It's been many years that I "shared" with anyone.
Sharing is a Landmark Education distinction: you talk about some gain in your life, in a particular way, and if you did it well, the other person gets a tiny bit more than just a whiff of what you are "sharing"; they get a taste of it. A taste of your gain...As if you've given them a bite of your triple chocolate fudge cake... lol.
We were both early for the exercise class, and she was really relieved that she wasn't going to be the only student...
As I was changing to shorts, and gym shoes, I asked if it would be OK with her if I bragged... And she said yes.
I really really really wanted to show someone my belly: no hanging skin, no stretch marks, in spite of the big and relative fast weight loss.
It felt good... but then the s-h-i-t hit the fan.
"Good for you..." she said...
It wasn't the words. I felt the push... the words could have come with a different attitude, by the way.
OK, you say, that is quite normal. People don't want anyone to tell them anything good about themselves. And they don't want anyone to sell them on anything. I remember the time when I felt that if someone was successful that meant that I was a failure... It was a long time ago, but I remember it clearly.
So I asked if she took what I said as a sales pitch. She lied... "no".
OK, this is what I want to talk about... about that attitude... we'll give it a name soon.
It was a lucky break because I actually forgot how resistant people were to anything that anyone else said, anything that anyone else liked, anything that said that other people did, anything that said that other people succeeded with.
"I'd rather be dead than acknowledge that I need that, that I could use that, that I would do better with that, because then I would allow you to win. And that would mean that I am a loser, or less than you." is the attitude. It is not said: it is in the "unsaid"... below the surface.
OK, the first thing I see is: everyone loves shopping, everyone hates being sold.
If you allowed someone to sell you, you would feel like they are the only winners... that you are a sucker, that you've been used.
I think I can see THE distinction that is operating with resistance of this sort.
The distinction is called "zero sum game". 1
Some games are zero sum games. There is a loser and there is a winner. 2football, poker, golf... winner takes all.)
But most games in life are NOT zero sum games, but you treat them as such.
Why? because if you consider that life is an either win or lose game, you'll never be relaxed. You'll be always on high alert.
I have observed this woman I had the conversation with, and all her actions are consistent with her viewing the world through... listen up... or-ness.
That is the same distinction, zero sum game, just said differently.
It is either you or me... It is either I am the best or I am nothing... It is either you are nice or you are rude and then just please die... lol.
Most of life, as far as I can see it, works better with putting "and" between the parties.
It is you and me... it is I am the best and I am nothing at the same time... It is you are nice and you are rude and life works really well this way.
- Positive thinking, the practice, does that to you.
- Your upbringing.
- Grading in school.
The level you can get it is the level of your ability to handle adversity, ambivalence and controversy.
It's a spiritual capacity. Or three spiritual capacities.
Mandatory for the kind of life you want. Winning, smooth, joyful.
Thank you Sophie!
Well I got up at a reasonable hour and I am winding down a ten-hour workday on the wall. I didn't have a panic attack, but something close. Many times, almost hysterical, almost crying, saying out loud,”I can't do it!” While doing it without stopping. In the zone, but over the edge a few times.
A great illustration of the "and" game.
Your mind says one thing, while your body, your intellect, your attention do another thing.
Or you feel fear and do it anyway... take the fear with you.
Or team up with the competition.
Or learn what not to do from someone who you normally would just dismiss as stupid.
Love someone and hate someone... seemingly at the same time.
No losers. And no winners.
She would have seen that she could love the results I was having, and not have to do it. She could even tell me that. "I love what you got. I really do. And I am not interested in becoming a client, a student, or anything... But I love it."
Another distinction that is there that I just caught: the distinction is called "therefore"...
The mistaken belief that if you love someone you must now do something...
If you promise then you are now bound to do it... slavery.
If you agree then you must agree with everything.
Lots of different ways this "therefore" shows up in your thinking.
This is when you need to stop and say "it ain't necessarily so..." and think it through.
99.99% of your therefore's are false. False logic. False automatic thinking.
And you are surprised that I say "stupid".
The bad thing is, that without distinction you think I am wrong, and judgmental, and all that horrible stuff you think about me.
But stupid only means that there is something you haven't considered, haven't thought, haven't recognized.
Stupid is a great opportunity for growth.
Most of you won't see it. I am OK with that.
PS: Many of you think that people with high vibration don't get angry, don't think stupid thoughts, don't get sad or depressed. That is another expression, another manifestation of your either/or thinking.
PPS: You probably think you know everything, you see everything clearly. It's normal, it is the mind that thinks it has everything. The stupid part of every human, the mind.
Every time I read a new book, every 3-4 days, I am stunned to discover how much I don't know, how much I can't see. I even feel embarrassed, or ashamed. I even have thoughts of impostor syndrome... no wonder I could not help X, I had no idea about the thing I just read... and it would have been perfect.
But that is life, the life of someone who grows. Growing is confronting. Growing is controversial. Growing is finding out how stupid you have been.
If you read and pay attention to how smart you've been, you block out anything new, anything confronting, and you are not growing.
How stupid is that?
PPPS: every good joke is funny because of this "therefore" automatic false causality of the mind... Often hilarious... But did you notice that you don't laugh a lot? Dead giveaway that you don't catch yourself.