What’s going on?

I've been sitting here, unable or unwilling to do anything... Unfamiliar feeling. I finally asked the question: why?

And then it hit me: I am either feeling Dark Side emotions transmitted, or you are not breathing.

What's going on?

It feels like you are waiting for something to blow over... like a storm.

Anything I don't know about? You can't pay your rent? Your mortgage?

Is it Christmas? I feel it is about money...

Please talk to me...

Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar

10 thoughts on “What’s going on?”

  1. For me personally, i have concerns about paying bills for stock, although it’s not stopping me, i’ve actually been listing a lot of stock items this evening.
    although i am not breathing, i am in a zone however, it is more like emergency than urgency, very much pulling from the stomach, clenched stomach, certainly not breathing.

    I feel like i had capacities activated previously that made this easier, to the extent that i notice before/after, possibly the sight.

    There is missing the ability to be prolific but without emergency or clenching. lol

    Also christmas, for the past 2 or 3 years i said i am not doing presents, don’t get me any, i don’t get you any, i was happier, i enjoy the food and the company, mostly lol, this year it’s gone to shit, girlfriend loves christmas and present giving, i feel compelled.

  2. Hi Sophie, I am in unfamiliar water I find I cannot look without the mind closing me down, I am aware that I am not willing to move the self to explore a bit further I have felt sick in the stomach since the activation on Sunday and food is not all that appetising. I am away from home visiting friends and family and feel out on a limb a bit things at home where not well with my husband and 15 year old son before I left and they are not resolving the issue this is on my mind. I do feel like I am waiting for a storm to pass or there is something really important I have forgotten.

  3. Feeling the same way Will is feeling about the holidays….and all the BS pretense it brings with it.

    There’s a line from Christmas vacation that helping me put it into context: “Relax, it’s the holidays, we’re all miserable.”

  4. I also notice a lack of capacities in my mother, it’s an interesting new view on people, also saddening, i can only imagine what it looks like from your view. yeesh.

  5. When you came to me, you had seven capacities. You now have 30. You inherited your seven.

    It is a good idea to not get saddened by the low level humanity is at… instead appreciate what it must be like for them. That is the only way to be well.

  6. Thank you, Sophie. As I begin this work , I have been flooded by the fears of the future and frustration at my repeated “failures to launch.” I know it’s an inside job and am willing to do the work to move beyond these very big blind spots and ancestral ties.

  7. I am sure your willingness will increase once you get the “process” capacity turned on. Most people, myself included, don’t want to step on a path that we don’t know where it leads. Of course you need to be at a place where you need the process or it will die before it helped you.

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