From My Correspondence: Awakening: Will It Feel Good?
This is a student's email to me.
"I've been reading your emails and doing the Unconditional Love Activator and taken the Bach Remedy and I have felt things that I haven't felt in a while, such as getting angry, wishing others wouldn't win, etc.
I'm sort of miserable and then I was reading one of your latest blogs and you said if we had, I think, Wild Oat, Aspen, Centaury etc. in our Bach Remedy then we could either connect to soul or find our soul's purpose.
I need to reread it again because I just closed it & went to bed. Not to sleep per se, just because I DIDN'T know what else to do at that time. I felt so disgusted with myself and felt like I'd been given the chance to see if I connected to Source and had done all the things I had done to improve myself and it was taken away from me...
That's how I felt, though, so please explain it to me again. In the meantime I will go reread the article and see if I can make out what you were trying to say."
She started to participate about four months.
She comes to the meditations, she comes to trainings, and has been taking the remedy for about three weeks.
When I first made here remedy she was an ordinary older woman, discombobulated, not with it, but had a little bit of Life Force nudging her on to connect with me, and the classes.
Her current feelings are a breakthrough: she has started to feel her feelings, she has started to come alive.
It definitely doesn't look like good news.
I have told you before: the truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off... of in her case the truth will hurt first, disgust you first, send you to bed early to hide under the covers... lol.
I've been there. This is a great beginning.
If you expected that awakening is going to be a bed of roses, you are in for a nasty surprise.
You have been asleep to your nastiness, slothiness, dumbness, self-deception, and awakening to that is no fun... I promise, actually I guarantee it.
Many of my students hasn't awakened to their character flaws yet. Or they haven't been able to say "thank you" to negative feedback.
So, why am I celebrating a student of my feeling bad? Am I crazy?
Crazy like a fox!
You can't catch what you can't see! And if you can't catch it, you are stuck with it! It will sit on your eyes forever, and your Soul will make you miserable forever!
You really need to understand this: unless you are working with soul on its correction, it will make you suffer, it will make you sick, it will make your life hell on Earth!
The way to make life Heaven on Earth is to live according to the Original Design: your job, as a human being, is to work with Soul to correct its character flaws. They are your character flaws. You share them with Soul.
Sweeping them under the rug, lying about them, hoping they will go away, suppressing them with eating, sex, and drugs, and alcohol, and work won't make you happy, will just keep you busy till you die.
So, what's next for this student? What's next is starting to work on one snippet of her soul correction.
It has everything to do with other people, in her case, given her specific soul correction.
She will need to transform her view, her ego-view of others, of herself, so she can share, be generous, really generous of heart... because that is her correction.
Hard enough for you? I betcha! Can she do it? We shall see, but I believe in her.