Your elbow is close, yet you can't bite it... another Russian proverb...
Your mind says: I am not enough... it has been saying it for a long time... but nothing has changed.
It is Monday Morning and I am already not enough.
I just read the Monday Morning Memo, and it answered my nagging question: why am I not more successful? And answered it in a way that turned me into a heap of meat: I can't do what it tells people to do... put sentences the way he says...
I can't. I'll never amount to much... maybe it's time to pack it in.
I am pondering what he teaches, I am pondering my inability, I am pondering how I can live, have the audacity to live, now that I know.
Explained: That is the name of one of my favorite shows on Netflix.
We all walk around with some approximate knowledge of things... we know absolutely nothing exactly, deeply. At best we remember what we read, heard, but that is second hand knowledge. In a world where PhD's have 7-10% truth value, second hand knowledge is virtually worthless. Even if you had the ability to repeat word for word what they said, your knowledge would be still just 7-10% truth value... sound dismal, doesn't it?
I have decided to re-read the Feelings book, and this time make it a study, memorize the names of the different needs, take a more earnest approach to learning the "language" of the machine that is need-based.
I am feeling a mix of fear and excitement. where? in my stomach, expanding to my chest.
My plan is to read/study the book is to study it at the beginning of my evening reading session for about 10 minutes, and then switch to my "other" book... whatever book I am reading in the evening at the time... currently it is "Curious" by Ian Leslie.
I am reading Curious for the second time, and this time it is, given the chance, going to change something in me and consequently in how I teach, how i guide, and what I expect YOU to do.
Every single human, whether they admit it or not, feel above average, and smarter than most everyone... and Forget Thyself is the worst.
It is a daily practice of mine to make myself a learning machine... learn from everyone, including my students.
Humility... it's actually very hard... you need to give credit where credit is due, and every time, it's human nature, you experience the marker feelings that come along with comparison: someone is better than me... therefore I must be no good.
Today the sky is open and the motive power of the Universe can be downloaded. I'll be doing it in a few minutes.
That energy, the Day of Power energy is what powers the spirit inside. The spirit that expresses itself, makes itself felt in you. If you refuse to move with it, the pressure is tremendous. In creativity it is the energy that pushes you to go beyond the limitation of the horizontal plane.
...in fact, without that secret switch you can't really get to 200 vibration, and if by accident (siphoning someone else's energy) you got there... you'll lose it... because to get to 200 and stay there... you need this capacity...
Everyone has a good firm suggestion what is the most important spiritual capacity of a person who'll go far... very far, or at least as far as experiencing the good life goes...
Because the good life is not very far... no matter what anyone says.
If you ever wondered where guidance comes from, here is a great example, from about 10 minutes ago.
In an email conversation, one of my "interns" was commiserating with me... because the refrigerator died again, and this time there is no excuse: it needs to be replaced.
But... in order to bring in a new one, I have to push stuff aside, clean the old one from now rotting stuff... and I feel very weak to even contemplate doing it.
So she says (my intern): "and everything feels heavy when you're weak."
Lucky formulation of a sentence... because it woke me up. This, what she says, is true across the board. It is true in the physical realm, and it is even more true in the "psychological" realm: if you feel weak you'll do little.