What do I do when I feel like I don’t measure up to life?

Occasionally you need to go back and become a beginner in what you think you already know.

I don’t really know… I only know when I am doing it.

I have, supposedly, got good at tens of things over the decades I have been alive… But my life is showing that good is not good enough.

Maybe in some things I am masterful, but in others I am just good… or somewhat good.

And this is what is going on in my life… and maybe in yours?

So I started with the best motivator: I put a substantial (for me) amount of money on a ‘test’ of getting customers, new customers from Facebook.

The fact that I think of Facebook poorly, the fact that I think Facebook people can’t like me and what I do is immaterial.

I now have invested my money in that, and I’d better earn my money back, or say good bye to it: my opinion doesn’t matter. Continue reading “What do I do when I feel like I don’t measure up to life?”

What is the Strength of YOUR character?

I know you don’t want to talk about this topic, but I am afraid we need to. Hate me, I can take it.

I know it is holiday month, you only want to think of Christmas, and nice-nice, and gifts… but the quality of your life depends on what you do every day… so maybe you want to talk about that…

So what is character? Character, some say, is how you behave when no one is watching.

But that is vague… so let’s look at Wikipedia… here is a short quote from there Continue reading “What is the Strength of YOUR character?”

Everything is a gift… it just doesn’t always match what you expected…

One of the things that most people lack I have in abundance. It’s not all good… so don’t envy me just yet.

First I was born premature… very premature. Less than 2 lbs of bodyweight.

I was fed formula, because, I guess, the hospital thought it was a good idea… or my mother didn’t want to provide breast milk… so I developed a daily/nightly vomiting thing… ugh.

I was, as it turned out, dyslexic, and slightly autistic… which is an of course: dyslexia is on the autistic spectrum.

I would consider myself learning disabled… THEY considered me stupid…

When I was about seven, my father entered the room where my mother was beating me. My father said: Don’t beat her head, she is already stupid!

I was also severely nearsighted… got glasses when I got 9. finally I could see the blackboard. Yay.

Also when I was nine, 1956 happened, a CIA financed uprising, basically a civil war. We had no food, skull and thigh bones were painted on our door meaning: we were slated for extermination.

My brother and I went down every morning and scrubbed the door clean.

One day I was sitting in the upstairs window when two thugs noticed me and used me for target practice. I fell backwards. The shots shattered the mirror behind me, but I wasn’t hit.

I went into a coma-like state and was there for three days, I was told. No doctor, our regular doctor fled the country.

I already had my glasses… but one night I fell on it and a fragment pierced my eye. My left eye. In the midst of shooting my mother was forced to take me to a hospital so they can remove the glass chard.

Horror story after horror story… but there is more…

And I won’t bore you with all… I’ll just mention a few more:

When I was in the third year of a five year study to become an architect, I spent a big chunk of the semester in hospitals… so they pulled me out of the class. But I realized that unless I stay in, I’d probably never be able to return… so I begged every department head, and they relented.

This meant completing a 14 week semester in two weeks… I did, but I came out of the experience with brain-damage.

I had another one some 30 years later and yet another one another year after that.

And this is what I really wanted to talk about.

A dude on Quora accused me of lying: he said it is not possible to increase one’s IQ. I dared to differ, but I forgot about the brain damages, and one of the laws of thermodynamic: a closed system, when pushed too far to disorganize, will reorganize itself on a higher level to prevent itself from falling apart.

Obviously these are my words, my understanding of the law. Now that I google it… it doesn’t seem to say that, but asking Source, what I said is true…

So what happened, four times, is my brain re-organized itself to deal with the sudden impact almost causing it to disintegrate…

So this may be my secret of raising my IQ with so many points.


But… but in my experience, in my practice, people’s IQ depends a lot on many more mundane factors.

  • 1. Plaque. If your brain is covered with plaque, then your brain will functions way below its original physical capacity
  • 2. Unuse/disuse: If you don’t use your brain much, it will atrophy… like muscles. Most people don’t use their brains… The whole brain program is an effective remedy for that…
  • 3. Your tendency to live inside the mind… the mind is not the part of the brain participating in the intelligence tests… and doesn’t contribute to your intelligence. You live inside the brain because you are stuck in some victim story… And who isn’t? right?
  • 4. Your cells are drying out for lack of live, coherent water

In the work I do with my students, we actually attend to all three reasons why your brain doesn’t perform as it could.

When people are unwilling to get unstuck, I habitually remove them from my programs, temporarily or permanently.

I am not in the business of trying to help everybody. I am in the business to develop a technology of turning turnip-like humans into human beings.

The people I remove are able to get unstuck, but not willing. Their agenda of being right, or some other agenda, like making me wrong, is stronger than their innate desire to become all they can become.

Some, very few, recognize that they are not willing, and they leave on their own. Very few… Most people hang in there… because they still see hope. Hope for a life worth living, hope for a life that they can live powerfully.

For that you need a good, functioning brain, and a realistic relationship to what you can and what you can’t do with it.

But even more important than that: an solid understanding and an ability to bring it to bear, that there is nothing wrong in reality.

  • There was nothing wrong in my life, although much of it was dramatic.
  • There is nothing wrong with having your brain almost fall apart
  • There is nothing wrong with you, with others, with life. It is what it is.

If you cannot internalize that everything that seems wrong is your creation and you have everything to say about it, you don’t get to stay in training.

How else can you experience diminished intelligence?

You see, for most people even just staying somewhat intelligent is a big issue. Worry, anxiety, poor sleep, high expectations, disappointment, inflated ego, being too easily offended, blaming, feeling like a victim all reduce your coherence and therefore your intelligence by far.

As is behaving like a jack in a box… having your machine trigger-happy…

What is your machine? What triggers it? We learn these in my program. At the present time I don’t have any openings for new people in my live programs. But you can do your preparation work if you are serious about becoming all you can become.

You can take care of your brain health.

To remove the plaque you need an energy audio (Big Bundle) and a nightly dose of unprocessed sesame oil. Why sesame oil? When agitated with the energy audio, the sesame oil has a unique ability to gently and slowly dissolve the plaque, wherever it is in your body. In your arteries, in your veins, or on your brain.

Gently. Anything that is more drastic than that creates an opening for the broken off plaque creating a blockage in a blood vessel, and causing a bigger problem, a stroke, an embolism, or an heart attack.

The audio itself is not enough. The sesame oil itself is not enough. The combination is perfect.

I saved my life this way. My students got smarter and healthier this way.

The sesame oil doesn’t taste that good… Using the audio is annoying.

This is the price you pay… Nothing is free in reality. If you are not willing… tell the truth and don’t pretend. Not to yourself, not to me.

It’s OK. Nothing wrong. I surely don’t care… should I?

But if you want to dissolve the plaque, here is the link to the audio.

Get a free headset when you buy the Big Bundle
I have found a source or two for suitable sesame oil too. Email me for the links. Not all sesame oil dissolve plaque!

Back to the future… A practical and easy method of time travel

Can you go back to the past and change it? Will the future change with it?

Silly sounding question, but it is not as silly as it sounds.

Because we look at life, at what is happening, through the limited perspective of the human mind, we actually don’t know what is happening, only

  1. a slice of what happened
  2. only a skewed version of what happened

Ultimately we can only experience and react to what we see, and what we see is both limited and skewed.
Continue reading “Back to the future… A practical and easy method of time travel”

This dude is calling me a liar…

At first, like anyone I know would, I felt slighted. Then I looked if I was really a liar… giving him the benefit of doubt… I desperately wanted to respond to his comment… but I knew I was reacting.

Then I put it aside… and this morning, as I was playing Freecell, I pondered about it. It is important to mention that I did that while I played Freecell… because mainly it is in Freecell where I noticed, distinctly and clearly, the behavioral change I mention in my comment.

OK, here is question I answered on Quora.

What is someone with a 160 IQ capable of that someone with a 135 IQ isn’t?

Here is the answer I posted:

I am going to answer the question from personal experience. With the work I do for myself and others, I’ve managed to increase my IQ to 165 from 135… actually, first from 110 to 135, and then through some years of practice and work to 165. It is 165 now.

The effects I notice are pretty intangible:

—I can view wider to connect dots. Continue reading “This dude is calling me a liar…”

Alive with pleasure… if that’s you, don’t read this article

One of the most attractive things I learned in Landmark Education is this: The Universe gets to you in one of three ways: Truth, Beauty or Goodness.

This statement says that the Universe can move you to tears, and you’ll feel alive inside. After all feeling alive is maybe the most missing for us: we are alive, we are breathing, eating, maybe even procreating, but we don’t often feel alive. I don’t.

Feeling alive is a special feeling. I remember an advertising line: Alive with pleasure. It was selling cigarettes… but I remember longingly trying on being alive with pleasure. I didn’t smoke.

So yesterday I was thinking of my clients and students and contemplated if I could guess what way the Universe would MOVE them, Truth, Beauty or Goodness.

I was wrong every time. Hm… so I looked further. Continue reading “Alive with pleasure… if that’s you, don’t read this article”

What are you here for? Can you get it here? Let’s look together, shall we?

Everyone who comes to me or to my site, yourvibration.com, on some level wants to be more, wants to have more.

Most visitors come here AFTER they research how to get what you want… in whatever area of life they feel a lack.

So people come here with a sense of lack, neediness, and a hope that I can tell them what they need to have, or maybe can even give them what they need to have, so they can have what they want.

Unfortunately 99% of my site’s visitors leave disappointed… yet again.

Did I not give them what they need to have? I have, at a rate of about 70% goes away looking for someone who doesn’t tell them that they need to DO something… that wasn’t what they wanted… they didn’t want doing. Continue reading “What are you here for? Can you get it here? Let’s look together, shall we?”