How do you change the past?

The full title of the Playground course is: Playground: it’s never too late to have a happy childhood.

Why is that significant? And what the heck does even mean?

The past is the past, and you cannot change it, they say, but if you look in history books, you’ll see that it does… depending on the point of view of the historian… 1

In the Playground we re-write your history. Not in a fancy, inventive, “you create your life” kind of way… we actually go back to the root incidents, and look at them through different filters, through learning about different invisible dynamics.

This looking, looking through distinctions, reliable changes the past… and it changes the present moment… because it changes the future… 2

And what gives your beingness in the present moment is the future you are walking towards. So by changing the past, you whole life, including your future can be changed.

  • One of the integral parts of the Playground programs is the weekly one-on-one partner calls… Without that there would be no results.
  • And the 20 day learning challenge… without that you wouldn’t necessarily see how you are not even willing to learn anything to make your life work, to make your life better.
  • And, of course, it can include email coaching, although it is not mandatory, and the ones that don’t ask for it are normally at a distinct disadvantage.

I listen to every partner call… and give a little or a lot of feedback, depending whether the participants asked for coaching or not.

90% of the work of the program gets done in the partner calls if the participants opted for coaching. Much less if they didn’t.

Why do I write articles that seem to be only for the eight participants of the Playground program?

It’s a good question… and it is a dumb question. What participants deal with can shed light to what a non-participant is dealing with, because my job is to shed light to the invisible. To name what hasn’t been named. To reveal the dynamic.

And even just knowing that there is a dynamic there can save some lives, but more importantly, allow curious people to opt to look deeper, and take back their power from the machine

That is why I am writing these articles.

The Playground partner calls give away a lot of the “how” in the how you do anything is how you do everything.

I just listened to a partner call, two men, two continents, two different lives, two different soul corrections, two different vibrations.

The conversation reminds me of the book “What do you say AFTER you say hello?” Transactional Analysis book.

Depending on the percentage of the “it is all about me” score in the Starting Point Measurements, you listen to the other person’s example, the other person’s life, for the similarities or the sameness, and have no interest in their differences.

Your vibration is a number. It tells me how much of reality you see. What limits your view are

  • 1. The height from which you look. You see things from a skyscraper, for example a traffic jam, is a whole different view, than being stuck in it on street level… same traffic jam, just viewed from a different vantage point.
  • 2. Your astuteness: your astuteness is a function of how many distinctions you can tell apart. I measure it in your vocabulary, accurate vocabulary, but really, if I wanted to be exacting, what i am really measuring is how many things you can recognize accurately, and tell them apart from similar things.
  • 3. Your about me score. As I have said in another article, the size of that is like a carton cutout, that occupies the center of your field of vision, and you see, if you even look, reality over its edges.

So, every person has those three aspects that influence their “how” and “what”

Another aspect is their soul correction.

Each soul correction has a main linchpin.

Life happens to us all. What we do with what is happening to us is, on the other hand, quite individual.

Most children have early experiences where they find out that life is not fair, that not all of us get the same things, that what works for another doesn’t work for us.

This is where the similarity ends.

What we decide from our experience, our conclusion, our “therefore” will be consistent with our soul correction.

I have a minuscule number for “about me”, and I can therefore see fully what is going on for the participants, while when they listen to each other, depending on their vibration number, and especially their about-me score, they will see or misidentify what is going on for the other.

I have to sit on my hand… I want to “tell them” what they didn’t see, what they could change, etc… but it is out of integrity for me… I have committed to provide no coaching that is not paid for… and some people pay, others don’t…

But there is another factor: sometimes helping people to see what they are not ready is akin to cutting the cocoon open to help the not-ready butterfly “applicant” to save them from having to break the cocoon and the pain it implies.

So I don’t….

Even in this article I am trying to not say anything that cuts someone’s cocoon open: what makes a butterfly fly is the effort they needed to break the cocoon open.

Sheer torture for the “emperor”… or in this case, the teacher/coach.

What else can I see from the partner calls?

Life is full of rackets. Every unpleasant feeling is a signal for the underlying iceberg, the invisible parts of the racket.

Payoff is what perpetuates the machine: without some perceived benefit, no one would go through the pain and turmoil of the racket.

Payoff sounds good, right? Like a salary… but in fact it is the biggest criminal in all. It is what corrupts people, makes them sell out, makes them do unimaginably evil things… betray their country, betray their family, betray their best.

When it comes to rackets, the most frequent payoff is never having to show up in life, measure up, produce, really know.

So rackets are really what are the underlying dynamic of procrastination, underachievement, and never amounting to much in life. Not a lack of intelligence, a lack of talent, a lack of opportunity, not even lack of character, but the payoff from the rackets.

Not having to, not having to be the one who causes, instead being the one who is an effect. No one can blame you… but…

But this is where the cost of the payoff, received under the table, undeserved and unearned will attempt to create a choice… and unless you bring full consciousness to the racket, it can’t and it won’t.

Unless you value something more than you value something else… it won’t.

In yesterday’s Playground I measure what is the vibration of the ability to see value… and to my dismay it is 300 vibration. Under 300 vibration you may see individual values, but not value as a distinction. Same for any distinction, by the way. You will see examples of it, but not the distinction as a distinction.

So the goal in the Playground is to hit 300 vibration, where the distinctions, where the values can USE YOUR LIFE, instead of you having to look for them, analyze them, and try to use them.

The Cost: the most expensive cost is affinity, more specifically self-love, self-affinity, and the ability to live from the “higher power” or North Star of “If I am not for me, who is for me?”

The saying, the adage, that when you love yourself you love your life has been true for me, and I have seen instances where it was clearly true for you.

One student, when he could see for a while, that even though he does things he doesn’t like, he is not wrong, he is just doing things he doesn’t like.

And his enthusiasm, and joy was indescribable… he loved himself, suddenly, and thus he loved his life and the people in it.

But when you see yourself selling yourself out for some puny and disreputable payoff… you cannot respect yourself, you cannot love yourself… and thus you cannot love your life.

And the sadness, when people get in touch with that is thick and heartwrenching.

Before you can choose to say no to the payoff… you have to go through that sadness, occasionally shame, or you won’t choose a racket-free life.

Arrgh, that puny payoff is the only thing most people have… not results, not rewarding relationships, not health… no. the payoffs. And that is their life.

It’s a catch 22: in order to learn anything, in order to do anything useful for your life, you need to be saying no to the payoff… at least a little bit of time… or you won’t be allowed to learn anything, do anything for your life.

You see the trap?

Not every soul correction, and not every person with a certain soul correction is caught, fully, in this catch 22 trap… two of the 8 participants in the current Playground are caught in this trap fully, and two are caught somewhat… My heart goes out for them. But the ball is in their court.


  1. Here is a 10% truth value video to explain this phenomenon. Cynthia Sue Larson’s vibration is 200.

  2. What actually happened you can’t change… but before you jump into conclusion: the whole first module of the Playground is to distinguish reality, from all the interpretations, and meanings YOU have added… and although what happened cannot be changed, the interpretations and meanings are in no way part of what happened… and still, they carry 99% of the “what happened” for you… So the secret is distinguishing… Always.

Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

True empath, award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar

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