(or how to increase your Twitchy Little Bastard score)
This morning I am running on fumes…
TLB – Twitchy Little Bastard; a person who is too anxious for results. Also a person who has no ability to control his urges… like the urge to fix what they see as wrong.
One of the most valuable capacities you can develop is to look and be able to tell the difference… and start managing your energy.
Sometimes you give your energy to another and get nothing back… Maybe you get money, but money does not fill you up. Money does not give you energy. It may buy groceries… but groceries only give you physical energy.
The depletion is of psychic energy, of spiritual energy, of intellectual energy.
Your Twitchy Little Bastards (TLB) score will tell you how well you manage this energy. The energy you need to get things done, to amount to something, to become worth a damn, and to deserve what you want.
Low TLB? I will gamble on saying: you have been running on fumes for so long, you don’t even know what it feels like to be full, nurtured, and well.
And anyone who deals with you for more than an hour will be also depleted… because you suck their energy, and then leak it out instantly.
Baron Munchausen, one of my favorite characters as a child, and his half-horse comes to mind.
You have a low Twitchy Little Bastards score? You are the half-horse.
What you do with what you hear almost doesn’t matter from this vantage point, what matters is that it doesn’t reflect back to me at all.
My calls with TLB’s are long. Why? Because I am trying desperately to fill them up… but to no avail.
I am sure, regardless of YOUR TLB, you have people like this around you who always want more from you because they don’t retain any of what you say. Or do. Or give them. Wisdom, love, advice, food, yourself… they don’t even gain anything, while you get used up.
A horrible way to die.
So a TLB2 is not double of a TLB1 on that scale, a TLB2 is 10 times more.
And a 3 is a hundred times more.
And a 4 is a thousand times more.
I currently have two, a grand total of two people whose TLB score is higher than 1.
If I lived an ordinary life, I would be burned out. But I don’t live an ordinary life: I live a life carefully designed to keep my energy level high… and I make only occasional mistakes.
When I try to give more than the other person can use, when they are a half-horse…
Just like with eating, what starts it is an unpleasant feeling of hunger and an enticing feeling of appetite or hunger. And then at some point the appetite and the hunger diminish, to be replaced with the unpleasant feeling of fullness.
All functions of a human who is not corrupted yet work this way…
I was corrupted, and obviously still corrupted to a certain degree: to the degree that the healthy feelings are replaced with the desire trap: to try to help someone who is not willing to be helped, not able to be helped, not ready to be helped.
Being able to detect the other person’s state is possible by gauging what comes back. Like a sonar can tell how deep a well is, or how deep is the ocean.
If nothing comes back… stop. Stop giving, stop selling, stop trying to persuade them. Just stop… in the middle of a sentence. They won’t even notice: they are not there to receive. They may be there to deplete you, but not for themselves.
So what should you do with the TLB 1’s in your life?
If YOU are a TLB 1, then pull your attention back to yourself, and find a way to go to TLB 2.
I tell you what I did. When I started I was a TLB 3. This was about 11 years ago.
With TLB 3 you can go quite far. I had all those degrees. I had all those businesses. I did relatively well with TLB 3. I was miserable, though. And not well.
The practice I chose came from my observation of myself of wanting to jump without looking.
Because the right-brain likes to jump, and I am dominated by the right brain (I am what you call a hidden-left-handed person, I’ll explain later) and I saw the end result of a process without doing the process itself.
- In any activity where other people are managed, or taught, this is a horrible thing… they cannot follow you.
- In any learning, not knowing, not wanting to know the steps, will lead you to a lot of failures: I should know, I am an architect. And yet I make decisions from the picture of the finished building (the result) and always forget that I am not willing to build… step by step.
I have spent too many thousands of dollars on this mistake: buying programs that I never took out of the ‘shrink wrap’… I was unwilling to actually do what it takes to make the things I saw happen: the process.
The process, for a person like me, is sheer madness, terror, and the amount of unpleasant feelings I need to deal with is too much… So I had to build up my tolerance, if I ever wanted to build something, have something valuable, worth having.
I’ve been using Freecell, the solitaire card game all computers come equipped with.
It would be a leak, normally, and it was a leak 11 years ago.
But I noticed that if I can force myself to look before I leap, I can win more… I, occasionally, did that. It was painful, because all I wanted is to win, do, release the tension that drove me to the game… not hold onto it, and increase it by forcing myself to look.
It’s taken me 11 years to increase my TLB to 70.
The unpleasant feelings did not go away. They did not become weaker. I actually feel them stronger… but I’ve become stronger. A whole lot stronger. A whole more a person.
Working with students, it is MY JOB to help them find the one practice that is frequent enough and precise enough to be effective to raise their TLB score. I am your Mr. Miyagi… The boy in the movie was the Twitchy Little Bastard, remember him?
It’s all about jumping… or not.
Catching yourself judging? Can you see that judgment is always preceded by comparing? Catch the comparing and drop it… that is a good practice. it will increase your TLB.
Same with explaining, same with asking inane questions, same with lying, same with finding fault, same with eating, same with looking to be entertained. Cell phone, youtube, articles. For some: daydreaming. Sleep. TV.
It is important to work with one thing. You can zoom in on one thing, and don’t get confused.
It takes time. On one hand it reduces a leak, on the other hand it trains your TLB factor.
You will succeed only some of the time. It’s normal. But there will be an increase… in seeming jumps. You need energy, and you need the energy to pool… But if you don’t abandon the project, it will make the biggest difference in your life.
I grew my TLB score to 3 (sounds puny, doesn’t it?) by…
- isolating myself,
- by setting a schedule that preventing myself from leaking all my energies by social ‘activities’, immersing myself in activities other people were doing, like dinner, like watching TV, like going out, like being called on the phone.
And all of the 67 point additional increase came from Freecell… boggles the mind, right? A time waster activity as a tool for growth.
You see, everything is useful in some hands, and dangerous in others.
Just like a kitchen knife…
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|no energy||when you feel tired even though you haven’t done much, your TLB score may be too low…|
|chronic fatigue||this may be a health condition, or this may be the result of leaking too much energy, most likely nutritional deficiency|
|wake tired||if you wake up tired you probably are not healthy, have a low health number, and maybe an even lower hydration number|