Sometimes the only way for you to notice what a pr*ck you have been, is to change your ways and look back

invisilble fieldSometimes the only way for you to notice what a prick you have been, is to change your ways and look back.
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As I am on the mend, I now have gone outside to walk a little bit to move the fluids inside, the blood, and the lymphatic system. If there are more… I don’t know about them. 1

So my constitutional is to make the fluids move… I don’t have energy for a lot of walk, about a quarter of a mile is what I CAN walk now… I used to be able to walk for hours.

There is a woman whom I met a number of years ago. She lives about 8 doors downhill from me. I first met her on a September Sunday, she was participating in an Art trail… that happens in Syracuse, where I live, every year about this time of the year. Continue reading “Sometimes the only way for you to notice what a pr*ck you have been, is to change your ways and look back”

What does your pretense do to you and your life?

shark and seal I just had a conversation with a long-time student of mine who hasn’t been coming to any of my classes, but still follows my teachings..

She bought the Big Bundle of energies… for the second time, So instead of giving her a refund, I opted to adjust her predatory genes, and also her oldest son’s.

They both had 10 predatory genes active, and they were both miserable… trying to force life to fit them, instead of gently and naturally fit themselves to life… to reality. Continue reading “What does your pretense do to you and your life?”

Brain health, brain power, brain usage…

for those who use it well, much more will be givenBrain health, brain power, brain usage… how does it relate to your mood about your life? to the size of your life, to your happiness and fulfillment?

I am on the mend. It feels weird…

All my life I wanted to get sympathy for poor me… because I didn’t think I deserved anything more.

And I am noticing that I want to complain, that I am afraid that if I tell you I am getting well, you won’t want to give me anything… not business, not love, not anything. Weird. A strong pull. Continue reading “Brain health, brain power, brain usage…”

Predatory Genes and Quantum reality: disorder or order?

Predatory Genes and Quantum reality: There is order in the universe, even if it is not readily observable to you

The visible order, what you can see, is just the top 1%. Below that there is 99% that is order, but you can’t see it.

The more you are of the persuasion that there is a way the world should be, you should be, society should be, to the same degree you are blind, and unsuccessful if you act, and stuck if you don’t.

Of course you expect the order to be obvious, with clear rules, so you don’t have to be responsible for thinking, observing, adjusting your actions to how it is… and ultimately for any of your actions, any of your results.

Too many or too few predatory genes combined with human culture are deadly, deadly in its consequences. Continue reading “Predatory Genes and Quantum reality: disorder or order?”

Predatory Genes adjustment… am I defanging you?

predatory gene adjustmentPredatory Genes… no one wants to think they have many predatory genes… because everyone wants to think that they are generous, caring, loving, sharing people… but no one is. Not at the level of homo sapiens, or not really.

Life is not about having no fangs. Life is about having fangs, and use them to dig out food… or whatever you do with fangs… And to protect yourself.

Life would not be possible if everyone suddenly lost their fangs. Fangs are needed… Just like knives are needed.

How you use them, for what purpose, is what makes a knife a tool for good or bad, useful or harmful. Continue reading “Predatory Genes adjustment… am I defanging you?”

I am going to toot my own horn… if I don’t, maybe no one will

tooting my own hornIf you are not for you, who is for you? (~Hillel)

If You Don’t Toot Your Own Horn, Who Will?

One of the results I got out of having my own predatory genes adjusted from zero to three, is self-appreciation. I now own my results. I am proud of them. Not too much… just as much as they deserve to be proud of.

Finally Hillel the elder would be proud of me. Having no predatory genes, I was never fully be able to be for myself… I always hoped that someone will come and rescue me. Continue reading “I am going to toot my own horn… if I don’t, maybe no one will”

Everything you ever wanted comes to you through people

Bad News? Good News?

Everything you ever wanted comes to you through people. Love, belonging, being heard, appreciation, validation, money, sex, teaching, learning, enjoyment… everything… Unless you have someone witness your life, nothing gives you pleasure…

OK… maybe on a desert island this is not 100% true… unless we consider that you for yourself is also “people”… and unless you give it to you you won’t have it. That is witnessing, that is validation, etc.

In order to truly give it to yourself, you need to learn to bi-locate. To be at two places at once. Not physically, but mentally, experientially.

That capacity is also the cornerstone of being able to sell… The only way to make money, by the way. Continue reading “Everything you ever wanted comes to you through people”

How you stop everything You Ever Wanted from Coming To You?

Everything You Ever Wanted Is Coming To You Through Other People.

Henry David Thoreau wrote

The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation.

What does it mean desperation?

Desperate means “having lost all hope.” … If you are in a desperate situation, it means things are really, really bad. Desperate… Both desperate and despair come from the same Latin verb as despair.

I remember clearly what that is like. It wasn’t long ago where I was wholly resigned and therefore had nothing to look forward to…

It was about 10 years ago that I had a turning point.

Continue reading “How you stop everything You Ever Wanted from Coming To You?”

The puzzle of human evolution, how are we doing?

Almost any puzzle worth its name has a “catch”… that doesn’t look anything worth exploring.

It looks innocuous, unimportant, just like anything and everything else.

Whether it is physical puzzle or a mental puzzle, it has one catch…

In my growth I have faced and solved many puzzles. Continue reading “The puzzle of human evolution, how are we doing?”

Behaviors that hold you back from success

behavior icebergThere is a behavior that I used to have, and have successfully beaten.

The behavior  is the “out of sight/out of mind”, “now that I am doing something else, I don’t remember the things I have been doing, promised, supposed to do…”

The behavior of a person who cannot keep 2-3-4-5 habits going concurrently.

If they are busy looking at something, they are so busy, that their water is not energized, their food list is not honored, they don’t practice their guitar, they don’t read, nothing. Just do that one thing.

With social media, smart phones, this is getting even worse… and I didn’t think it could get any worse than it was before.

What is the cause?

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