Actually, I continued to participate in Landmark after the incident I'll tell you about... but NEVER intended to contribute any more. Or not really. I was participating from hurt... knowing that what was broken cannot be fixed.
Lots of questions are coming up... Is it possible to be happy, to have ikigai, purpose, and joy if you live in your imagination?
What is the main difference between animals and homo sapiens?
The only differences I can see are
1. homo sapiens (modern humans) live in the mind... thinking it's reality
2. homo sapiens have conscience
3. homo sapiens live like anything different from what they want is wrong.
4. homo sapiens have usury relationships, win-lose, zero sum.
I have written a lot of articles about living in the mind, and have courses to help you spend at least some of your time outside of the mind that is like a cave...
In the history of the Earth there have been five other attempts for Life to create intelligent life. Millions of years separating them... Atlantis may not be a myth, just didn't happen in our time. Civilizations don't overlap.
Three of those civilizations were destroyed by natural causes, and two of those by the civilization itself... parallel with the current humanity and its civilization a civilization of caterpillars.
Our civilization is heading toward the same self-annihilation, unless... Unless human being happens.
Juiced vs. Driven (Juiced here means: turned on, excited, alive)
The most difficult attitude to take on or even comprehend is "desire for the sake of sharing". The opposite of that is "desire for the self alone".
Why is it so hard? Because... I actually don't know...
I'll kick it around in this article, and let's say if I can say anything that resonates. With you.
Why wouldn't? Well, it hasn't. Not with you, and not with others.
If you are new to my articles: my self-assigned job is to ferret out, test out, experiment out what would take humans back to the evolutionary path they abandoned about 30 thousand years ago. They went deep into the current level of "homo sapiens" you could also call: the man who lives in the cave of their mind.
The alternative was to become human being, but that hasn't happened, and cannot happen through the mind.
I should be doing some laundry. I have run out of socks... And anyways, I want to tame this beast of not doing my laundry.
I gather a load's worth of stuff, carry it to the washing machine... and the distaste, the disgust is so strong... I take a beeline... and sit down by my computer.
Distaste, eh? Yeah, says muscle test. Disgust? yes. Was it always there? No. Was it from when i was 3? later... from age seven.
What was happening at age seven? I went to school. We had a live-in help: my mother was working on her Masters Degree, coming home around nine every night. My brother was about a year old... and was probably driving the live-in help bonkers.
And I recoil from dirty laundry...
I sit really quietly. The fear joins the distaste. I feel terror. I feel being beaten. Screamed at. Wrapped in wet sheets... Can't breathe...
I must have wet my bed. I don't remember. My body remembers. The fear, the disgust, the gagging.
One of the reasons you don't grow, is because the nature of time is that it goes one way. Forward. It doesn't stop, it doesn't go backwards, and mistakes are mistakes made.
But we, humans, are equipped with a brain that is able to model, replay, and practice, to turn mistakes into learning. Through repetition, or through thought experiments. But either way: being awake... And that is the first thing that's missing... being awake.