The first few steps in the 67 steps are long, rich, convoluted audios. Why? Because no matter how long the audio, you'll only get one little thing, if that, because the cone of vision of your awareness is as wide as a pencil.
Did I notice, did I take in all he spoke about my first time around doing the 67 steps? No. I didn't.
It is like traveling in a car. If you look out the window, you miss the conversation in the car. If you take part in the conversation in the car, you miss the whole trip. If you read, if you are hungry...
The goal is to expand the cone of awareness so it's wide. So you can see the view, partake in the conversation, and maybe even be hungry...
Now, that is, increasing your awareness is the goal... but how does it effect success?
Little more about humility... the cog in the wheel
One detrimental functions of "lack of humility" as a capacity, is that you can't change your mind about your past.
My Playground program was about changing your mind by changing your view...
At the time I didn't know about capacities, so I could not tell how come someone can and others can't change their mind.
In spite of all evidence to the contrary, in spite of all the reframing we did, only one person could change her mind, really, and even her, only changed her mind, retrospectively, when she finally got humility, the capacity, turned on.
I have been getting attachments. I am noticing, they come mostly on the weekends.
So the sender or senders are working slobs... and tormenting people is their hobby.
They are, I think, using voodooo techniques: making a model of me, and pushing pins in the model.
The reason I think it is a voodoo doll, because they are getting very precise, whereas a healer who intends to heal, is very sloppy, otherwise why would they connect to another they intend to heal in their eyes, throat, of sinuses... would make no sense.
So yesterday I had four attachments on my head, in a straight line, like a mohawk head dress, and by this morning they added a fifth, smack in my Tangerine Spot.
I must be standing in the vertical dimension, because there is no anger, no anguish, no fear, no hurry... nothing. Just headache.
You may or may not know, but I have been battling some energetic attachments, that keep coming back.
An attachment is like a snake: it goes deep and eats you from the inside out.
It's been a week, maybe more. Quite horrible, if you ask me.
This morning, thinking of the workshops over the weekend, it was time to take a serious look at this situation.
Can I lead a webinar if an attachment jumps on me while I am leading? And it will, if today is any indication: since 7 am I have removed it more than 10 times... so the frequency is about 30 minutes.
Turns out that I can connect to Source, I just can't feel it, because the sensation in my Tangerine Spot is overpowered by the attachment, one of them, that is about an inch only from my Tangerine Spot.
So I consulted Source, went deep within, and waited for intuition.
I just noticed that guessing is not a good method in process... neither is faking it, winging it, etc. It's not a process if someone else cannot follow in your footstep! Ugh.
I can see that I need to change more things than one... especially guessing... I find it irresistibly funny... lol... even though I am not sure what is making me laugh out loud. But it tickles my funny bone that all my habits fly in the face of process.
Ego is trying to assert itself, yelling that it's boring...
Some 30 years ago I participated in a seminar series on and for creativity. I have one thing I still remember: don't bring creativity to how you wash your teeth. Bring creativity where it is called for...
And only having the process capacity now 7%, that I can see that I have been trying to do creativity on mundane actions, because I was locked out from where real creativity would have mattered: creating working processes. Continue reading "What do you use to avoid process?"
I see the so-called distance healers the same as the people who use coat hangers to perform an abortion. They may kill the child, they may kill both.
They pretend to be on your side, but really they are all about "desire for the self alone".
Distance healers leave their "channel" in you... like coat hanger abortioners leave the dirt and pathogens in you. And then you are on your own... suddenly not well. Suddenly carrying the proof of their guilt.
I was directly attacked by a "distance healer" today. They aimed at my tangerine spot but they don't know where it is, so they missed it by about an inch. I pulled the attachment right away, but the skull where the attachment hit is now sore. Very sore.