We throw about big words, and we pretend that we know them. Even "scientists" just pretend. If they didn't, they would be explaining, clarifying the words, but they don't.
In the Starting Point Measurements the vocabulary number is what indicates this. I originally intended to call this clarity, but then I decided that if it refers to words, then maybe it can be instructive.
It hasn't been.
So this article will be, mostly, about words.
Whenever we say conscious awareness, we are talking about words. No words, no conscious awareness.
I went grocery shopping today on my own. I was carrying some 20 lbs of groceries up the steps to get home. 1
I ran into Leo, my musician friend. I explained to him that carrying those 20 lbs of groceries illustrated to me what it was like to climb the steps a year ago, when I was about 20 lbs heavier. In 18 months I shed 40 lbs.
I didn't plan to write about this... I didn't plan because like so many things that have disappeared... what isn't there is... well, isn't there.
But from time to time a client, a student reminds me...
And that's exactly what happened: a client, recently separated, an all around great guy wrote:
I looked to at what i might be hanging onto without noticing..
could grief or despair have some part of it? I used to find myself listening to music about sadness and hard times and used to think about sadness a lot. I used to almost create it in relationships with anyone, family/ friends/ myself.
I connected to him, deeply, and there it was: a whole lake of sadness that he was circling...