Why can’t you make things happen? Why can’t you make your life work…
You’ll hate me for this… but hate me as much as you want, this is why: Your integrity is shot.
Without integrity nothing works. Sounds very general, and definitely doesn’t seem to have anything to do with you: you are always on time, you brush your teeth twice a day, you keep your diet, you don’t cheat on your spouse… so what am I talking about?
I’ll explain it in a little bit, but let me just say something more:
Whenever ANYTHING doesn’t work about my life, about any of my relationship, about my health, about my work, about my money, I automatically go to my integrity.
I say: what is the integrity issue that I have that this is what I see… the area not working.
The out-of-integrity can be in many different ways, so I have a checklist: 1
have I been keeping my word? to myself, or to anyone…
One day a Zen master told his students that he was going to teach a new technique of shooting an arrow.
He instructed his students to cover his eyes with a cloth and then he shot his arrow. When he opened his eyes, he saw the target with no arrow in it and when he looked at his students, they looked embarrassed because their teacher had missed.
I say: Just the right amount of sleep! when I wake up with a light-clock… it lights come on at 3 am slowly, and by 4 am, when I am between dream cycles, I wake up and have a choice to get up or to sleep more.
Today I got up. But I was very sleepy. It felt like someone inside, not me, wanted desperately to sleep more. It’s been an hour now, and the ‘person inside’ is still whining, insisting that i go back to sleep.
Back in 1987-1990 or so, I also got up at around 4 am every single night and built myself a new profession, a new life, and a new identity.
I learned to live like that from a Dutch dude who had made himself a millionaire with the extra hours he gained from the habit.
But this article is not about the habit; this article is what I learned from him to say when I woke up:’Just the right amount of sleep!‘
And later, I learned to say ‘Time to make the donuts!‘
We had our last What’s Missing workshop for the season yesterday.
What a learning experience it was! Again.
I found out that unbeknownst to me I was still hesitant to believe that I am going to live, that I am not on borrowed time, that if I save money, I’ll have a chance to use it.
This, under the conscious awareness issue has been running my life for 72 years… I have never been able to save any real money… and now I see why. It is time to begin to manage this… so I can actually buy a car, now that I can drive again.