Denial of Service Attacks… oh my

When governments fear people, there is liberty. When the people fear the government, there is tyranny. — Thomas Jefferson

It’s hard to decide who is afraid of who.

My students asked yesterday on the call: “Are you going to be safe, Sophie?”

It is not my path to be safe.

In 1988 I learned a technique (an exercise, really) that can help someone with a quiet mind descend deep inside and find the root of things.

I had just recently discovered that my default future was “I am going to be thrown out…” Thrown out of a volunteer job (17 times), thrown out of a course I paid for, thrown out of class, thrown out of a job (too many to count).

What was underneath is this: “I am on borrowed time…” i.e. life is short, make the best of it, who knows when you’ll be terminated.

I asked my neighbor across the hall to help me with that: you need two people for the exercise.

I trained him how to be and what to do. The instructions were: I’ll tell you that I am borrowed time. Then you ask: “OK, so what happened?”

I’ll look and I tell you. When I stop talking, you say “OK, so what happened?”

I’ll look again and tell you.

This will go on, until I say: “OK, I am clear what happened…”

He agreed. We started early afternoon, and it was pitch dark when we were done.

I went back from incident to incident, to being in the womb and overhearing a conversation, to the most recent past life when I was shot into the Danube with hundreds of other Jews, to a past life where I was a medicine woman and killed, to a past life where I was a witch burned on the stake.

In all of those incidents I was killed for what I was and what I believed in.

So it is not my path to be afraid. Even though signs that I have reason to be afraid are gathering like storm clouds.

Since July 31, when I moved my sites to a new server, hoping that it was Hostgator’s 1 restrictive policy that disabled my sites frequently, I found out the truth.

Hostgator, in fact, was almost strong enough to keep my sites on air most of the time.

Since the 31st, 7 days, the server was crashed by attacks 21 times.

I am not sure exactly what denial of service attacks are, but this is good enough for me.

It effectively prevents me from doing what I need to do, while I run around crazy to get the sites back up, to add and remove software, to worry and to struggle for breath. Good job done by the enemy.

No cloaking has worked, I am on my own.

Thanks to all the work, all the techniques I teach, and the ones I haven’t taught, I am well. A little hunched over, a little hoarse, a little puffed up, especially my feet and my ankles… but I am still here, still working, and will stay until they take me out.

The work must continue. After all allowing humanity to succumb to the Dark is not the path that was meant to be.

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  1. Hostgator is a web hosting company

Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

True empath, award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar

2 thoughts on “Denial of Service Attacks… oh my”

  1. When you said you were moving your sites to a dedicated server, I thought, “Wow, that is massive overkill.” When the sites were just as slow on the new server as the last one, I thought, “Ah, must be a software issue.” But if you are now crashing, then DOS attacks could very well be the issue.

    Hostgator is the number one choice of online marketers, so I doubt they were the problem. As you noted, they were probably fending off the attacks. I highly doubt that you need a dedicated server for your website.

    My advice is to follow your instinct on the DoS attacks. I haven’t faced that, so I don’t know anything about it and can’t advise, but I am sure there are people who understand such. If you would like me to investigate for you, I would be pleased to volunteer. Let me know.

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