I am happy to report that the second type of mite, spider mite, has been turned into "has been", for now at least. Finally, now that the pressure of nightly fear of going to sleep, the incessant itching, is lowered to a bearable level.
The weather has turned springlike, and today I noticed that it went by unnoticed, I only paid attention that now I have to wear less clothing. No thought of going for a walk, no thought of gratitude, just going through the days teeth gritted. Life felt like a chore, something to survive.
Today, when I woke up with no itch, no mites, I noticed the quality of the light, the color of the sky, and I felt a deep gratitude.
I, suddenly, felt like cleaning up the floor from the Diatomaceous Earth that is all over it, in every room, silent witness of my months-long suffering. I felt a little energy, and today I didn't have to take a nap in the middle of the day... I didn't even think about it until just now.
Pure Maslow hierarchy of needs... until I could see that bodily I'll be well, I could not think about luxury, like cleaning... lol. Or walking... Only survival.
The biggest difference between you and me is, as I can see it, the fact that I have my consciousness awake and alert 24/7. It doesn't go to sleep at night, even when my body and my mind do. Consciousness doesn't suffer when my body and my mind suffer. It is there, observing it all. When I can identify myself with the Observer, the consciousness, I have room for the suffering of the body, I have room for a lot of things I never used to have room for.
But it's been trying for me this past few months. I had to, consciously, unidentify myself from the body and the mind, and pull out. But I could, because I had done it before, successfully, thousands of times.
That is the most important skill anyone who wants to be happy needs to learn: pulling out of the mind, pulling out of the body.
Ultimately, you can't even connect to Source long enough until you can master this one skill... The student who I've had longest and connects with ease is connected for seconds only, because then she needs to go unconscious... that is her only way to pull out of the mind. She does this, I guess, because she cannot tell the difference between observing the mind or identify yourself with the mind.
She, mistakenly thinks, I guess, that the thoughts need to stop. The thoughts never stop. Not even when you sleep, you just call them dreams then.
This whole issue has come up, because she can't feel anything while she sleep, so it's taken her a long time to realize that we shared both insects... I knew, but she didn't.
Why doesn't she feel while she sleeps? Because her only ways to go to sleep is to go unconscious. And unconscious means there is no one to guard you while you sleep.
Another disturbing thing came up this past week: One commenter remarked that I should be satisfied with one or two readers...
I quote: You're one of the rare people who IS in step with Life, it appears that society is too busy living to know Life. Anyway, if your articles reach/touch only 2, 3 or just a handful of people, isn't that good enough?
People like this commenter forget that in order to do this "job" well, I have turned my whole life over to it, I have surrendered my life to it.
I pretty much don't have any other way to make a living, not because I have no skills, but because you either surrender or you don't.
Do you think I would be able to do this work if I had to hold a full time job to be able to be OK with having only a handful of people read my stuff?
I need to make a living at least on the poverty level, or you'll get nothing. And I do live on the poverty level... lol. I am not complaining, I am probably bragging. Why bragging? Because it is unimaginable to be penniless and still be well. Productive. Without loss of enthusiasm.
People come to me because they have a problem. Because life is not juicy for them. Because they want to get more out of life than they are getting. I don't know what rich people want... I don't know any rich people.
But the ones I know of, enough to feel them, are living a life centered around desiring more... I guess they are not really rich either, lol. As long as you desire, you are a beggar.
Anyway, if you would, follow me on both of my "channels", the fight against the microscopic mites, and my raise your vibration stuff.
I have a facebook page for both, you could become active if you don't mind.
Here is the biting mites page on Facebook
and here is the Raise your vibration with Sophie page
I have some 8 more pages... but these two are enough for now.
ARE YOU NOT A RICH MAN'S GURU?
I AM — BECAUSE ONLY A RICH MAN CAN COME TO ME. But when I say 'a rich man' I mean one who is very poor inside. When I say 'a rich man' I mean one who is rich in intelligence; I mean one who has got everything that the world can give to him, and has found that it is futile.
Yes, only a rich person can become religious. I am not saying that a poor person cannot become religious, but it is very rare, exceptional. A poor person goes on hoping. A poor person has not known what riches are.
He is not yet frustrated with it. How can he go beyond riches if he is not frustrated with them? A poor man also sometimes comes to me, but then he comes for something which I cannot supply. He asks for success. His son is not getting employed; he asks, "Bless him, Osho." His wife is ill, or he is losing money in his business. These are symptoms of a poor man, one who is asking about things of this world.
When a rich person comes to me, he has money, he has employment, he has a house, he has health — he has everything that one can have. And suddenly he has come to a realisation that nothing is fulfilling. Then the search for God starts.
Yes, sometimes a poor man can also be religious, but for that very great intelligence is needed. A rich man, if he is NOT religious, is stupid. A poor man, if he is religious, is tremendously intelligent. if a poor man is not religious, he has to be forgiven. If a rich man is not religious, his sin is unpardonable.
I am a rich man's guru. Absolutely it is so. Let me tell you one anecdote:
They were married for twenty-five years and had their biggest argument on the day of their silver anniversary. She never hit harder or lower: "If it weren't for my money, that TV set wouldn't be here. If it weren't for my money, the very chair you're sitting on wouldn't be here!"
"Are you kidding?" he interrupted. "If it weren't for your money — I wouldn't be here!"
And let me say this to you: If it were not for your money, you would not have been here. You are here because you are frustrated with your money. You are here because you are frustrated with your success. You are here because you are frustrated with your life. A beggar cannot come because he is not yet frustrated.
Religion is luxury — the last, ultimate luxury I call it, because it is the highest value. When a man is hungry, he does not bother about music, cannot. And if you start playing sitar before him, he will kill you. He will say, "You are insulting me! I am hungry and you are playing sitar — is this the time to play sitar? Feed me first! And I am so hungry I cannot understand music. I am dying!" When a man is dying of hunger, what use is a Van Gogh painting? or a Buddha's sermon? or beautiful Upanishads, or music? — meaningless. He needs bread.
When a man is happy with his body, has enough to eat, has a good house to live in, he starts becoming interested in music, poetry, literature, painting, art. Now a new hunger arises. The bodily needs are fulfilled, now psychological needs arise. There is a hierarchy in needs: the first is the body; it is the base, it is the ground-floor of your being. Without the ground-floor, the first storey cannot exist.
When your bodily needs are fulfilled, psychological needs arise. When your psychological needs are also fulfilled, then your spiritual needs arise. When a person has listened to all the music that is available in the world, and has seen all the beauty, and has found that it is all dream; has listened to all the great poets, and has found that it is just a way to forget yourself, just a way to intoxicate yourself, but it does not lead you anywhere; has seen all the paintings and the great art — amusing, entertaining, but then what…?
Then hands remain empty, more empty than they ever were before. Then music and poetry are not enough. Then the desire to meditate, the desire to pray, a hunger for God, a hunger for truth arises. A great passion takes possession of you and you are in search of truth, because you now know: unless you know what the secretmost truth of this existence is, nothing can satisfy. All else you have tried and it has failed.
Religion is the ultimate luxury. Either you have to be very rich to come to this luxury, or you have to be tremendously intelligent. But in both the cases you are rich — rich with money or rich with intelligence. I have never seen a person who is really poor — poor in intelligence, poor in riches — ever become religious.
Kabir becomes religious. He was not a millionaire, but he was tremendously intelligent. Buddha became religious because he was tremendously rich. Krishna and Ram and Mahavir became religious because they were tremendously rich. Dadu, Redas, Farid, they became religious because they were tremendously intelligent. But a certain sort of richness is needed.
Yes, you are right: I am the rich man's guru.
“My people are rich. In fact, only the very rich, educated, intelligent, cultured can understand what I am saying. Beggars cannot come to me, poor people cannot come to me; the gap is too big. They can hear me but they cannot understand me. So it is natural: I am the rich man’s guru.”