How someone answers and then executes the answer to this question will depend on one and one one thing. Here is the question: Life itself is empty and meaning-free… What are you going to fill it with?
So you want to get a great life. You want to make a difference. You want to matter. You want to feel good about yourself. Some of you want to become Expanding Human Beings. Some of you want to become producers. Some of you want to become loving.
There is just a little problem with what you want. There is something there… and there is something missing.
Easy peasy you say… so let’s see.
Just like you can’t build on swamp or debris anything worth building, you can’t build spiritually, or even in business on stuff.
One of the characteristics of homo sapiens is the inability and unwillingness to be in silence… inside and outside.
They are attention and excitement seekers. Can’t fathom, can’t even tolerate the idea of pruning, discarding, thinning, eliminating, doing away with… no. It is all hoarding.
Fixing instead of eliminating the source of the trouble.
Praying for rescue, praying for messiah, praying for the ‘avatar’ to save them. Dreaming of conquering other planets, instead of taking care of the one you live on.
I am also a homo sapiens, so I experience at least some of what I am talking about… and I used to be wagged like a dog wagged by the tail by them.
Anything that starts out with plenty will remain plenty of stuff to manage… but no freedom, no creativity, no enjoyment.
We all read about successful entrepreneurs: almost all of them went through bankruptcy, one or several.
What we don’t see, what we don’t get (and I don’t think they got it either) is this:
You have to hit bottom, get to nothing and no thing to build something with Word that has a chance to last.
But, of course, being self-directed, self-managing in that is about as rare as a Houdini… a Michelangelo, a Leonardo Da Vinci.
Occasionally, in private coaching, I try to coax clients to intentionally hit bottom, instead of flailing.
Flailing is keeping up the appearance of functioning, of not having quit, of business as usual.
It seems that hope is part of flailing.
What is hope?
Judging from the student’s behavior of the past eight or so years, hope is like waiting for Godot.
Waiting for Godot was a nihilist play by Samuel Beckett. I saw it in Hungary. I was about 17 years old. It made no sense, and yet it was keeping me glued to my seat. I felt it was significant and I felt that it was depressing.
It accurately expresses the human condition of waiting for, hoping for… being an effect not a cause.
The significance of the title rests on the situational irony that the wait for Godot is entirely trifling. Yet, the collateral dynamics that result from this abortive task are as illogical as the wait itself. Within an existentialist context, the wait is symbolic of human reality.
The subject of Waiting for Godot is not ‘Godot’, but waiting, the act of waiting as an essential and characteristic aspect of human condition and in the play ‘Godot’ simply represents the object of our waiting. … In other words, waiting for ‘Godot’ means waiting for something to turn up which does not really turn up.
Waiting for something or someone to give you what you need, courage, meaning, happiness.
But the nature of reality is such that life is empty and meaningless… and if you want it to have meaning, if you want it to have content, you need to give it… you, and not someone else or something else.
Humans got language. Language’s nature is that it creates… But the way homo sapiens uses language is illustrated nicely watching old people drive: they own a powerful vehicle, but they drive at 15-20 miles an hour… they, like humanity, don’t take full advantage of the power they have.
Language, used as a tool of creation is very powerful.
Its power comes from integrity… and therein lies the issue.
Humanity’s collective integrity is less than 1 on a scale of 1-100.
Integrity, in its essence, is constituting yourself as your word.
Not morality, not someone else’s word, but your word.
It is a ‘who am I?’ issue… and as long as you are looking outside of yourself for the answer, you have NO integrity, and you have no use for language. Your life will be filled with stuff from outside, and will borrow meaning from the outside: you have no Self and you are an empty shell.
The mind, others provide the ‘meaning’… as a running commentary, or narrative as it is called fashionably nowadays.
It is entirely in other people’s hand… and to the degree that you are ignorant to the fact that life is empty and meaningless unless YOU say and YOU do, you are a puppet on a string…
I happen to know a few who aim for world dominance, And with humanity waiting to be filled, they are likely to succeed. Succeed because they use their language, their words to create worlds.
You, the rest of those few will be second-handers, repeat what you heard, and will give over control to those with the power of word.
Integrity as a number measures to what degree you create with your word, to what degree you create yourself and the world with your word.
Hitler was a great world-builder… we have seen the results. a 30
Lenin was a great world builder… we have seen the results. a 20
Trump was a so-so world builder… a 10
It is curious that it is easier to build a world that is bad for everyone… Even though Werner Erhard was a 30 in world-building, in creating meaning and content.
…you first need to sever your affinity to ideas and ‘narratives’ that are filling that emptiness in reality.
And you need to invent you word as yourself and then do what it takes to make it take shape in the physical reality.
I said ‘do what it takes’, and I meant it… even if it takes years of diligent faithful practice, like it has for me.
If you are one of those magical thinking people who bought into attraction and such happy horsesh!t, you will have to get back to empty and meaningless… mother, god, Godot, the Universe is not coming to do your work for you. Only you can do it.
And if you hope that you will change, get better, finally get up the courage to do what takes courage to do: I guarantee that you won’t.
I call seeing reality for what it is: empty and free of meaning… thus seeing reality for what it is means severing all the illusions, all the hope, all the maybe’s. Accepting and cherishing that life is empty and meaningless… not some meaning that you need to accept even if it doesn’t fit you.
Accepting that people are the way they are, including you, That people are where they are and not anywhere near to where you hoped they would be. This including you, is what I call ‘hitting bottom’.
Yesterday I hit bottom…
…and I am sitting at the bottom trying to make sense of what is so. I am looking around and see what I could declare myself as, to what direction I could kick myself off into… to live a life not in hope but in effective action: actions that produce the results I intend…
How long it will take for me to see a direction clearly? I don’t know… it will take as long as it takes.
In the meantime, I admit defeat.
Not the first time, and probably not the last time.
Can I have a great life in spite of having failed? Having failed at taking homo sapiens to human being?
I think so… Wait, that is weak. NO, I SAY SO!
Your life is the size of the projects you take on… whether you succeed or not.
Take on… not think about. Not contemplate.
Taking something on is actually doing it. In the face of fear, in the face of possible failure.
Churchill said it best: success if going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
Not winning the lottery, being installed as owner in a company you didn’t create, or waiting for Godot.
Your number one job to take on if you ever want to live a meaningful and rich life is to create and strengthen your ability to create your self with word. and then consider that integrity, consider that your key to the kingdom.
Because it is.
Create your Self, create yourself. With word.
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