Integrity is an inside job. It is between you and yourself.
Everyone has two selves, one that is perfect, and the other that is flawed.
The perfect one is generous, loving, unconditionally. It is compassionate.
The flawed one KNOWS, i.e. assumes that it is judged, looked down upon, and is full of hatred, anger, fear, anxiety, rebellion, and expects to be loved and accepted the way it is… and even though is loved, and accepted… it can only feel its own emotions.
This is so with every emotion. You can’t feel the love that is coming towards you. You can only feel the love that you feel for the other, Your love. Your anger. Your hate.
So no matter how much the perfect self loves the flawed self, the flawed self will feel judged… hated, despised, etc.
Almost all bad feelings you have come as a result of your delusional self, your precious “I” is scared of being devalued.
It is as if you were a gold plated coin pretending to be solid gold, and life would be continually threatening you to reveal your fakeness.
I used to be like you. I felt that there was a big gap between my accomplishments and my abilities… and maybe there was.
But most importantly, every little error, every little mistake I made or even just faced!!! jerked me down a hellish path… filling me with dread, and fear, and remorse, and regret, and who even knows words for those horrible feelings.
And mistakes? I made plenty.
I misunderstood, I jumped into conclusion, I tried to do something too fast before I even saw what the heck I was supposed to do… Put my foot in the mouth… lol.