Unconditional Love, Hamster Wheel, You Are Never Good Enough… Had Enough?

hamster wheel of wanting unconditional love Unconditional Love, Hamster Wheel, You Are Never Good Enough... Had Enough?

The gurus talk about unconditional love. I correct myself: they preach about unconditional love.

They pretend. Pius speak.

A few years ago I was invited to a gathering that devotees of a guru gave to celebrate whatever they were celebrating.

I went. I was curious. I am not a guru follower. I wasn't then either.

The guru gave some words about unconditional love, then there was singing. They sang, a Hebrew prayer, that says that there is only one god. At some point I stood up and went to get something to drink. I felt something hitting my back, so I looked back and locked eyes with the guru who sent hatred through her eyes. Wow, if she could kill me, she would.

Unconditional love is not possible for a human being, guru or not guru. Unconditional love is not supportive of survival, and human being's number one goal is to survive. Only the Creator can love unconditionally.

Also, craving unconditional love from a human is a horrible mistake: one of the main reasons we are so crazy: trying to earn love, trying to mold ourselves so people love us: the hamster wheel of having to, needing to, wanting to and should. Once you get that only the Creator can love unconditionally, and he does, you simply get off the hamster wheel and start to become real, start to look what would make you feel good, what would allow you to grow, for growth sake, not because it earns you something.

All my life I wanted to earn my keep, earn the right to be alive. My life was a complete roller coaster, and an utter failure, a mess, hopelessness.

Only after I found out that the Creator loves me unconditionally, regardless of how I look, how I behave, how much I weigh, how I smell, how moral, how righteous, how selfish, how successful I am.

I can even curse the Creator, and the Creator won't bet an eye. wow.

Then I downloaded the capacity to live that way. I went through a week and a half of no ambition, just being, happy, content, doing nothing. Not a thing. I didn't have to. I didn't need to. I didn't want to. I was happy.

After the week and a half I invented stuff to do, for the challenge of it.

Without that first download/activation I would have never gotten where I am now: being instrumental to the activation of the planet.

I would still try to impress some human, prove that I am ok, etc. etc.

Thank God I got off the hamster wheel.

Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar