Is it worth it? Is it worth the bother, the effort, the work? Will it get me finally what I want?
One of the reasons people don't like to try new things is because they cannot judge whether they can do it or not. Whether it will be easy or not. Whether it will be pleasant and enjoyable or not.
How come? Why is it so difficult? Life is complex, and most of us have no tolerance for complexity. Complexity, ambivalence, ambiguity are normal, but the capacity to hold them becomes available to you in only at a certain brain development age... If you got stuck in young child brain development, that is most people, you have never developed the capacity.
Can you develop this capacity now? Of course you can. What is preventing you from doing it? Your low TLB number... you are a Twitchy Little Bastard... and you can't deal with complexity, confusion, or looking long enough to actually see something.
Some of my students, when they learned about my habit of looking long and more than just once... as a way to deal with my dyslexia, have started to practice the same... and their ability to hold controversy and ambivalence has increased... because of that practice. But if you fancy yourself smart, quick, etc. Looking long and hard is going to be difficult, because your precious "I" will tell you that only stupid people look long and hard.
Update: Now that many of my students have managed to enter father-child, the only place where real love can be experienced... some of them get scared. The voice, IT, is telling them that they will not be loved, if they stay on that high place....
This article, hopefully, is going to be useful... if for no other reason, is to see that TRUST is countered by FEAR, and that the VOICE is on the side of FEAR.
One of the hard wired characteristic of a human is the insistence on making their own decisions.
But, we often don't have the tools, the knowledge, the means to make sound decisions, and yet... we keep on insisting.
The seed level of this characteristic is the fear to trust. Anyone, any time, anywhere. We don't even trust ourselves, but we trust others even less.
If you read yesterday's article on coherence, my 21 hour (so far) experiment of playing the Coherence Generator... (new name old audio) I can promise you that it is nothing short of miraculous.
Creativity, innovation, growth, learning, takes a lot of coherent energy. When your energies are incoherent, you are troubled, are in a hurry, or are afraid, creativity is impossible.
Just imagine yourself a juggler... because that is what creativity is: being able to keep and move around multiple objects in the air at the same time, so you can see new connections. Really...
Most people can't keep one thought in the air for longer than seconds... unless they fixate on it... fixating means: all other flying objects fall... So most people have no experience in creativity, because they are mostly incoherent.