You find yourself with projects half started, never finished. You find yourself getting enough satisfaction out of buying a self-improvement program, but you don't actually listen to it or use it.
Your self-image is "insignificant." Maybe even weak, inconsequential, not important.
It's all a game.
Once you start working with your soul, you'll see that it is an invented way: to avoid being responsible, avoid risk, avoid being seen, avoid life.
You bore a hole in your system to leak energy so you never have to measure up, never have to do anything, really. You keep up appearances by signing up, but to follow through? Not you. You may look bad, or people will find out that you can't... or worse than that, they will find out that you can.
In simple and plain words: you are a con artist. You may have even fooled yourself.
You are the could have, should have, would have person.
Your choice: continue what you have been doing, or start facing the fact that from time to time you are going to look bad... that you will be tired, disappointed, sad, happy... alive.
What are you going to choose?
A lot of us would recognize this as a character defect. But it is not necessarily the behavior that we recognize that is the soul correction here.
The real soul correction is something really under the radar.
You make promises to the Universe that are sent out as an IOU, a bond. You cash it in (use the Light) and then you don't pay up. You don't deliver. You are in serious arrears with the Universe and unless you start meaning what you say, unless you stop falsifying results, unless you are willing to be weighed and fall short, you are going to play this game... which is, ultimately, will kill you.
Now, what will you choose? Life or death? Seriously!
So what is there to do? You need to have your debt, your undelivered promises cleared up. How do you do that? Find one trusted associate or friend who won't judge you for what you have done. Won't let you off the hook either. But help you do your soul's correction instead.
Make a list of all the ways you have been deceiving the Universe, shortchanging the Universe, and "own it".
The way to own anything is to say what you did without any because. Because means that you are the victim, which is letting yourself off the hook. Instead you want to say: I did that. I did that. I did that. Be specific. It is a finite list: you'll be done before you know. When you are done, item by item, burn the pieces of paper with the list.
Then commit to play straight. No lies, no over-promising and under-delivering, no unfinished projects. No falsifying. No games. No lies. No falsehood. Then honor your commitment. If fall off the pony, you repeat: own it, burn it, recommit.
Then, prepare to be surprised. All the shenanigans of before gone, your fortune finally will start to look up and you will be rewarded for what you do. If you are willing to do what you promise to do, it will be enough for what you seek. I guarantee it.
Footnotes. Many of the most important things are said here! Please Read... Thank you.
- inauthentic=not authentic. Authentic means: you are the same through and through. No fake, no pretense, no facade, it is you... transparent [ ↩ ]