In some way I was born to be one of these blind chickens. It takes me conscious and deliberate thought not to close down a looking process, not to jump into a conclusion. It does not happen without deliberate thought.
And when i forget, or I am too tired, or when I am on a roll… god save me from the consequences. My life, my business, my relationships could be twice, three times as good if I had the presence of mind of remembering not to jump into conclusions all the time. 1
Yesterday someone posted a question that triggered a way of looking that is important:
Here is the question: Sophie, I’ve been teaching these steps to my children too. Hoping maybe they can catch it earlier on and start practicing hearing the voices and memes.
How do you make it a spiritual practice where you consciously do it 24/7 without forgetting it? Do you have a certain method you apply for each practice? I am thinking maybe putting few reminders in my phone to start with until it becomes a habit.
Some soul corrections are very delusional. The person fancies themselves other than they are. What does that is the voices… So what is asking the questions is the voices of the delusional self.
This particular person is a good example: when I muscle test how much of the time she is unconscious, asleep, living in the bull’s ear, safely tucked away in an imaginary world created by the voices… the muscle test says: 99%.
Gurjieff was a 20th Century philosopher and “guru”. His school is still operational, and his school still produces people who believe they are better, more awake, etc.
Without self knowledge, without understanding the working and functions of his machine, man cannot be free, he cannot govern himself and he will always remain a slave.
Looking at Gurjieff I realized something really important: your eventual success, your personal success, depends on your starting point: what you call things. 2
He called all the voices that you hear, all the voices that demand that you do, that you don’t, that you eat, that you don’t… etc. he calls them all “I”… a multitude of i’s.
Without that training both you and the Amish horse are clueless as to what to listen to, and what not to.
As some of my students have been astutely stating: most of the voices come from the Delusional Self… the not-you. The “entity” that masquerades as you… And you fall for it.
And without training you will.
There is a huge difference between a spiritual practice and a training.
In a spiritual practice you practice what you have trained to recognize, what you have trained to do accurately.
So it is not a practice, it is a passtime…
Unless you are drilled, trained, corrected, and drilled, until you make NO MISTAKES, there is no spiritual practice, there cannot be.
Most people I know refuse to be trained. The Delusional Self fancies itself beyond that.
These are the people I tell “Sorry, I can’t help you.”
And when the trainer himself uses their own method that is using the terminology that is misleading, like Gurjieff, then the trainer himself will only have moments of awakeness… Gurjieff was only awake 10% of the time. The rest of the time he was battling or he was in a trance with the voices that he fancied were him.
I am awake 80% of the time. Not because I am better. But because I am working with a different model of organization of what is going on in a human.
My awake time is not 100% because of some inaccuracy in the model I use.
I have been nudged about that for a few weeks now… and I am having a hard time seeing what would be a more productive model… that would allow you to see and hear reality, to see and hear the order and sense that Life has, to see that Life is pretty simple if you take away all that isn’t life… the voices, the memes, the desire traps…
And that when you live Life at Life’s terms with Life’s tools, then you can be happy.
But not until then. All that smiling, all that success seeking, all that pleasure is not happiness making…
And because what is NOT Life, is a multitude, your eyes, your eyes, your feelings need to be trained to recognize and relegate to “unimportant”, so you can be left with what is Life and what is important. What is intrinsically valuable, and what makes you happy.
Here is an insight I have been attempting to give birth to:
There is a Ukrainian series on Netflix, The Sniffer. He is a guy who can smell like an empath can feel. He walks around with a smell-blocker in his nose. He only takes it out when he needs to identify a smell. He works with law-enforcement.
And he is good. He is amazing.
There are a lot of people with a good “sniffer” for a nose, but he is unique in that he has the discipline to direct his sniffer to what is relevant.
Like I direct my “feeler” to what is important.
Unless you train yourself, with the Amish Horse Training Method to be able to tell what is relevant and what isn’t, you are worthless as an empath, worthless as a sniffer, and pretty worthless as a human.
Worthless to yourself! I see your value, but you don’t. Because you listen to everything as if it were relevant!
I have some generous students who give me daily detailed glimpses into their personal hell. In that hell you can’t do good, you can’t amount to anything, you are tortured.
Happiness? An obscenity inside that hell.
The only thing that can get you out of that hell is training. Training or hell… these are the options for humans.
And in the meantime I am working on the missing 20%.
But there is another aspect, or maybe two?
And that is agenda.
I just watched on youtube the impassioned speech of the whistle blower in Larry Nassar sexual abuse trial.
The person since her abuse became a lawyer, has her own children.
The interesting thing about the speech was that its words were powerful, but she had an agenda… and that killed it for me, made me cringe: she wanted to impress.
Now, that is one of the agendas that you want to notice.
Are you speaking to impress? To be considered smart, knowledgeable, fast, or whatever the hell you are pretending? Are you pretending to others, or are you pretending for yourself?
In the invisible 53, I speak about the invisible moves and games people play.
We could say that there is only one game … a racket. It is recognized by seeing that you have a payoff: you looking better than you are, smarter, etc… and a cost; giving up being all you can be.
Obviously, speaking for effect is a racket. And the real cost is that you cannot, after speaking, actually do what there is to do… now it would negate the talking… and make you look bad.
And all the talk about becoming all you can be, having this and having that become impossible for you… because now you can’t do what you need to do.
- I just found another reason his teaching wasn’t effective. He taught:
It is impossible to recognize a wrong way without knowing the right way. This means that it is no use troubling oneself how to recognize a wrong way. One must think of how to find the right way.
The exact opposite is true. The strait and narrow of the “right” can only be found by finding the “wrong” way. This is a huge and important difference between his ineffective methods, and my 80% effective methods.
I am still searching for the missing 20%. But between you and me, happy 80% of the time is almost good enough for me. Personally. But for humanity’s sake, for human evolution’s sake, I am diligently searching for the missing 20%. It is there, by design. Muscle test says: I am holding it, just can’t see it for what it is… weird. lol