doing what you are doing: you want to be where you are not… or more precisely: you never what to be where you are, you never what to think what you are thinking, you never want to feel what you are feeling.
So you do what you are doing, think what you are thinking, feel what you are feeling only so-so… A student of mine coined the phrase: in the neighborhood of truth.
If you can’t physically stop doing what you are doing, etc. then you withdraw into the cave of your mind, and languish there.
It is a safe prison… more like a tomb. You don’t have to be with yourself.
Why don’t you want to be with yourself? Because when you look into yourself, you find evil inclination, you find ugly, and ultimately you find empty. Not empty as in nothing, but an abyss. You get scared and you run back to your periphery, where it is so busy, you don’t have time to even contemplate that there is nothing inside… that there is no you.
One of the big interruptions, potentially, are the times when you get sick.
When you are sick, your job is to be sick. And be sick. Allow the body to do the work, it is equipped, 90% of the time, to do the work with proper nutrition, proper hydration and no medication, not even herbal. Continue reading “Awareness… When you are here… be here. But you aren’t…”
The 67 steps… does doing the 67 steps make you deserving? And if yes, why and how?
I am listening to step 1 of the 67 steps again. The seventh time? Eighth time? I have lost track.
And as is usual for me, I am seeing something that Tai is not saying, and I kind of have been seeing, but not really. In the corner of my eyes.
- The whole program, the 67 steps, is based on a few quotes: “but is he worth a damn?”
- And the one by Charlie Munger: “In life, to get what you want you, need to deserve what you want.”
- And the third: “there are only three types of people: people who make things happen, people who watch things happen, and people who ask: what the heck happened?” Continue reading “Your deserving factor, your earning factor… How much do you deserve? How much have you earned? Are you worth a damn?”
You want the good life… Creating the good life, health, wealth, love and happiness, will require creativity from you… 1
The opposite of creativity is timidness. 2
Creativity is living at risk… Existential courage. 3
You want to color inside the lines… and get the good life. No chance.
Unless you are willing to shuffle and stir things up, you are among the dead, you are among those timid souls that never know defeat, but never know success either.
Continue reading “Want the good life? Use the Edge effect. Finding your niche where you can win. living life creatively”