"The only thing worth writing about is the human heart in conflict with itself" said William Faulkner. I agree, even though the language, the vocabulary is imprecise.
The "heart" is one self, and the other self is the precious "I", the delusional "I", the lower self.
The conflict, the struggle to make those two selves align, as William Faulkner says, is worth writing about... because it is like a hero's journey.
I call it "soul correction" because I am firmly rooted in Kabbalah's view of life. But it is the same thing: bringing the two selves in harmony so they cause synergy that allows living a life worth writing about.
If the caterpillar planned to become a butterfly, there would be no more butterflies.
In the famous marshmallow experiment by Walter Mischel. He said that the 30% of the kids that didn't eat the marshmallow, didn't even look at the marshmallow. They kept doing other things, keeping their eyes off the marshmallow. Consciously, intentionally, purposefully.
I have read a lot about that experiment, I have even written about it, but I didn't know that the "winners" avoided looking at the marshmallow. that piece was missing for me, until now.
George Bernard Shaw wrote more than a hundred years ago: "This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy."
And what he wrote about you, being a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances... is more true today than it was in his time.
No one has offered a solution to that issue until now.
This is a severely truncated article from "Vox"... I am only interested in giving you Bayes' Method, that will help you go to reality with more certainty than you have now, and spend less time, a whole lot less wondering about your feelings... Whatever they may be.
To my dismay, this is what you have been doing, emoting. You make your decisions based on emotions... Life spent in utter uselessness.
Homo Sapiens, as a species, is pretty messed up. Everything sets its emotions off, and the specimen gets all emotional, angry, afraid, violent, or sad and depressed.
This emotional reactivity makes getting things done near impossible, learning, or having people together pretty hopeless.
Almost all diseases are a consequence of this phenomenon... people eat to soothe themselves. People eat to eat another out of their fortune. People eat to feel superior. People eat to get some enjoyment out of life.
You know, it is really true that your environment, the people with whom you identify and spend the most time with have more to do with who you are going to be, what you are going to do, what your main concerns in life will be, than anything else.
I have been observing people, some more than others.
Some are genuinely talented... and yet their whole world is low vibration, their approach to the world is an incoherent mix of low vibration consistent with their friends' and their main concerns, while high vibration would be consistent with their inner potential.