A little understood aspect of integrity that screws up your integrity…
Integrity is between you and you. There are things you do with other people, but integrity is an inside job… if you don’t like what you did, if you don’t think you did a good job, it doesn’t matter what other people think… you are not happy with yourself.
And so far so good, most anyone can get that… but the story doesn’t end here.
Sometimes you do everything you said you would do, you do it on time, you did it complete and thorough, and yet you are not happy with yourself.
I took the garbage out this morning. It was really cold… I was shivering.
The guy across the street yelled to me: Happy New Year… and I responded in kind… But these good wished as nothing but wishful thinking: your word won’t make it happen. You wanting the New Year to be happy won’t do it for you… unless something changes… something fundamental… like your word will start to have power.
Because, at present, it has no power, or not much… instead your emotions control what you do, not your words.
What is a Dark Side event? Hard to know… but it is a lot like a locust swarm event… 1 you see the aftermath, the people’s vibration dropping, bad behaviors that were already forgotten are revived, the water losing its coherence, inside you and outside you.
My own experience is quite dramatic: hurry has crept back… anger, anxiety, wallowing, and the water.