No matter where I am on the capacities scale, or the vibration scale, I still catch myself, in certain areas, interacting with how things should be, instead of how they are. How you should be, instead of how you are.
If this doesn't say it clearly what I do, let me give you some examples... You'll see.
Yesterday I spoke about people who hang out on my site, receive my emails, maybe even read them, but don't come to my free webinars.
I am mad at them. I don't quite know what's going on over there, but they are not how they should be, so I am annoyed.
I looked to see if there is any site, any coach, expert that I follow and never buy from them... and I found that unless I buy from someone, I don't follow them.
It must be my principle: "You can't effectively judge anything from the outside. You have to get inside and see it for yourself from there."
I did that with religion... tried it on for size.
I enrolled in a Yeshiva, a religious school for women. I worked during the day, and I spent my evenings there taking classes. I didn't just read about it, researched about it... no, I jumped in.
Takes courage? No,not really. It wasn't a cult, a prison with bars for god's sake, it was a school!
I takes common sense: you can't tell if you'll like a dish without tasting it. You can't tell if a skin cream works for your skin without putting it on your skin... You can't tell if you'll enjoy being with someone without going on a date. I have common sense... Do you?
I started to wear the frumpy clothes religious Jews wear, eat Kosher, keep the Shabbat.
Then the s-h-i-t hit the fan in a philosophy class: my world view clashed with the Jewish philosophy... And then again, same day, with prayer class.
I was unwilling to pray. There was no one to talk to and it was silly.
And the same week on a Shabbat dinner, when I arrived with a bunch of flowers I bought just for this occasion: I found out that putting cut flowers in water is considered work, and you are not allowed to work on a Shabbat.
That was it for me. I wasn't going to even consider a god who says kill flowers... just because it is a certain day of the week.
On my way home I touched every light switch, took the elevator, and that was my stint with religion.
But I could have never seen what I saw from the outside. I had to get inside and see for myself.
Just like with clothes... you would go into the store and try the freaking thing on. For size, for fit, for color, for feel... but would try it on.
So you can try it on. Try me on. See for yourself. If it works for you, you'll know it. If it doesn't work... you'll know it.
So it's like a store: you can try it on. Except with what I give: you can take it on, and play with it.
None of the activated capacities will do much for you unless you start to use them... or try to use them.
Amazing, isn't it?
So let's consider that I have activated for you bilocation capacity. It's rare, not many people have it.
Next time you talk to someone, you attempt it. You either can hear yourself from there, or not...
To test it, you don't even have to care how your words land, just care enough to see if you can use it. I have it... and yet, I often don't care... I just want to dump on you... I am sure you noticed.
- That was one reason.
The other reason is this: unless you have the base capacities that would allow you to grow, no other capacities will turn on.
Unless you can get humility: the capacity to say "I don't know, please give it to me" you won't allow anything else to be turned on.
I have a long list of people who did not allow humility to be turned on. Self-defense, self-righteousness? Who knows. Who cares. They came to a call, and that says to me they want it, at least to see what it's like.
So I attempt to switch on the capacity of humility 2-3 times a day... one by one, not as a "group".
Some, after a while, allow it. Once they do, they can get more capacities turned on... and the light starts to stay on longer and longer at a time.
My goal is to take humanity to the next evolutionary stage: human being. This is important to me, this is my life's work.
So it is worth my time and effort to take the resistant ones there, if they ask me to.
Sometimes resistance is automatic.
Sometimes resistance is automatic. It comes from fear. I know fear. I probably know fear as well as most... so I have compassion. I know you can get through it, if you can see where you are going... If you can see that you can handle anything that comes, if you can just allow life to be the way life is.
I can see that most people can't. So I don't deal with most people. I deal with the ones that raise their hands.
Coming to a free DNA capacity activation webinar is raising your hand.
Sometimes, rarely, a person slips through who is still in the "please do it for me" stage, meaning they are unaware and unwilling to do the work themselves.
I test the list of people before I start the webinar: people with their hands out don't belong.
And then I get angry... Because of my own mistake... Familiar?
PS: I just got feedback from a long-time student of mine, who is stuck at 30 capacities. Nothing I try to add turns on. I realized to day that he doesn't have the capacity to be generous. To share. To give without an agenda, for the sake of giving.
I think that if I turned generosity as a capacity on, he would be able to continue to grow.
If he accepts it, I will ad that capacity "generosity" to the free dna capacity activation webinars this weekend, tomorrow and Sunday.
Generosity is dangerous to ego, because it suddenly takes you out of the center of your world view, and suddenly not everything is about you. And the puny ego, the scarcity ego is scared for its survival.
It will be, I predict, another sticky point, just like humility is... ego won't like it.