The Grand Experiment… turning back the clock from misery to a life worth living.

Imagine that you find yourself in Los Angeles… and then you find out that your meeting was in Seattle… and you took the wrong plane.

If it happened, you would hop on another plane, or in the worst case rent a car and zoom up parallel to the Pacific Ocean, and voila you would arrive to Seattle… tired, but you would be there.

When evolution has taken the wrong “airplane”, let’s not worry if it was hijacked or not, you don’t have the luxury to take another plane, or rent a car…

You have to go back to where evolution took the wrong turn, and take a different path.

The grand experiment I am engaged in, is about that.

Everyone else I know writes about the path, or tries to offer you a rental car (lol) or a chartered plane to “Seattle”… To my knowledge I am the only person who is engaging in the “futile?” activity of returning individual specimens of a species to test out if it is possible to return to the point of wrong turn and if people are willing and able to do that.
So now that we have established that this is what I am working on, mad scientist that I am, it is obvious now, I hope, why I am below the poverty line, and why I don’t serve people who want a little more this and a little less that… People who would pay me a lot of money.

My interest lies in the grand experiment.

And, of course, if you could guess, you would rightly guess that it is going to be a tough road to hoe” no government agency, or private enterprize is sponsoring my efforts… I need to get paid by the test subjects… You can count on me to invent ways to not make money… I mean MONEY, money that you would write home about… money, I have been making. Although for a decade or more I had to have a day job to be able to afford the luxury to do what I do.

I am not complaining, although when I look into my heart, I’d like to be able to afford, occasionally, some nice things, or to be able to spend some time with people I haven’t seen in ages… but my work is fulfilling in all its futility, lol… and remember, I am a MAD MAD scientist… so I am OK.

Little history… why I am writing this article now?

I found a short book, a conversation between Leonardo Da Vinci, and Gabriel archangel by one of my favorite authors, Tim Tigner. The story is that Leonardo is having a hard time finishing the mural, The Last Supper. He had, in the book, difficulty with Judas… and, if I understand, he had a difficulty painting G-d… whatever that means…

The book is a series of conversations between Leonardo and Gabriel… of course in Leonardo’s dream.

Philosophical conversation. Brilliant… but unless someone goes back to, let’s say, New York, where they took the wrong plane, no matter what the conversation they witness in this book, they will still end up in Los Angeles, not where the book intends them to fly to: Seattle.

And this is what I am observing in my program, The Playground.

As soon as a participant starts to cling to what they already know, even if they got as far as “Kentucky”… they return to “Los Angeles”.

Some people never even make an effort to go backwards… they just dig around in their Los Angeles backyard… pretending that they are doing something.

Now, let’s look at what the different cities mean in the context of my course, the context of humanity’s wrong step, wrong evolutionary direction.

Let’s say, it was New York, on the East Coast. I live there, by the way. Not in the City of New York, in Central New York State… on the top of a hill where I can see 360 degrees… not an accident that I pay half of my income for the privilege to live here: it is essential for me to see around, and to see far. If I lived on a plane, or in a room without windows, I would move into my mind, like everyone else, and would not have any way to see and say…. I would say and see it in my mind’s eye… I would be like everyone else. I would live in “Los Angeles”.

OK, so what is “New York” the point to return to? It is where humans were already humans, but no one told them that there is something wrong. Either with them, either with the other man or with nature or with life… It was, they were what they were.

My hunch is that SOMEBODY told them… maybe the first person who did something from DESIRE TO RECEIVE FOR THE SELF ALONE.

I am not the first person to ponder when this happened, Neal Stephenson did that in his Snow Crash novel. And, to some degree, the Anastasia books… The Ringing Cedars of Russia.

  • According to Stephenson’s theory it happened in ancient Babylon… 4-5 thousand years ago. He suspects that because (I think) of the tablets…
  • The Anastasia books blame the Egyptian priests, 5-7 thousand years ago.

My guess is on Egypt, but much earlier… but of course I don’t know.

Fact is, maybe, that someone started to whisper, suggest, that you can have more than the other. That owning is good and not owning is bad… or something like that.

And until about nine thousand years ago there was nothing to own… It all belonged to whoever took it: you could not hold onto anything. But the moment you could protect land and possess land, the moment agriculture, growing edible plants started, bad and good was born, and right and wrong was born.

  • One great book, Ishmael, by Daniel Quinn, also points at agriculture as the birth reason for right and wrong… but, of course, going back to no agriculture doesn’t fix the damage right and wrong did…
  • In my humble opinion, even communism was trying to fix that right and wrong… with more right and wrong… lol. I would laugh if it were funny, but it isn’t.

You cannot fix it. You need to lead back to SEEING that only in the created world of the mind, only in the mind is where wrong exists: in reality there is and has never been anything wrong.

In reality things are what they are, things are how they are… and creatures that don’t look in their mind to decide on what to do are happy, and creatures that do are wretched.

Where does my certainty about this comes from The Grand Experiment…

As you may know, I am a true empath… meaning that I was born an empath, a curse. Being an empath means that I feel another’s feelings as if they were my own. Read the footnote for an interesting sidetrack:1

So, returning from this sideways titillating trip… I am a true empath, and I also have discovered that I can connect to Source, whatever that is.

I call it All-Knowledge, even though it doesn’t know everything. It, for example, didn’t know anything about humans… so I have been painstakingly teaching it, and it is soaking it like a sponge. My best student… lol.

On the other hand it knows things that is no way a human can know… and it is a great help in the work I have given myself to: inside the Grand Experiment.

My main tool of communication with Source is muscle testing. The art and the difficulty: you can only get a yes, a no, and a somewhat yes somewhat no answer, depending on the opening of the fingers.

Go and watch my muscletsting video on youtube.

So, in my work I disengage the mind, disengage the “already knowing”, disengate the “I think”… and muscletest…

And muscletest things that are not knowable, don’t make sense… and I am taking it as gospel… even when it doesn’t make sense… Often I rephrase the question for clarity to make sure I got answer to the question I meant to ask, not to a question and didn’t mean to ask.

OK, I have been muscle testing people for many questions, I call these “Starting Point Measurements”. The measurements give me a snapshot of the inner workings of a person.

The most relevant numbers, 2 are the TLB, the “about-me” score, and the cone of vision.

The TLB shows how far you are willing to swim from your comfort zone.
The about-me score (inverse humility) shows to what degree you are willing to abandon your self-referential, self-centered worldview where things happen TO you, where everything is about you.
The cone of vision combined with your control over your attention shows to what degree you’ll be able to connect the dots that seemingly don’t belong together, like peace of mind doesn’t seem to be connected to you wanting to be superior, or win every time.

Now, in the 10th month of the Playground, things are getting clearer.

One student, who has managed to activate a spiritual capacity called Detached, has shot to the top of the class… even though he has been in the course only two months.

Another student who was leading the “pack” for quite a few months, has fallen back because he has gone into analytical mode: working inside the confines of his mind, instead of in the field, with what he sees. Trapped.

Yet another student managed to watch the movie of the incidents, widened his cone of vision, and is now on the same level where the second person…

As you see, becoming detached from what is happening is a skill… and is mandatory to be able to be happy.

You practice being detached about world events… if it is not your friend, family, a fellow Christian, a fellow American, if it is not a dog… you watch their misery with detachment.

When, on the other hand, you look at riches… you immediately get attached… envy, jealousy, desire is infamed.

Becoming detached from everything is one of the keys. It shows up in the Starting Point Measurements as a lower about-me number… you are not touched by every goddamn thing that happens around you.

Ultimately, in your mind, this is your life… and therefore anything that seems to threaten it, is about you. It gets created at age 3, generally, if and when a child is brought up with adults… not if the child is brought up with animals, and somewhat if more than one child is there to compete with…

This is what “taking things personally” means… and is one of the Four Agreements in that famous book.

Today’s humans take everything personally… they even have a personal god… who punishes them, according to some rules, or according to his whim…

If you believe in some personal god, you are too far gone… I say.

I don’t mention your vibration number, but if you do believe in some personal god, or the law of attraction, your vibration is almost certainly at 100…

To the degree that you have doubts… your vibration starts going up.

The moment you are able to look at the “movie” of what is happening, picture AND audio, NOT silent movie, you see what is happening in reality… and you can see that it has nothing to do with you, even if it involves you physically, or otherwise, it is not happening TO you. Then you assume intentionality, and with rare exceptions, rarely anything has an intention to do anything. Even when you think of killing someone… it is not about them. If you took the time to take yourself out of behind your eyeballs, you would be mortified at the pain you are causing.

The other day one of my students got into a fierce argument with his ex. I suggested that he had done something against his ex’s self interest, and it is appropriate to apologize. He doubted me, but he did. The ex thanked him… Blew his assumptions… or could have, had he been detached… But he wasn’t.

The more students stay in the “it’s about me” space, the less far back they go towards happiness, fulfillment, freedom, a life worth living.

Oh, I forgot to tell you, that New York represents the life worth living… heaven on earth, and Los Angeles represents hell on earth.

The further back, towards New York a student can go back, the better their life experience.

Just one more thing: The Strait (another word for narrow!) and Narrow method is the method where you remove all the “good stuff” the culture put on you, suggested to you, taught you, even trained you to do… and are left with the two-three, maybe even four things that are worth doing.

If you look at the billions of books, billions of videos, billions of articles, you see that the culture prizes plenty… whereas they all destroy happiness, peace of mind, a life worth living.

Now, what next? For you… I have just sent an email to my students… But what is next for you if you are not a student?

Your first step is… ALWAYS… finding out where you are. However bad your starting point measurements, they are your starting point, so it’s a mighty intelligent idea to know, if you have any intention to become better.

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  1. Whether I am right about this or not, this can be seen in the number of “empty” energy centers that do not connect to others in the Jovian Archive profile… You can get your profile free at I am not trained to analyze it for you, but if nothing else, you can get your profile number to me, mine is 1/3, it is under your name on the picture… and I’ll help you to analyze… if you are one of my students.

    If you are not… you are on your own.

  2. 1. your vibration (1-1000):
    2. your overall intelligence, emotional, intellectual, spiritual, body, relationship, etc.:
    3. the number of spiritual capacities you have:
    4. your soul correction (your machine):
    5. do you have attachments?
    6. the level of your health (1-100):
    7. the level of your cell hydration (1-100):
    8. your relationship to feedback and instruction:
    9. The level of discomfort you are willing to allow w/o trying to fix it. This is your TLB score
    10. The size of your your accurate and active vocabulary: the number of words you use accurately:
    11. Your about-me score, also the inverted number of humility:
    12. Self-awareness:
    13. Ambition:
    14. Desire:
    15. Degree of inauthenticity/pretense self overall:
    16. Level of integrity 1-100, the relationship between you and you:
    17. how enslaved are you to the Tree of Knowledge? (what percentage of your life is run by memes/untruth?)
    18. do you have a bridge between your precious “I” and your actual I? What is your level of delusion
    19. To what degree you have access to your adult capacities %
    20. How teachable/how coachable are you?
    21. The level of your awareness?
    23. the percentage of time you spend in the mind:
    24. the percentage of input that gets through to you.
    25. How inspired can you become? And what level are you now
    26. To what degree you honor your emotions as reality?
    27. What is your cone of vision in percentage of the visible? this tells me whether you can connect the dots…
    28. How much control do you have over your attention?
    29. How many predatory genes do you have?
    30. Do you have enough energy to do the work?

Author: Sophie Benshitta Maven

True empath, award winning architect, magazine publisher, transformational and spiritual coach and teacher, self declared Avatar

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