It means that you are supposed to follow leads, ideas, invitations coming at you... instead of acting on your "good ideas" that always turn out not to be so good.
I don't know what it is I talk to, what it is I connect to when I say I connect to Source... but it seems, often, that that "thing" is sentient. It wants what it wants, it doesn't want what it doesn't want, it has definite preferences, in sees, like chess master many steps ahead, it strategizes, it changes strategy when the one going on isn't working: meaning: I am not getting the clue, not getting the hint.
What is wrong with movies, TV series, that I can't stomach... or barely?
I am talking about good stories. I am talking about shows with good or passable actors, good directing... And yet the show is scarcely enjoyable because the character doesn't fit. the inner world of the character is off... tells a different story.
What do you keep carrying that weighs you so down that you can never ascend? Or climb the Tree of Life, until you put it down?
Have you noticed that making changes, doing new things, going to places unfamiliar is difficult, near impossible?
Consider that you are dragging a persona with you, that is what makes the going so encumbered...
A coaching client of mine began to build her persona in an incident that happened when she was four years old. There was an escaped serial killer on the loose in her neck of the woods, and her mother left her in charge of her little sister who was in a cast. There was a knock on the front door, and she tried to drag the cast (heavy) down the steps into the basement, and also hold a kitchen knife to protect her...
Life is really so incredible perfect when you are committed to something, and therefore you look at everything through that commitment.
Here is a quote I had attached to my kitchen cabinet for four years. When I moved it was impossible to save it: it crumbled... lol. It has an awful lot to do with who I am today, and the incredible results I was able to produce in those four years: