I made a terrifying discovery today. The discovery has been long time coming, but today, because the circumstances were so different, I could actually see it. This discovery will change the life of thousands! Guaranteed!
They say that you create your life. It sounds so far-fetched that most people would say: why would anyone create misery, poverty, rape, and death, right?
They never explained to me clearly enough, so I don't even know if they know the REAL dynamic, my hunch is that maybe the first person that said it did, but not the ones that have been repeating this sentence, like parrots.
I promptly called the client to stop him from coming, I wasn't going to be toothless... just wasn't going to be.
I caught him, and he thanked me. I found some tools, took the pipe off the bottom of the sink, found the cap, but now the sink is leaking.
I called the landlord and left a message.
Then I sat back in front of my computer, still toothless, to play some computer games.
I had the thought: this happened for a reason, and was on the lookout to be there when the reason shows up.
It showed up in about two minutes: I caught the tail end of a thought: I can overcome this one too... I am a survivor.
And then the whole mechanism, suddenly revealed itself to me.
If you are someone who is abandoned, who loses everything and everyone you love, you will create opportunities to lose everything and everyone.
The pull of the false persona, the false self is irresistible. And I am falling victim to it, day by day by day.
I knew the cap was loose... I could have used the sink stop, but I said... oh, not now. I don't look before I move the cards in my computer game... so I need to spend all my might to recover from the mistakes I make early on.
I talk without thinking and alienate people... so I can spend countless hours, days, weeks trying to recover.
I am doing it, unconsciously, but predictably, to protect my false self that would not survive or make sense if I were not having to recover, overcome, survive stuff...
What is your false self and how do you make your life fit, how do you make your life the perfect stage to play that character?
Of course, those of you that are in my Soul Correction Workshop are starting to see what's going on in THEIR life, but this piece was missing until just a few minutes ago.
After all, until you shed the fake self, layer by layer, you will still need to repeat the same old life, over and over, always wondering why you cannot get ahead.