This morning something pulled me back to bed after I got up.
I considered it guidance, and I got back to bed.
What came next was amazing: trips down memory lane, all centering around mental illness, mental stability, your TLB, and what was in common among the many people I remember so clearly, people I spent time with in mental institutions.
As an empath, other people's feelings, emotions tend to tug at me. today 99% of what I feel is not mine... But before I became conscious, before I started to climb the consciousness tree, 30% of the feelings I felt were mine. I also had a lot more noise in my head... all talking at the same time.
The only reason I know, with 20/20 hindsight, that I was hospitalized not for what I felt, is that none of the medication worked... I wasn't the person who was crazy, I just felt the craziness of others.
My theory of mental illness has always been that it is an escape... a hiding place.
One of the most surprising thing in the world of humans is that humans can't tell if they are smart or not. This error leads to lives that are not fulfilled, filled with fear, trepidation, or on the other extreme: boasting and disappointment. 1
I just watched two episodes of a Korean series where most people were dimwitted.
Dimwitted is just another word for "not smart"... but it is a good word because you can see that something is dimmed... as in "it's dark here... you can't see much".
Mattering is a feeling. Nothing matters and everything matters. But if you don't feel your life matters, then you'll live consistent with that...
Some mornings it is hard to write an article.
Ultimately, when I examine the possible causes, I find that I am scattered. My attention flitters, and it is looking for more reasons to flitter (flitting from one thing to another. Move quickly in an apparently random or purposeless manner).
The quality of your life depends on your overall intelligence... intellect, body intelligence, emotional intelligence, social intelligence, the ability to live a full life, with a range of emotions, and to conquer difficulties, adversities successfully.
How do you go about awakening compassion, caring and empathy?
The first step of transformation, and awakening a missing capacity is transformation!, is to tell the truth about how it is now.
Transformation is so rare, because people are unwilling to tell the truth. Why? Because truth, any truth about you, will first be painful, and it will piss you off.
The truth about you is that you, the way you are, are unable to feel for another person. You mistake your loin's yearning, your heart's yearning for connection to a feeling for the other, but they are not the same.
At this point only a handful of people are able to feel, feel deeply for another person.