The beginning is delayed but not by much

"A beginning is the time for taking the most delicate care that the balances are correct," wrote science fiction author Frank Herbert.

Sometimes you need to go through extreme hardship to learn what you need to learn.

In the normal course of events, as soon as I have something, I announce it on these pages, and that's that... the beginning is not taken delicate care of... and I don't worry about the balances.

Let the chips fall where the chips fall, has been my slogan, and it has caused me considerable amount of suffering, physical, financial, mostly.

I have spent the last week under siege, being attacked 18-19 hours a day. Most of the time I was semi-conscious only, and mostly on conscious of the pain, contemplating my mortality, hoping to get an hour's of clarity to leave life with the result I have sought and found: the key to the thousand years of peace.

Last night I gave up trying to hold it together and surrendered to whatever I have been connecting to it, and said the magic words: "I need help"

Almost instantly I feel into a four-hour sleep, and woke up painless and some clarity.

The painlessness lasted an hour, give or take, the clarity hasn't left. The attacks are back, but I have learned from the attackers a thing or two, so I am not as despondent as I was before, though I am still not sure that I will survive the attacks.

But I will make sure that I'll leave my legacy, somehow, before I go.

Don't ask what's happening, WHO, HOW AND WHAT, I won't tell you... When I shared it with a friend he was thinking of having me locked up in the loony bin... no, thank you.

Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar

17 thoughts on “The beginning is delayed but not by much”

  1. Sophie – If there’s anything any of us can do to help you, please let us know. We’re there for you. Please let us help if you think we can.

  2. Sophie, I will be here for you and not leave. protect yourself, get to a place where it is clear energetically.

  3. I hope that you come out of what is happening better and stronger than ever. Kick its ass.

  4. Hi sophie, been a while since last visit hope your through the worst of it , tough times , look after yourself , chat your friends , wish you well , jamers

  5. It is my belief that we all are at the end of a very long struggle against the dark side. You are not alone in this battle Sophie. The brilliance that you teach, especially the avatar audios, appear to be a huge threat to the losing side. You may very well be their biggest threat, I have no way of truly knowing this, but I am suspect. Do not give up, you are needed, and you will prevail!

  6. P.S. I am at work, and I play the audios all day every day. They are magnificent!! Because of you Sophie, I can push a button and change a group of miserable people into tolerable humans. Thank you!!

  7. Sophie,
    You are on the side of truth and power, you WILL prevail! You have used life’s turbulence and contrast as fuel for growth and and expansion of knowledge with success in the past, and you will do so again now. We are all here, holding the space of support for you. You’re not alone.

  8. Sophie, thank you for undergoing all this. You do it for yourself, for us, for Source, for known and unknowable reasons. I sent you some reiki today. Of course, it had to be accepted by you on an energetic level. With your permission, I will send more. Maybe I can connect to Source first. Anyway, you have all of us. I know my job is to wake up, take life seriously, and live from and for a greater context. You are doing more than your share. I need to do mine. John

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