I have been observing myself as a spiritual practice. Trying to “remember myself” as Gurjieff would say it, call upon the “witness” or “observer”. Be awake. Either way, I have noticed something remarkable about myself: see if you can relate.
When I am in front of my computer* (where I spend most of my day) and I encounter something that requires the slightest push on my end, I see myself automatically going to the computer game of my choice, freecell.
I began observing this phenomenon about 6 months ago (it was there, unobserved, for many years). But 4 days ago I decided to employ “restriction,” which is one of Kabbalah’s main tenets, and see what will happen.
For about 36 hours I closed the freecell program as soon as I opened it. Then every time I was “awake” which means I was by myself and I was still observing myself. On the other hand, every time I was on the phone, or watching a video on my computer, or listening to an audio file, my attention wasn’t on myself, and I played… until I “woke up.”
Still curious, more interested in the experiment than conquering the force that moves my hand, I saw something today that is worth sharing.
Since I have started this blog, I have been watching how I somehow leak the energy that is necessary for creative thinking and expression… by talking on the phone, by playing freecell.
Every occasion when I need the little push and I opt to play instead, two things happen: 1. I have diminished the internal discomfort 2. I have successfully diverted my attention from what is important to me.
If you can only read one book in your whole life, read this book. Especially if you are a woman. But it can be very fundamentally revolutionary for a man as well, except I am not a man, so I can only guess.
Characteristically, to me, as soon as I got it, I did not want to read the “Engagement” book. I didn’t want to be engaged, i didn’t believe I can attract my soul mate, so why bother. So I lent it to Sandy, my neighbor, she is 38 or so, single, and desperate. Not me, no siree. Continue reading “The Spiritual Rules of Engagement”
Imagine that you got yourself a car without a user’s manual. Or a computer. And there would be no person that you know that even knows what they are about… these items would rust, collect dust, be in the way… instead of giving you the power to quickly get from one place to the other, or to solve seemingly impossible problems, communicate to millions with your computer.
This is exactly the situation with regards to life on Earth, with regards to human beings.
Billions of people wonder, daily, why they are here, and what they are supposed to do. Are you one of them? I sure am and have been.
Billions of people wonder why life isn’t working the way it is supposed to work… because somehow we KNOW that life is supposed to be satisfying, joyous, and full of light and love and pleasure.
What if there were a User’s Manual, and it were being “translated” little by little, so every human being that is interested in “riding the horse in the direction it’s going” could figure out which direction the horse is going. Because with life it is not that easy: even though the smell (life stinks) gives us clues… but life is ultimately more complicated that riding a horse. Continue reading “What is Kabbalah and Why Should You Care?”
This blog (on Kabbalah) is new, and I decided to look for a logo image for it. A picture of a left wrist with the famous red string around it felt like an excellent idea.
So I went on Google and search for “Kabbalah String.” What a mistake. First off, there were 420 thousand pages listed. Intimidating. Second: most of those sites are hellbent at throwing dirt, venom, spit, at Kabbalah, and everything that has anything to do with Kabbalah. They call it a religion: it is not. They call it a cult: it is not.
Yehuda Berg says: Our spiritual work is to grow more connected to others around us. Our obstacle to building bridges to other people is stored hurt. Perceived or real… When we don’t resolve conflicts in our relationships, our lives can’t move forward.
Today, tell your boyfriend or boss or brother exactly what you want, what you feel, what you think. You are going to worry about what they will say or think. And honestly, that’s the work. Just expose yourself and be vulnerable. Ask the Light to give you the strength to stay open in the pain.
Your soul will love you for having the courage to speak up.
You see, pain is inevitable in life. No matter where or when you were born, your financial situation, your family situation, whether you are fat or thin, sick or healthy, loved or despised… pain is inevitable.
Mind you, suffering is optional… and while it is true, this is not what this blogpost is about.
You see, I just hung up on skype with a friend of mine from Architecture School, Panni. We went to architecture school together is Budapest, and we got reunited about 3-4 years ago. We now speak once or twice a week on skype, with camera. It is the most intimate medium ever, it is like we are sitting at her kitchen table and drink tea or coffee and talk. Continue reading “Stay Open In The Pain. Experience it with your eyes open”
When I say, hello world, I mean the 1%. Where you and I locate ourselves, what you and I consider the whole world. the visible, the tangible, the perceivable, the measurable, the world of scarcity and therefor the world of scarcity thinking, scarcity mindset.
Kabbalah says that this world, the world of matter, the world of thoughts and words, is only 1% of all reality. The rest, the 99% reality is the world of unlimited possibilities, the world of unending fulfillment, light, and pleasure. Much like the Christian bible describes heaven.
In the 1%, the world of scarcity, human beings live in scarcity thinking. Some people seem to be different: they treat the world as their oyster, and lo and behold, the world complies.
In this blog we are (you and I) will explore what it takes to receive more of what is coming to us, more light, more fulfillment, more pleasure, lasting and deeply satisfying… not like the pleasure of a candy bar or a glee of winning an argument. 1
I would like to cause a conversation, a dialog, where you, the reader is a participant.
Most of us, we are sure we can see everything. Exactly the way it is. We make decisions based on what we see, and our decisions and actions take us to live the life we live.
Most of us live a life of quiet desperation. It was true at the time of Henry David Thoreau, and it is true now.
We don’t even know why we see something that isn’t there, and why don’t see things that are there… But we clearly make decisions, act from faulty data, faulty information.
There is a discipline and coaching paradigm I studied and used about 9 years ago. It is based on axiology, work of the Nobel Prize nominated Robert Hartman.
Axiology is the study of value or quality. It is the science that deals with what is good and what is not. Beyond and independent of subjective judgment.
There is a test Axiology uses to help you see what way you see the world (Value Profile). The test we ran had 4 parameters by which we could map out the potential for success of any individual.
One of them is called ‘clarity’. In my work I call it ‘astuteness’.
We all think we are clear. Yet we are probably a lot less than clear if our life is not a symphony and a victory of the human power and spirit.
Clarity is the relationship between your view of what you consider reality and reality. It can be measured, to what degree what you see and what is actually there. How much they overlap.
And second degree is how much detail you can tell in what you see.
I like to use an analogy from my publishing/printing background: In order to print a continuous tone, like a photograph, you need to break up the original to dots. The measure is called dot per inch, which means how many dots, each direction, you can print on a paper without the dots touching each other and therefore causing a blotch instead of a clear picture.
Newsprint paper is porous, so the density of of dots on that type of paper is maximum 75 dots per inch.
Semi glossy magazines and brochures are printed at about 105-120 dots per inch.
Playboy is printed at 150 dots per inch.
When you look at a newspaper picture, sometimes you are not sure if the person has a mole or just there is a shadow or maybe a blotch of ink where you think the mole is. Glossy brochures are better at details, Playboy is really really really good.
I use this dot per inch analogy to show that we normally see the world in a certain level of clarity (dots per inch).
In order to have a clearer picture, one thing we can do, is to add dots where there are no dots.
Another is to remove the blotches, that in clarity’s terms are the misconceptions: societal, familial, or personal.
Adding dots is a simple learning process coupled with friends of colleagues who can help you with accuracy. (Critiquing is an important tool, though most people hate it… sorry to say.)
Removing blotches is harder, and this is my specialty. Distinctions are the major tool for that. Distinctions are those invisible things that once they become visible, lots of blotches disappear. Read my other posts an my sites on that. Search in the sidebar… for distinction.
And come back for more… I am the Distinctions Queen, so all my posts will take you deeper into this particular rabbit hole.
I got a thank you note today. I get quite a few of those, I must admit.
They are a great way for me to track how the methodologies and principles I use in my teaching work. I mean, how effective I am, how effective the methods are. They track my ability to make a difference in the world. (Someone please remind me to write about how I view my making a difference… OK?)
This note reads
Today was a huge success. I did not even recognize myself. I was attempting to have a conversation with my sister when she became extremely aggressive upon trying to control me and failing. She was in my face yelling and pacing around in circles. I remained calm and did not attempt to defend myself as the lies flew at me. I was able to stick to the subject and not accuse. At this point her husband jumped in and tried to intimidate me, pointing his finger in my face and yelling. They both looked like mad men ganging up on me. I did not raise my voice or get emotional. This is the first time in my life I had no fear in a confrontational situation and it felt GREAT! To be honest I think it frightened my sister & her husband. They did not know what to think of me, I have had many weaknesses in the past but now I am strong.