I have read about a man whose doctor told him that he had terminal cancer, and he should go home and take care of his things. The man went home, took care of his things. A week later he died.
Turns out he was healthy. He didn't have terminal cancer, he didn't have any cancer, any disease. He died because he said: I can't handle it...
Is the world Black and white for you?
What you say: I can handle it, or I can't handle it, is still on the surface, and cannot directly be changed without looking at and changing the underlying structure... the invisible.
What you will say to answer the question in the title boils down to a hidden aspect that you haven't questioned, that you haven't ever dealt with because it was never a question: do you see the world in black and white? In a binary way?
It is an upbringing issue how you see the world. Some people can see 256 shades of gray between black and white, some people can none.
A case study of adding shades of gray
When I was a team leader of phoners for Landmark Education, I saw that this black and white stopped people from picking up the phone. In their mind they pictured the scenario of getting a no (we called people to "sell" them a seminar) and that was the black. Getting a yes was the white...
Some people, the eternally optimistic only saw white, and they got many yes's, but most people were the other way around. Those were willing to clean the toilets just to avoid getting on the phone.
I needed to go through the following training several times on any given night:
me: Can you pick up the phone?
phoner: I guess so... hm. yes.
me: can you dial a phone number?
phoner: I think I can... I have done it before...
me: when someone pick it up, can you say who you are looking for and where you are calling from?
phoner: I probably can.
me: when they say yes, so-and-so is speaking... can you ask them if they have a few minutes to talk?
me: wonderful. then can you ask them...
and so the training went.
at some point I would rehearse the scenario when the person on the other end of the line doesn't want to talk... the worst case scenario.
I managed to get people to make calls, and some of them even learned that each call was losts of steps, and each can be done well or not so well... thus the 256 shades of gray.
How did you get to be the way you are?
It was all about them... never about you. They didn't allow you to be a child learning the ropes of life, they wanted you to be an advertising for them, advertising how good, smart, etc. they are. And they destroyed your natural sense of adventurousness in the process.
Any success requires you to learn new things, to do things you don't know how to do well.
The future that beckons
If you are like most people, you will imagine yourself doing it well, but you won't imagine yourself fumbling, bumbling through trials and errors through the learning process.
You suspect that you will be bad at many steps along the way, so you won't even start, because you can't handle making mistakes, can't handle being less than perfect at anything. 1
You will keep doing the things that you do well (or you think you do well) and you won't ever go outside of your comfort zone.
Most people who read this post belong to the majority group of people who will never grow, never do well, never amount to anything, and their soul will wither and die.
The Soul wants you to live creatively, take risks, learn new things
The Soul doesn't care for anything that you do well... it is boring. The Soul hates you for doing it. After years of coloring inside the lines, taking no risks, stagnating, the Soul gives up on you... unless...
There are students that have overcome the inertia of black and white
Their vibration is rising, and their sense of self, their sense of well-being is through the roof.
The role of your partner or spouse
Undoing the damage that was done to you as a child is easier if you don't have a spouse or a partner who depends on your "success", on your staying the same, for their own comfort.
If you have a life partner like that, it is harder to change. Love in our culture means controlling the other. Owning the other. Make them to conform to your ideal.
Just like with your parents, everything you do looks to the "other" as it's about them.
You make a mistake: it is about them. You are successful: it's about them.
You have no right to live your life, to be an individual... unless you
- stop being a controlling person to your other
- start transforming the relationship so you can have freedom
- start training yourself and the other that you can accomplish and become good at small things
- question your idea what the other person will allow and they will not... your imagination is not the truth.
In my experience it takes about a year to slowly and effectively become a person who can. It will be the best year of your life... Because it is not about success at all. It is about becoming... that is what the Soul wants you, becoming.
That the the Soul's purpose, that is the Soul's correction: to become someone who can.
Rash big decisions, big movements will just land you on the rocks.
The Ego's role in your personal evolution
The Ego will want you to do that... so you can be justified that you can't... and won't change, won't do anything new... that you are justified to stay the same, wither away, living without joy, without spirit, surviving life.
- I had a first the other day on the Happiness coaching call: a brand new student came and her audio was set up wrong, and although she could hear, I could not hear her. She got off the call, and fixed her audio. Then commented on the membership site, acknowledging herself for taking the first obstacle well: learning how to connect to the call.
I have other students that have been coming to the calls and they either can't be heard or I hear an echo. And even after working on it, they discover what works, they still come back and do it wrong: they never learn.
Being someone who learns is mandatory. The Bach Energy Chestnut Bud counters this inability or unwillingness to learn... unless you can learn, you'll be stuck in spite of your many pretenses to the opposite.