On the horizontal plane what you see is the other. You don't see yourself. You may feel your body, you may feel your feelings, but you don't see yourself.
You see your effect on others. You see the other, that may be a reflection of you... if you can recognize it as such.
That seems to be all of you, right? And for most of you this is the reality: all you are is your periphery, in actuality.
So what would be the inside? Consciousness... Observer... Witness... and Heaven.
So why don't we live on the inside, where the other has no effect? Because what's in between is ugly. YOUR ugliness. YOUR pretenses.
It's not your fault, but that doesn't help.
You didn't start pretending because you are bad... you started to pretend because it was expected of you.
When you were just a baby in a crib, you noticed that your mother came to you with more warmth if you smiled, so you smiled more. Not because you felt like it, but because it was expected of you... and from there it was all downhill.
And behind that mountain of pretense is the Real You, the inside of you, the serene you, the peaceful you, the happy you... and the only way to get to it is through the mountain of pretense... by looking it through, just like you would look through a mountain of laundry.
Or maybe a mountain of clothes you want to give to Goodwill... a charity.
And as you go through the stuff... some of the clothes, you think, are still good... and you want to keep them.
That is why it takes so long... and most of you won't even get started: charity? Noooo. You need it.
The other? You need them! you yell. But you don't. Not really.
The other is always in the way. Always wants something different from what YOU want. Whines, or orders you around, or makes you jump through hoops.
The other is hell... and the other is your whole world. You don't know any other world, and sure as hell, you don't want to look at your ugliness, even if that takes you to heaven.
You don't have to. You can carpet and decorate your hell... you've been doing that for ever.
But... but if you want to go in the direction of heaven, if you are interested in acting consistent with the direction human evolution wants you to go, then you will need to go through the laundry... piece by piece.
That is where the path leads through.
Once you get through, you'll find emptiness, the abyss... If you have the courage and the trust to be there and not run away, little by little, it will show itself as heaven.
You can be the one...
And until then, just continue living the life with the other, where you don't matter, where everything you get will die with you, the life of the horizontal plane.
You will console yourself with peak experiences, sudden buzzing sensations, or peace, or maybe a moment of happiness.
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