How Self-Awareness is the Key to Happiness, Effectiveness, Intelligent Decisions… The Sideways View
I thought I was going to have a domestic day. you know laundry, dishes, stuff. and watch myself, my emotions, and have a good old time.
The weather is gorgeous. My neighborhood is even prettier in the fall than in the summer. you can see far. and the contrast of the blue sky and the rusty color of the leaves and branches is really beautiful.
The thought: ‘I could actually be happy‘. The though of being cured. These thoughts were very present there for a few minutes. I made myself a nice cup of tea, and checked my email.
Your current core identity. How to find it, how to build a better one?
I have written in a previous post that I discovered that my hidden identity is ‘worthless piece of junk = unwanted’. I use the word junk, because this expression is a translation from my native Hungarian. In the original the expression is closer to ‘nothing’ than anything, by the way. But in English, I am afraid, that won’t communicate. ‘I am nothing’, does it communicate? It doesn’t seem to have the same emotional impact on me…
From time to time I notice it ‘informing my mood, informing my actions.’
As a consciousempath I don’t only check if an emotion I feel is mine, I also check the source of the emotion.
Sometimes it is a Dark Side transmission, but mostly it’s another person I accidentally connected with.
I have two graduate students live in the downstairs apartment. Two girls.
Every time I go downstairs with a package for the mailman to pick up, or to check my mail, they hear me: the old wooden staircase makes an unholy noise. That’s when they connect, and I have to feel their emotions for a little while.