We are different in what fill you up…
I get filled up by contemplating.
If and when I don’t have the freedom to contemplate, I start drawing, what I need to give, from nothing.
Contemplating doesn’t make sense at first blush, and yet… there you are.
Some conversations leave me with more in my checks and balances, that I had before the conversation. Others leave me high and dry…
Reading seems like a good way to fill myself up… and yet. Unless the reading material is material for contemplation, it goes straight to fat like food that is undigested.
If you pay attention, I used some magic words that could tell you, direct you to seeing what enriches you and what robs you.
Most people run on just above empty… And yet most people are bloated, flabby, and not agile… lots of undigested stuff… from books, from even courses, conversations, even from calls with me.
Overeating, over-consuming… never digesting.
Contemplation, mulling it over, ruminating is a habit.
Just like food, the mental/emotional input needs to hang out and marinate inside so the parts are broken down to tiny bits, and then even tinier bits, so the thought bacteria can eat it and digest it.
Of course it is not called thought bacteria… but as an analogy it is perfect.
Homo sapiens, the ‘wise’ level of humanity defies the name: wisdom comes from what is digested, not the input.
No inclination, no habit to properly digest the ever growing input makes humanity constipated, fat, and hungry.
The answer is not complimentary: it is delusion.
The delusion is that you know. The delusion is that what comes out of you is 1. accurate 2. true 3. worth putting out.
I just spent some time muscletesting some people’s level of delusion.
The numbers were between 10% and 99%.
I started with the two students who have the most access to me, the most one-on-one time. 70% and 91%. We’ll look at what the numbers mean. Let me first list some more numbers.
Five more students: 30%, although one of them has 70%. He demands more of my time than others.
My coaches: 70%, 91%, 10%.
Trump: 91%. Hitler: 70%.
Two prominent women in the coaching program: 97% and 99%.
So what does this number mean? To the degree what you put out is false, crap, compared to what you think it is like.
The coach whose delusion number is 70% believes that his sh!t doesn’t stink, that his approach to life is perfect, and that everyone would be better off is they were like him. He only wants you to ask questions… every feedback is received with closeness, and rejection. His rigidity number is also 70%.
The third coach whose delusion number is 91% has been on the madness spiral ever since he married his 97% delusional wife… His newsletter doesn’t make sense: he is getting ready for the loony bin. His rigidity number is 60%.
So why are students with less input from me better off than students with more input?
I think it is because they have more undigested stuff that plugs their ability to contemplate.
My delusion number is 10% and my rigidity number is the same.
How do I do it?
First: I limit what comes in…
I spend an awful lot of time digesting, pondering, attempting to teach what I heard, discuss it, write an article about it.
I don’t filter, don’t try to understand, don’t try to digest things I read of hear. I can’t multitask… I allow it to come in, knowing that I’ll digest it later, or discard if it turns out to be crap or toxic or worthless.
If you ask about a video I just watched, I’ll probably say: I need to think about it. I’ll refuse to freeze a first impression into a lasting impression: that is the cause of most delusions.
And most importantly: I do not pile mental indigestion on top of mental indigestion.
In the physical term, most hunger you feel is not hunger: it is indigestion. It feels just like hunger, you can tell though it isn’t if and when you put your palm against your stomach and you feel into it. The stomach tells a different story: it is not ready to receive more food.
In terms of the body, the ability to digest hard to digest food depends on your digestive fire… your pita.
Even intellectually you could be categorized as pita, kapha, or vata… Intellectually I am a pita… I keep my digestive fire high by spending time digesting what comes at me mentally and emotionally.
- Vatas are windbags… whatever goes in immediately creates gas and comes right out. Gas, a side-effect of what went in
- Kaphas on the other hand are chronically constipated with an overwhelming desire to speak.
- Pitas are in the best position to make the most of what goes in… but they need to be mindful not to try to consume stuff that is too rich for their system…
Now, what can you do with this information?
From your current disposition it is quite predictable what you will do with it… but let me know what you could do… if you went against your own grain.
- 1. Reduce your delusion gently. Consider that you are getting nothing from what is being said, and give yourself time to digest. If you need to read it again, listen to it again, please do that… and refrain from wanting to understand it as you listen. Allow it to go in…
I have a student who, for reasons of her own, doesn’t understand what is being said while on the call. So as soon as she gets access to the recording, she starts to study in earnest.
She is showing marked improvement in every area, especially in happiness… And it is all due to her willingness to get as much nourishment from the material as she can.
- 2. Give up the notion that you know, that you are smart, that you got what there was to get. You didn’t.
Unless you digest everything that you had consumed before, it is now preventing you from getting in information and accommodating it.
One of my coaches had a habit for some 20-30 years of digesting and re-digesting everything. He listened to everything he felt he needed at least ten times, read it ten times, and protected, isolated himself from everything he didn’t find useful.
Then he got married. ‘Married’ to a business partner who is a big talker. And married to a woman who is 96% delusional.
He now allows c.r.a.p. to get through to him… and the formerly brilliant person is now 91% delusional, what he writes doesn’t make sense, and 90% of his output is ranting about political sh!t that has nothing to do with what he should be doing. He became a windbag… just letting off gas.
Surprisingly underneath your behavior that makes you delusional and spout nonsense is what you made up about yourself when you were little…
I know, I know, too much psychology… But what if this is not psychology. What if this is ontology: being science?
What if everything that is dysfunctional about you, what if all your emotional issues come from that one thing, what if you can’t get what you want from life is because of that one thing?
Once you reasonably dissolve that one thing through digestion and contemplation, you will be able to start a life where you’ll have success, and maybe even happiness.
But you, in my experience, won’t get there through attacking the original cause: It has been perpetuated by certain harmful modes of reacting to life. These harmful reaction are catalogued in the Bach Energies… and need to be dealt with, one by one, or the original issue, the original cause will not only survive, but proliferate.
The less Bach Energies are active in your system, the closer you get to being free.
I have gotten myself down to one… The Yew.
If you have eight or more, then we can see that you will have your work cut out for you.
Some of my students have reduced their ‘load’ to 3-4-5… and their life has more light in it than before.
The Bach Energies method has two parts:
- 1. identifying the unproductive emotions through which the original cause influences your life now. The Bach profile is always a snapshot…
- 2. Using the Bach Energies audios (48) to weaken or disengage the emotional reaction to some feeling. Feelings are always guidance. Emotions are NEVER a guidance… unless you consider guidance when you are guided straight to hell… I know, not funny.
When I started, I had 13 unproductive emotional energies regularly activated: Aspen, Beech, Chestnut Bud, Gentian, Heather, Holly, Pine, Star of Bethlehem, Vervain, Vine, White Chestnut, Willow, Yew
I still have the Yew. And my hunch is: it is here to stay… Why? I guess it is part of the soul… the original vessel. You can’t get rid of it.
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